Breakfast/ Exercise/ Fitness/ Lunch

Got Myself A New Gym Membership….and a surfboard

Hi guys, I hope everyone is well today!

When you get a chance, please click over to read a story written about John, which was featured in our local newspaper today. The reporters did a really good job…I was a little nervous because you just never know when it comes to that sort of thing, but they honored his life and we were all proud to read it. They even mentioned the blog in it!

This morning I got up around 7:45 (who am I?) and had a big bowl of oat bran for breakfast


This is a combo of 1/2 cup oat bran cooked in 1.5 cups water, a banana, cinnamon, sea salt, dried cranberries and raw almond butter. It cooked up HUGE and was almost a little too much! I think it was the extra half cup of water that I used….tons of volume!

I swam laps after I digested but for the first time I didn’t time myself so I have no idea how long I swam. I don’t think it was that long though…probably more like 15-20 minutes. It was all I could handle. After talking to my dad this morning, I have quit the YMCA and will be taking over my brother’s membership at the fancy shmancy health club here in town. It was actually quite funny because John never really worked out……he would just go and sit in the steam room then shower and come home. I always made fun of him for spending so much money to just sit in the steam room but he loved it so much. Well, his membership has now been handed down to me so I can sit in the steam room all I want. They have a very nice lap pool as well so I can continue my training there.

Lunch was actually quite delicious. I made an egg sandwich with 1 egg + 1 egg white with an ounce of 2 year old aged sharp cheddar and two slices of Ezekiel bread and had blueberries on the side—


I made my mom the same exact lunch and she loved it as well.

Unfortunately we all can’t get our tattoos until Wednesday. Apparently you have to make an appointment for such things and my mom really wants to go to this one guy that her yoga teacher swears by. I’m pretty disappointed since I was really hoping to share it with all of John’s friends after school today (its their last day of high school!) but I guess I’ll just have to wait. Instead, I forgot that I have my yearly eye exam and then we are starting grief counseling.

Ryan is gone until late tomorrow night now. He didn’t want to fish in his yearly Kingfish tournament this year but I made him do it because John would have LOVED to fish this with him. John loved hearing about Ryan’s fishing adventures and stole all of Ryan’s fishing shirts to wear around the house. Ryan changed the name of his team to “Team Johnny Weber” and all of his fishing teammates (partners? who knows) are wearing black wrist bands in remembrance. I know that John will be sitting on that boat with them all and let’s hope they catch the big one!

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  • Erin
    May 1, 2009 at 10:28 am

    That was a beautiful article, Jenna. Very touching.

  • Mara @ What's For Dinner?
    May 1, 2009 at 10:28 am

    What a beautiful article, and I’m truly amazed by the outpouring of love you and your family have seen!

  • Alyssa
    May 1, 2009 at 10:34 am

    That article is great! I hope your taking it easy and hope counseling goes well and helps ease the pain.

  • Carrie H
    May 1, 2009 at 10:35 am

    The story in the Tampa paper made me proud to be a reporter myself! Those are the hardest stories to write, I know, so I am glad the reporter respected your family so well.

    I’ll be praying for you guys again today as you start grief counseling.

  • Courtney (The Hungry Yogini)
    May 1, 2009 at 10:35 am

    What a sweet article! And John would be so happy to know that Ryan is fishing. I’m sure he will be right there with him!

  • kirsten
    May 1, 2009 at 10:36 am

    the article was very well written, I’m sure John would be proud !

  • Sarah (lovINmytummy)
    May 1, 2009 at 10:44 am

    I just read the article, it was great, though I had to read it twice to find you, Jennifer 😉

    I hope the grief counseling is a good step in healing you and your family. I’m sure John is so happy that you are taking over his gym membership!

  • amanda
    May 1, 2009 at 10:47 am

    Hope you enjoy the fancay gym! Sittin in the sauna and or steam room is awesome!

  • Mindy
    May 1, 2009 at 10:49 am

    That article was perfect 🙂

  • Kristine
    May 1, 2009 at 10:51 am

    Beautiful article. What a great family you have! You have so much strength and it really shines through!! I really admire you, Jenna!

  • Leah @ Simply Fabulous
    May 1, 2009 at 10:55 am

    That article was really well written. Thanks for sharing it with us 🙂

  • c.h.e.l.s.i.e.
    May 1, 2009 at 10:58 am

    Jenna, Your strength makes you an amazing woman. Thank you for sharing so much of this part of your life with your readers. I think it is such a great lesson to all to live life to the fullest with no regrets.

  • Allie Katie
    May 1, 2009 at 11:06 am

    Jenna you are the best. I admire your strength so much!! And, in all honesty, I am a little disappointed about the tattoo as well–I was excited to see it!
    The article was great too–very well written, and it can be something that you and your parents keep forever.
    Much love always! –AK

  • Joy
    May 1, 2009 at 11:13 am

    What a great article! So perfect. I’m eating an egg sandwich right now! how weird.. have fun at the new gym! I’m so excited to see the tattoo. You are so strong, love ya <3

  • Marissa
    May 1, 2009 at 11:21 am

    Great article!

  • K
    May 1, 2009 at 11:22 am

    What a beautiful article! How nice of Ryan’s teammates to show support. Sorry you have to wait for the tattoo but it will be worth it! Hope you’re doing alright 🙂

  • Lindsay
    May 1, 2009 at 11:23 am

    jenna, that is such a wonderful article about your brother – what a tribute! it is clear that your brother was well-loved and had such a burning love of life! i think it is so touching that you and your parents are getting tattoos and i think its amazing all of the ways you have honored his memory. i’m trying to think of ways to fundraise for your brother’s memorial, but if you need any hands-on help, please let me know!

  • Amy
    May 1, 2009 at 11:29 am

    Jenna, that’s a beautiful article they wrote. It’s so touching.

  • Sarah (Tales of Expansion)
    May 1, 2009 at 11:33 am

    Jenna, I just caught up on the past couple of days. You’ve found so much inspiration from reflecting on your brother’s life, and making all of these changes in your life so that you can be happier is the best way to honor him. I know he would be proud of you and all the work you are doing to follow your dreams. And a new fancy gym doesn’t hurt, either 🙂 I’m thinking about you and your family often and sending all sorts of strong thoughts your way!

  • Katrina (gluten free gidget)
    May 1, 2009 at 11:33 am

    Perfect article. You just keep doing what you’re doing. God will see you through.

  • Shannon (The Daily Balance)
    May 1, 2009 at 11:34 am

    Great article — hang in there, girl. We’re all thinking and praying for you 😉

  • Michelle @ Find Your Balance
    May 1, 2009 at 11:35 am

    You are such an inspiring person! (And all your meals look great too!) I too just joined a fancy shmancy gym and can’t wait to sit in the steam room 🙂

  • Heather
    May 1, 2009 at 11:41 am

    Beautiful article, Jenna. Tampa did John well! <3

  • Sara
    May 1, 2009 at 11:46 am


    What a nice article! Seems like your brother was a really great kid. John’s spirit is definitely going to live on.

    And cheers to you for “sleeping in” today!


  • Tara
    May 1, 2009 at 11:52 am

    Ryan sounds like such an amazing partner! I hope he wins!

  • jessnyc
    May 1, 2009 at 11:58 am

    my brother has a gym membership and does the same thing! sometimes he just goes there to shower, must be a boy thing 🙂 the article on your brother was really great. can’t wait for you to start surfing!

  • Emily
    May 1, 2009 at 11:59 am

    The article was so nice, Jenna. John was truly a special person.

    Congrats on the new membership and surf board – its great! 🙂

  • LT
    May 1, 2009 at 12:07 pm

    That was a nice article…I really admire how everyone is really cherishing his vibrant life! I can’t wait to hear about your surfing experiences. I’ve only done it once and it was amazing. I love the ocean probably more than any place in the world…when I think of serenity and happiness I think of myself in the ocean off of Maui….the rhythmic bobbing of the waves really calms me!

  • Stacey M
    May 1, 2009 at 12:25 pm

    Beautiful post; thank you for sharing it. Ryan’s “Team Johnny Weber” tribute is truly touching. I hope he is also holding up as best as possible.
    I know this isn’t much, but as a teeny-weeny, itty-bitty slight day-brightener, I found a coupon for Kashi Waffles I thought I’d share with everyone:
    Best wishes to all!

  • Jori
    May 1, 2009 at 12:25 pm

    Jenna Your honesty and sincerity bleed through as you write about your love for John! I have brother who is my best friend and I have often said during any teen tradegedy there for the grace of God could it be any teenage boy. I am so sad that it was your brother. Please know we will keep your family in our thoughts and prayers as you face the difficult times ahead. Please pass this on to Ryan, wishing him tight lines as he hits the water!

  • runeatrepeat
    May 1, 2009 at 12:32 pm

    Thanks for the link to the article. I hope “Team Johnny Webber” catches a big one!

  • Diana (Soap & Chocolate)
    May 1, 2009 at 12:34 pm

    John is obviously well remembered. How wonderful that you have inherited the things that kept John active and healthy – now you get to do the same in his memory (even if it’s just to sit in the steam room – not too shabby). 🙂

  • Jen
    May 1, 2009 at 12:51 pm

    I’m glad the article came out the way your family wanted it; I know what you mean about journalism skewing things sometimes.

    Can’t wait to hear about your surfing training too. You’ll excel at whatever you set your mind to–I know it. And you will most definitely make John proud!

    Keep your chin up, Jenna, and try your best to keep your head above the water, okay? Praying for only the best for you and your family.

  • Kailey (SnackFace)
    May 1, 2009 at 12:58 pm

    Lovely article! As a newswriter, I know we can’t include all the details sometimes, which is so frustrating. This seems to be eloquent and nice, though.

    Thanks for the oat bran tip. I’d been using only 1 C for 1/2C oat bran and it made them kind of gummy. Now I know.

    I’m sorry to hear you can’t get the tats until Wednesday. I still cannot wait to see them 🙂

    I hope grief counseling helps you and the family. I send you my love and best wishes and strength for this afternoon.

  • Beadie
    May 1, 2009 at 12:58 pm

    That was a beautiful article.


  • Kristi @ Sweet Cheeks
    May 1, 2009 at 1:03 pm

    Sorry your tattoo has to wait a bit longer! I’m sure it will be well worth it though!!

    Have a good day, sweetie!

  • Kristin @ Iowa Girl Eats
    May 1, 2009 at 1:17 pm

    What an amazing article and tribute to your brother. Even Mikey made it in there!

  • Beth
    May 1, 2009 at 1:29 pm

    You and your family have handled this tragedy with such grace. The article was beatifully written. I love that your parents also want to get tattoos, that you will take up surfing and that you’re using John’s gym membership!! You all are really keeping his spirit alive. Hope the counseling goes well…

  • Rosebud
    May 1, 2009 at 1:54 pm

    It sounds like you have amazing parents who, like Beth said, know how to kep his spirit alived. And as for your boyfriend, he sounds absolutely wonderful. I lost someone not too long ago, and nights were hard for me too. But it does get better. Everyone copes in different ways, and I’m so glad that you have your family. It actually made me call my brother who lives far away from me, just to tell him that I love him very much. I then booked a ticket to go and see him in May. I’m so sorry this happened to you, Jenna, but you are doing a fantastic job of keeping afloat. Trust me on that one.

  • Rosebud
    May 1, 2009 at 1:55 pm

    Sorry for the typos, by the way. The candor of your words have just really moved me.

  • Angie
    May 1, 2009 at 2:19 pm

    Beautiful article – seems to be a fitting tribute to John. I continue to pray for strength and peace for you and your family.

  • Erin
    May 1, 2009 at 2:32 pm

    Do you think you’d be willing to sell bracelets similar to those John’s class made? Proceeds could go to the memorial fund set up in his name.
    I would most definitely buy some!
    You & your family are constantly in my prayers.
    Can’t wait to see the tat!

  • Brit
    May 1, 2009 at 2:42 pm

    Great article!! Your family and friends continue to be in my thoughts & prayers.

  • Cathy P
    May 1, 2009 at 2:44 pm

    Jenna- I am so sorry. I have been a reader of your blog from DAY 1 and for the past week I have not read until today. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I am sure everyone has said this, but take it one day at a time- it will get easier to remember the good and forget the bad. Take your time and again I am truly so sorry. My best to you and your family. -Cathy

  • weight and meditate
    May 1, 2009 at 2:46 pm

    You have an INCREDIBLE boyfriend, I got chills reading that they changed the name of their team. I’m so glad you encouraged him to go and I know John will be with them!

  • Caitlin
    May 1, 2009 at 2:59 pm

    Hi Jenna,
    I emailed you the day after your brother died to send my condolences and just wanted to write again and let you know I’m still thinking of you and your family. I know that after the “hoopla” (couldn’t think of a better word but you know what I mean) of the funeral and all the guests dies down, it can be a very lonely place. My dad died unexpectedly about four and a half years ago (he was 53, I was 24) and I struggled the hardest in the months after – just trying to come to terms with the fact that this was my new “normal.” When everything was, in fact, so NOT normal. Anyway, I know so many people have been sharing their own stories of death and grief with you but I just had to throw mine in the mix, too – basically just to say, in a way, we’re all in this together. Lean on your family, it was my experience they are the only ones who TRULY know and feel the loss you suffered. Hang in there.

  • AlliJag
    May 1, 2009 at 3:34 pm

    That was an absolutely BEAUTIFUL article about your brother, and your family. I didn’t know John, but from everything you have posted, that article certainly did him justice.

  • mi
    May 1, 2009 at 3:49 pm

    i want to hug the person who wrote that article – they captured everything so well. this post made me cry… every post has brought me close to tears, but i think when i read that Ryan had made his team “team John Weber” that did it for me. I am so sure that John is so happy right now with how much his life is being celebrated by people all over the world.
    i can’t wait to see the tattoos!

  • Kudret
    May 1, 2009 at 3:57 pm

    I think it was a really touching article! I’m glad you get to “feel” your brother in everything you do! I am so glad you have Ryan who really is worthy of you with the support he’s shown you through this whole process.

  • laci
    May 1, 2009 at 4:26 pm

    That was so beautiful about the steamroom- it’s great you destress thourgh exercise, but you gotta give yourself a break sometimes too like John. Enjoy your Friday Jenna! 🙂

  • laura
    May 1, 2009 at 4:47 pm

    great article! i hope you can relax and enjoy the weekend.

  • Matt
    May 1, 2009 at 4:48 pm

    That article was so beautiful… I almost started crying!

  • Stephanie
    May 1, 2009 at 5:05 pm

    It’s a beautiful tribute. Thank you for sharing. Keep your head up! You are loved. Stephanie

  • ash
    May 1, 2009 at 5:11 pm

    hey Jenna, each day when you update my admiration for you goes up, you are such a strong person, and i think its beautiful the way Ryan has changed his team name.

    stay stong and god bless

  • jen
    May 1, 2009 at 5:35 pm

    Meaningful news article…thank goodness it turned out so well sometimes they can get facts wrong or just give the wrong vibe about someone,but this was well written .
    Jenna , I bet a whole bunch of hot yoga classes for you ,your mom, and maybe even your dad too may be a therapeutic escape for an hour or so …just to sink into the heat,sweat away and let your mind try and have a moment of quiet …..?
    I am sure you and your parents and Ryan must often feel like can this have really happened, or even that oment when you awake in the morning and almost can believe it is a nightmare….we are all sending you as much caring as we can,and have you in our prayers.
    I don’t even know how you are able to get up in the morning,let alone blog.You are one tough cookie who obviously has a HUGE heart.
    It is very heartwarming to hear how deeply you and your parents feel your brother’s essence.Many families would long for this close understanding of each other’s true nature and spirit.It will bring you comfort through many ways ….through a tattoo,through his car for your dad, through fishing for Ryan,through getting on that surfboard for you,through an ocean breeze or wave….may you feel his presence surround you with warmth and love.

  • MaryBe
    May 1, 2009 at 5:51 pm

    I loved the article. My daughter lives in Tampa, and called me today to read it to me. She said that everywhere she goes, people are talking about how horribly tragic it is.
    Hope you can feel all the love that is being sent to you

  • Caitlin
    May 1, 2009 at 6:02 pm

    Hi Jenna,
    I hardly ever comment, but I read your blog religiously multiple times a day. You are so inspiring to me. I am so sorry for your loss. It is amazing how you are so strong. My brother is 2 years younger than me,and we are extremely close so I can’t help but imagine how you feel. He is also a surfer with his own surf school near our summer home in New Jersey. I have always wanted to learn. Yesterday, reading about you learning how to surf has inspired me to try this summer. I am also going to Europe in a three weeks after I graduate Penn State. I can’t wait to get to Paris to see all the things you rave about! Especially the food! I am constantly thinking about you and your family. Have a nice weekend.

  • Michelle
    May 1, 2009 at 6:14 pm

    It’s 8am here in Australia and I am crying. What an amazing boyfriend you have and an amazing family. Have fun at the swanky dank gym. 🙂

  • Erin
    May 1, 2009 at 8:25 pm

    I just got back from a week away and am so sorry for your loss. I sat hear crying reading your story, but also I felt a warmth and inspiration reading your words, and your brother’s impact on so many. You have a beautiful surrounding of family and friends. Life is a lot like riding a wave. You can get swept beneath the undertoe, but somehow you find just enough strength to get back up and slide along in tune with the ocean. My thoughts are with you Jenna….

  • Angie
    May 4, 2009 at 9:20 am

    What a beautiful article.
    All my love to your family. xo