Hey y’all, how’s your Thursday night treatin’ ya? I’ve been feeling sort of blahh all day, just generally wiped out from my migraine last night, and so my appetite today hasn’t been as voracious as it usually is. Just a warning!
Since I didn’t think I could stand the heat today, I did a 75 minute Dave Farmar podcast at home for day 3 of Yoga Challenge Month. I did his latest one available for free on itunes, and duuuuude…did it ever work me good! Leave it to Dave…it’s a good thing I do these podcasts in the comfort of my own living room because there are many times I give good ol’ Dave a piece of my mind while doing the 500th forearm plank and standing splits pose. I ALWAYS feel like I got the best workout ever after I’m done though.
For lunch I had some leftover edamame, corn and quinoa salad with a pear—
I didn’t finish all the salad you see; I was about midway through and decided all I really wanted was a big juicy pear so that’s what I ate!
I felt pretty icky this afternoon so I laid down and took an hour nap. When I got up, I went for a 45 minute walk outside. Ate an apple with cinnamon and almond butter for a mid-afternoon snack—-
And then, Amy provided dinner yet again! 🙂
This was my first time trying Amy’s vegetarian baked beans and I was pretty skeptical because I most always make my own homemade baked beans. Well, these weren’t as good as homemade (obviously) but they w ere pretty darn tasty. VERY tasty to be exact and I will definitely be buying another can soon. I had a serving of them over a baked sweet potato and it was a very tasty combo indeed.
caitlin
December 17, 2009 at 8:11 pmi love you.
i carry around your brother’s memorial card in my wallet and i look at it often and think of you.
hugs.
Hillary @ Nutrition Nut on the Run
December 17, 2009 at 8:14 pmNo one’s life is all glitz & glam, right? It must be hard to be so far away from home, but I’m so glad your fam is coming to visit you for the holiday. It always saddens me when you mention your brother. I’ve been really curious about his passing, but know it’s a personal subject to talk about.
Great job cranking out your book. Sounds like you’re making great progress.
Keep your chin up, Miss Jenna! =)
Anna @ Newlywed, Newly Veg
December 17, 2009 at 8:15 pmLiving far away from family is always hardest during the holidays. I definitely have some down days myself…just remember, you’re only ever a flight away, if things get really bad. And 99 times out of 100, when I have a night of missing my family so bad it literally hurts my heart, the next morning, things somehow look brighter.
Hope things cheer up around there! Stay strong!
Olivia
December 17, 2009 at 8:16 pmHi,
Are you measuring out your almond butter now that you are cleaning up your diet?
Courtney (The Hungry Yogini)
December 17, 2009 at 8:17 pmLove you, J.
Then the delight, when your courage kindled,
And out you stepped onto new ground,
Your eyes young again with energy and dream,
A path of plenitude opening before you.
Though your destination is not yet clear
You can trust the promise of this opening;
Unfurl yourself into the grace of beginning
That is at one with your life’s desire.
Awaken your spirit to adventure;
Hold nothing back, learn to find ease in risk;
Soon you will be home in a new rhythm,
For your soul senses the world that awaits you.
– John O’Donohue
kelly
December 17, 2009 at 8:19 pmHi Jenna! I pray you find comfort and peace this Christmas. I know the feeling of missing someone deeply during the holidays. My dad passed away 2 years ago and time still hasn’t seemed to heal me yet. Especially during Christmas. I hope you find strength. Enjoy your parents when they come in town. There is still so much to be grateful for 🙂 hugs!!
Carolyn
December 17, 2009 at 8:27 pmI’ll be praying for you! Hope things brighten up soon.
Tammy (Defining Wellness)
December 17, 2009 at 8:29 pmSimple combos like sweet potatoes and beans are the best. I usually do it with black beans, and I can’t wait to try the baked beans combo. Why didn’t I think of that? You’re a combo genius. 🙂
Erin
December 17, 2009 at 8:30 pmEven living in England, I managed to avoid ever eating baked beans (the Brits love them for breakfast). Maybe Amy’s would be a good way to ease into them … I like everything else she makes! 😉
Shannon (The Daily Balance)
December 17, 2009 at 8:30 pmThinking of you…
hugs!
xo
Erin
December 17, 2009 at 8:33 pmHey Jenna – Just reading the blog, it’s easy to tell that you’ve had a whirlwind several months and the highs have been really high (can we say, ‘book deal’!?!) and the lows were major lows. You seem to be doing every thing right – give yourself space and rest. Know that you are loved. Not to be too new-agey, but I think your brother’s spirit is with you. Take care.
katy
December 17, 2009 at 8:33 pmhope things get better for you! i am lucky enough to get to head home for xmas (i live in florida, family is in pennsylvania), but it will be 3 years next week since my brother died (he was also named john!), so the holidays don’t really have the same meaning to me as they used to. hang in there! 🙂
Michelle@Eatingjourney
December 17, 2009 at 8:33 pmI know that we’re both kinda in the same ocean..ie the pacific..kinda..so I am sending my love riding on the waves.
You have gone through so much. I was looking back through posts of yours the other day and to say that your life has been a whirlwind is a shear understatement. What you have done with your life, your blog, your career, your personal life are a testament to your character.
It’s normal, I think, to have down days. Days when a hug from someone who REALLY knows you is all that you need. Distance is hard at times. REALLY hard. Remember that you are living your life in the grace that is within you. Fall back on that.
Let the waves ride, crash against the shore. Know that you are loved and watched over.
~M
Christa
December 17, 2009 at 8:37 pmSending good thoughts your way!
Madelin @ What is for Breakfast?
December 17, 2009 at 8:39 pmI agree that sometimes just doing laundry at a laundromat is therapeutic :). Glad your migraine has gone away and hope you are feeling 100% soon.
Kara (@Kara's Marathon)
December 17, 2009 at 8:41 pm(((big hugs))) The holidays are always tough for me too — my mom passed away four years ago in January, and I still vividly remember my Christmas Day trip to the hospital and all of the unpleasantness that comes with this time of the year…
It gets a little bit easier over time, I promise, but it’s never easy. Just keep honoring your brother by living your life to the fullest; I’m sure he’s been watching over your amazing whirlwind of a year, and I bet he’s really proud 🙂
Amanda (Two Boos Who Eat)
December 17, 2009 at 8:48 pmI know we don’t really know each other but I know what it’s like to lose someone. Sometimes the pain hits you like a ton of bricks out of nowhere. I just want you to know that I care and will keep you in my thoughts.
I hope your migraine feels better soon. 🙂 I get them all the time and they are NOT fun at all.
Chelsea (Chelsea's Chew and Run Fun)
December 17, 2009 at 8:49 pmSorry to hear you’re going through it. I know, first-hand, how rough and intense home-sickness can get. Also, it goes without saying that you’ve had an intense year, and my heart goes out to you during your times of grief. I can’t tell you how much I admire your strength.
I swear at the teachers conducting yoga podcasts, too. Haha. It’s just wrong to make someone hold a power lunge for more than two minutes!
Lisa (bakebikeblog)
December 17, 2009 at 8:50 pmSorry to hear that you have had a rough day – but it seems that after some deep thinking you have come out the other side smiling 🙂 It really can be a hard time of year – especially when you are far from your family and missing loved ones….but take comfort knowing that you are probably in their thoughts and hearts more than you could imagine! Stay strong 🙂
OrganicAshley
December 17, 2009 at 9:07 pmFirst of all can I just say- Birkham yoga is freakin’ amazing!!! I mean really I went to my first class today and fell in love. The class gave me such a wonderful feeling of well being. wow it was great.
I am always amazed at what you pull out of your kitchen. When I saw your sweet potato baked beans combo I think why didn’t I think of that! The combos you make never occur to me but make total sense. Do you shop with a grocery list or do you just buy what looks good?
PS Stay strong girl! God has blessed you in so many ways. Plus aren’t your parents coming to see you soon.
Meredith
December 17, 2009 at 9:15 pm(I’m a daily reader, but this is my first time commenting!)
I too understand the super high highs and the super low lows. that was the past year for me, as well. I lost my father just before thanksgiving 2008 and let me just tell you — the holidays are awful. but every day you pull yourself out of the darkness and cherish the happiness your brother’s life brought to yours, and not the darkness that his death did, you are moving towards happier times. it does get easier, I swear. you can do this!
J
December 17, 2009 at 9:17 pmI actually miss your blog posts about your brother.You wrote such sweet stories about him even in your darkest hour.
I hope you will let your grief out occasionally through the blog without becoming too personal of course.
So many of us are experiencing grief of a young soul taken too soon and it is so immensely comforting to hear of other’s thoughts and journeys through the painful lows and bittersweet highs.
Wishing you continued strength as you and your family grieve this Christmas and beyond.It’s a long joutney and one never totally heals,but eventually one (Me!) accepts part of what has happened and finds a little space in one’s heart to store the sorrow.It overfllows at times throughout life, but that just shows us how much we loved these special people.They will never ever leave our hearts and minds but their souls will help us carry on with some purpose in life.
This post is the first one since you moved to Cali that touched my soul deeply.Bless you and your parents and may God grant you some peace this holiday season.We all care about you just simply by being “readers”.
Mama Pea
December 17, 2009 at 9:25 pmI am really happy for you that you could let down the little wall of tastings and gourmet restaurants (which are still fantastic, mind you), but let yourself share and feel your emotions for a moment. I’m just sorry it comes at a moment when you aren’t physically feeling the best. You and your family are in my prayers this Christmas.
Tay
December 17, 2009 at 9:35 pmChin up darling. I can’t say I know how you feel and I could never imagine being away from home during the holidays. But my heart goes out to <3
Ashley
December 17, 2009 at 9:37 pmThe holidays are hard when you’ve lost a loved one and they will always be. Some years harder than others. Sometimes it takes a moment to reflect on it and recognize that feeling sad and down is okay sometimes. We really do need to just pick ourselves up, brush ourselves off and feel at peace.
For me it’s been 11 years since my mom passed away and 11 Christmases without her. Some years it makes me more sad than others, but I work to hold the happy memories close to my heart and enjoy the present moment and the gifts that life sends my way.
Heather @ The Joyful Kitchen
December 17, 2009 at 9:42 pmThanks so much for your honesty, Jenna. I can’t imagine the strength you must have from dealing with the pain of missing your brother. It’s refreshing to hear someone be real about the struggles in their life, and it’s refreshing to see you push through as well. No one’s life is ever glitz or glam, and I am thankful for your life because it’s helping to inspire mine. On a lighter note, baked beans on a sweet potato? Sounds perfecto to me!
Lisa
December 17, 2009 at 10:13 pmOh dear Jenna, so many hugs and warm thoughts to you! Grief indeed comes in waves. Soon you will get to spend some time with your parents! I hope the sky brightens for you soon!!
Chelsea
December 17, 2009 at 10:22 pmI was just thinking about what happened to your brother earlier today and thinking that it had to be hard right now. I’m so sorry. You got a ton of support out here. It’s okay to be sad-it’s normal to be sad. (((HUGS)))
Jennie {in Wonderland}
December 18, 2009 at 1:04 amI’m away from home too – across the Atlantic from Canada {and probably still not as far as you are from FL!}. It’s my 2nd Christmas doing this and it’s gotten a bit easier, but I still miss the frozen skies of home. There is something so specific about being home for Christmas – it’s a feeling that you just can’t replicate anywhere else.
I really missed the stories about your brother and was glad to see him ‘back on the blog’ tonight. My brother is in Afghanistan at the moment and it makes him feel very far away {although he is actually closer to me in the UK than he is to Canada}. I can never imagine what you’re going through – it’s beyond imagining – and my heart just hurts thinking about your grief. There is beauty though, in the love you have for your brother and I think we all see it when you mention him on the blog — please keep talking about him, when you feel able to.
Hugs xo
Jennie {in Wonderland}
December 18, 2009 at 1:05 amI’m away from home too – across the Atlantic from Canada {and probably still not as far as you are from FL!}. It’s my 2nd Christmas doing this and it’s gotten a bit easier, but I still miss the frozen skies of home. There is something so specific about being home for Christmas – it’s a feeling that you just can’t replicate anywhere else.
I really missed the stories about your brother and was glad to see him ‘back on the blog’ tonight. My brother is in Afghanistan at the moment and it makes him feel very far away {although he is actually closer to me in the UK than he is to Canada}. I can never imagine what you’re going through – it’s beyond imagining – and my heart just hurts thinking about your grief. There is beauty though, in the love you have for your brother and I think we all see it when you mention him on the blog — please keep talking about him, when you feel able to.
Hugs xo
Holly
December 18, 2009 at 1:25 amHey Jenna,
I’ve never commented before but I read your blog daily, and as a fellow Christian, I want you to know you are in my prayers. You have been through SO much the past year. SO much. You have a right to be down in the dumps at times! I’m glad you found ways to pull yourself out of it. Remember, we are all here supporting you – but most of all, God is.
Hugs!
Holly
Holly
December 18, 2009 at 1:26 amHey Jenna,
I’ve never commented before but I read your blog daily, and as a fellow Christian, I want you to know you are in my prayers. You have been through SO much the past year. SO much. You have a right to be down in the dumps at times! I’m glad you found ways to pull yourself out of it. Remember, we are all here supporting you – but most of all, God is.
Hugs!
Holly
Christina
December 18, 2009 at 2:18 amThanks for being brave enough to share the bad with the good- it happens to all of us.
Naomi (onefitfoodie)
December 18, 2009 at 3:15 amthinking about you Jenna, It must be hard at this time to not be with famikly but just think of all the postive things happening in your life 🙂 you are blessed in so many ways. You have such support so you know where to come talk and vent to if you ever need it 🙂
christie, honoring health
December 18, 2009 at 3:20 amYou have touched my heart as well with this post, Jenna. This will be my fifth year without my brother and I understand what you are going through. Losing someone that close to you, someone who’s history is so interwoven with your own and for them to be taken away at such a young age is the most heart wrenching thing I have gone through. You are a bright and shining star and I commend you for just expressing that pain. My thoughts are with you and your family this holiday season and always. Peace and Namaste, dear Jenna.
Kelly
December 18, 2009 at 3:35 amIt’s funny but I read your blog every day and even though the food looks delicious and it looks like you are having fun, I still don’t think I could do it. It’s one thing to go to college somewhere new, but after college to pick up and move and basically start a new life- job, apartment etc by yourself is hard and it should be expected that some days will be harder than others. Hopefully tomorrow will be an easier one!
Jessica @ How Sweet It Is
December 18, 2009 at 3:43 amThinking of you and your brother, Jenna. You are so strong!
eatmovelove
December 18, 2009 at 4:07 amYou are great Jenna.
You pull through it all. It seems ‘glitzy’ and yet you must go to a laundromat to do your laundry!
Trust me, you’ll have your own washer and dryer when your book becomes a bestseller 🙂
Hope your feeling better this a.m.
This is a hard time of year for many.
Namaste.
Suzanne de Cornelia
December 18, 2009 at 4:57 amActully, Jenna, your brother died less than a year ago, mine 17 months ago the 23rd of this month…and I just recently stopped crying all the time. I read that UCLA Coach John Wooden [I really admire him and used to play racquetball at lunchtime at the John Wooden Center so pay attention to anything he thinks is a good idea] has written a monthly letter to his wife on the ann date of her passing (21st) since 1984. When my dad died 10/7…two months ago it multiplied everything and I couldn’t stop crying for 3 days straight. I’ve never been a cry-baby. Writing the letter monthly letter is the best thing I’ve discovered.. you’ll figure out something that works for you, too. It’s an overwhelming, tragic loss…and it takes time. Being away from home and when it’s gray/migraine all adds to it.
Music, fresh flowers, funny movies…you know the drill. 🙂
I posted my Eddie Ross Star-Blogger. He is SUCH a great guy. Went to Culinary Academy, was a Sr. Stylist for Martha Stewart, Bravo Top Designer, HGTV Celebrity Holiday Homes designer (for Kathie Lee Glifford), etc. AND an EXPERT flea marketer….he had a monthly column at House Beautiful Magazine and leads pro shopper tours…fascinating! You’d probably be interested: http://www.suzannedecornelia.com/
top post. His NYC apt furnished with flea market finds and even a screen he found on the street!
Take good care. I hope Dexter is still there.
Deva (Voracious Vorilee)
December 18, 2009 at 5:03 am*hugs*
You are great to let yourself feel your emotions and to share them – instead of tucking them inside. From what I have read of your relationship with your brother, you lit up each other’s lives, and you still carry his light within you.
Katie
December 18, 2009 at 5:10 amI understand completely being far away from home for Christmas. My first year out of college I moved to San Diego in the beginning of November. I didn’t have any friends yet and my roommates, who I didn’t really know went away for the holiday and I was home alone in a new place. I found that watching my favorite holiday movies or baking my favorite christmas cookies helped a lot and put me in a familiar comfy place.
Merry Christmas and at least you will get to see your family soon 🙂
Anne P
December 18, 2009 at 5:18 amYou know I love you, girl. Keep your chin up. I have a feeling your brother is right there with you, loving California and surfing on those awesome waves 🙂
xoxooxoxo Can’t wait to see you in just over a week! I will cheer you up, don’t worry 🙂
Anne P
December 18, 2009 at 5:20 amAlso, I love the idea of watching clothes spin at the laundromat 🙂 Makes me feel like life is a sitcom or movie or something.
Lizzie
December 18, 2009 at 5:21 amHi Jenna:
I truly feel for you this Christmas and can’t even begin to understand how much you must be missing your brother. I hope that you will find strength with your parents arrival and with the wonderful friends that you seem to have around you. You should never feel ashamed or embarrassed to acknowledge your feelings and deal with them in your own way and your own time.
However I can relate to not being home. I haven’t been home for Christmas in over 10 years – and each year doesn’t get any easier, especially this year when it seems like all my friends are somewhere that’s 50 degrees warmer than where I am! 🙂 Even though my in laws are lovely people and my nieces are so cute, it doesn’t replace the 80F, simple church, and looong lunch outside with my fam.
You always inspire so many people with your blog and the amazing things you have achieved this year, despite your loss. I hope that you have a meaningful and blessed time with your family and lots of yummy Cali food and wine 🙂
theemptynutjar
December 18, 2009 at 5:43 amJenna
No one can ever know the true mindset or life of another. I try to be positive and fine on outside. My roommates, maybe even a lot of my blog readers think I have this “normal” life and this happiness…when in reality its so far from true. You can be down…just be grateful for what you can do…75 minutes of yoga?….some of us just do 10 minutes of stretching a couple times a week 😉 …a gym? some of us just walk for 30 minutes a day….we all have woes, its the way we survive them that defines and shapes our character and spirit.
You are a great gal of course, and everyone knows it …baked beans + sweet potato is great great choice!
theemptynutjar
December 18, 2009 at 5:43 amJenna
No one can ever know the true mindset or life of another. I try to be positive and fine on outside. My roommates, maybe even a lot of my blog readers think I have this “normal” life and this happiness…when in reality its so far from true. You can be down…just be grateful for what you can do…75 minutes of yoga?….some of us just do 10 minutes of stretching a couple times a week 😉 …a gym? some of us just walk for 30 minutes a day….we all have woes, its the way we survive them that defines and shapes our character and spirit.
You are a great gal of course, and everyone knows it …baked beans + sweet potato is great great choice!
Anne Marie@New Weigh of Life
December 18, 2009 at 5:56 amHugs and prayers are being sent your way 🙂
Diana @ frontyardfoodie
December 18, 2009 at 5:58 amHey Jenna,
You also struck a chord with me and even though I’ve never lost someone my sister moved to France this past fall and as the Christmas season gets deeper and deeper I miss her more and more….I watched Love Actually and bawled my eyes out thinking about her.
I’ll be praying for you and I hope you start feeling better! Much love.
Amanda
December 18, 2009 at 6:00 amJenna, Thank you for your honesty on this post. Although I do not know what it is like to lose a sibling, there are often times that I feel homesick, depressed, down, whatever .. and it’s often helpful to know that I’m not alone. I think that you are an amazing person (even though I have never met you), and those times of reflection are just normal and healthy – just as healthy as the happy times. Hang in there, girl … you’ve got readers across the world with their arms open, supporting you!! You are not alone 🙂
rebecca lustig
December 18, 2009 at 6:01 amLovin Amy’s soups. Such an easy life savor, no?
Smile 🙂
bec xo
Jenna
December 18, 2009 at 6:14 amhang in there sweet heart! Your parents re coming so soon
Corey
December 18, 2009 at 6:22 amHi Jenna,
Glad your headache finally went away! Good for you for pulling yourself off the kitchen floor – I probably would have sat there all night thinking how unfair life is. You are a strong girl. I will be praying for peace and comfort for you and your parents in the coming week . . .it will be so great for you to spend Christmas with them! Also, you probably already know it, but if you don’t, look up Philippians 4: 6-7 . . .that verse ALWAYS comforts me when I’m feeling down.
Cait (Cait's Plate)
December 18, 2009 at 6:25 amI’m so sorry you’re feeling down Jenna. I definitely have my days like that too. Sometimes writing and thinking is great for it, but ultimately, what I find the most helpful, is to jolt myself out of the situation. Even if it is just going to the laundromat or taking a walk. It resets your mindset a bit and pulls you out of the darkness.
I hope you can find a way to make your holiday special on it’s own! We’ll all be here for you so enlist our help! 🙂
Feel better.
gina (fitnessista)
December 18, 2009 at 6:26 ami definitely feel ya. being away from family is horrible, especially during the holidays and i can’t imagine how much that’s magnified with your brother gone.
thinking about you <3
laura dishes
December 18, 2009 at 6:28 amI’m glad that you shared your feelings with us. I think that you’re courageous and strong for moving to CA to experience a different life. And that life seems fantastic! I’m sure that your brother would be proud that you’re living your life to the fullest, and I’m glad that you’re parents are coming out to visit you soon. I hope that today is a much brighter day for you! 🙂
Beth @ DiningAndDishing
December 18, 2009 at 7:32 amYou’re in my thoughts Jenna! Keep your chin up and focus on the positive – your parents will be here before you know it!! You’ve done amazing things the last few months and I’m sure your brother would be very proud :O)
Heather
December 18, 2009 at 7:34 amHey Jenna,
ALWAYS feel free to blog about when you’re feeling down. It’s normal to have those feelings. You’re so close with your family and being thousands of miles from them for the first time (permanently) has GOT to be tough. Never hesitate to share your struggles. It helps me feel human too. You’re always so upbeat and positive and that is so incredibly inspiring, but it’s nice to hear when you’re feeling down because as a fellow reader, I can kick into gear and send you a lovely comment about how much I care. [; My prayers are with you babygirl!
Love,
Heather
Lauren @ louisianagrown
December 18, 2009 at 7:36 amI’ve definitely considered the fact that bloggers, like anyone else in the public eye, have the freedom to make their lives seem as good or as bad as they want. I love coming and reading your peppy posts, but it’s okay to share your down times too. I think everyone is here to support you, and we know you’re human.
Kristie Lynn
December 18, 2009 at 7:39 amThanks for sharing that with us, Jenna. You are strong and with God’s strength you will come out of all of this even stronger. He’s with you in the highs and the lows.
And on a lighter note, I don’t know if I mentioned it but I’ve made your baked bean recipe at least 3 or 4 times and each time I’ve had compliments on it and had people ask for the recipe. You’re a baked bean genius! 🙂
Ashlee
December 18, 2009 at 8:17 amI sorta know what you’re going through. My little brother Chris died in a car accident on June 12th (he was 18, I was 23). That is actually how I found your blog. I admire you. It takes a lot of courage to move on with your life and move across the country when something like that happens. I was supposed to move three hours away for graduate school but couldn’t after my brother died (luckily I was able to go to another grad school where I live). What helped me the most was making a YouTube video of all the photos of my brother throughout his life so I can look at it whenever I want and so my family can look at it and remember him. I hope your feeling better today.
Amanda
December 18, 2009 at 10:12 amWe all have ups and downs, you will feel better : ) I heard once time heals all wounds I think they need to modify it: you need faith too.
kathleen
December 18, 2009 at 10:15 ami just wanted to let you know that you aren’t alone. i sat on the floor and cried yesterday. for a lot of reasons. this past year was just a lot of change and sometimes it’s overwhelming. left my great job in a city i loved to move to the middle of nowhere with my husband. husband started a new job. we’re away from our families. i don’t exactly have a support system of people here yet. i’m pregnant. to top that off, 3 people in my husband and my family passed away within months of each other.
i know it’s not any consolation but dark days happen to the best of us. all we can hope for is that tomorrow will be better and take it from there.
kathleen
December 18, 2009 at 10:15 ami just wanted to let you know that you aren’t alone. i sat on the floor and cried yesterday. for a lot of reasons. this past year was just a lot of change and sometimes it’s overwhelming. left my great job in a city i loved to move to the middle of nowhere with my husband. husband started a new job. we’re away from our families. i don’t exactly have a support system of people here yet. i’m pregnant. to top that off, 3 people in my husband and my family passed away within months of each other.
i know it’s not any consolation but dark days happen to the best of us. all we can hope for is that tomorrow will be better and take it from there.