Behind The Butter

Itsy Bitsy Teenie Weenie Yellow Polka Dot Bikini

Good morning!

Last night I fell asleep at 9:15! It was awesome! I’m reading this book and my eyes kept getting heavier and heavier…the book is good…. but not amazing…yet.

And guess what? Going to bed super early means waking up super early! My eyes flew open at the crack of dawn and as much as I willed myself to go back to a pleasant dream state in my warm, cozy bed…alas, all was lost.


with peanut butter “crumbles” since this is from the bottom of the jar. Plus tea with Truvia today!

I MUCH prefer this to Splenda and it didn’t have that “fake” taste that is a headache in itself. Yay!
So, in other news, my body HURTS (thanks, Jillian) but I’m still going back for more Shred. Why? I don’t know. For some reason the 30 day shred, even though quite painful and anger inducing, is also addictive. It’s only 20 minutes, right? 😉 I wish now that I had bought 5 lb weights instead of 8 because my arms are killing me.
However, my motivation dangles in my closet.

Ah yes, my favorite blue dress from Anthropologie. Sadly, said dress does not seem to fit anymore. Neither do my favorite Jcrew shorts that I found in a box in my parent’s house in Savannah last week. That is why I am now on a mission. A mission to fit in my old clothes by my birthday in June. Care to join me on the Old Clothes Challenge? Okay then.
Go dig up something you have hidden at the top of your closet that is a little too know you threw something way up there in a fit of rage after a fashion show one night (or is that just me?). Now put it out where you can see it and get your booty into gear!

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  • Exa
    April 13, 2010 at 7:50 am

    I’m with you for sure! Just this morning I was doing my getting ready for work fashion show and got annoyed about how a skirt fit. I’m ready to get toned and trim(mer) by the end of May/early June when my best friend and I are going to Paris for eleven days (and when I’ll probably reverse some of the effects…hehe).

  • skinnyrunner
    April 13, 2010 at 7:54 am

    you look adorable in that picture! i have a pair of white jeans like that… why did i buy them again??

  • laura
    April 13, 2010 at 7:55 am

    i’m with you! ever since i started training for a marathon my thighs are now HUGE and since I’m hungry all the time…clothes are a little tighter…

  • Becky
    April 13, 2010 at 7:57 am

    I’m sorry, but this post really confused me. While I applaud you for approaching this by increasing your exercise rather than starving yourself, it seems like you are sending the wrong message to your readers. Two posts in the last two days have alluded to some unhappiness with your body (yesterday, you mentioned you wanted to “tone” up, and today, you mention not fitting into the blue dress). It seems to me like the following happened: you moved to California, your lifestyle changed, and consequently your body changed. Could you not interpret this as evidence that maybe your body’s natural size/shape is somewhat different now than it was a year ago? It’s clear from recent photos that you are still a healthy, normal, beautiful size. You are doing yoga, running, and eating what look to be mostly balanced meals. What if your body has just changed? Our bodies DO change over time, and to try to cram them back into size 2 clothing by doing loads of intense exercise seems contradictory to the overall message that you try to project. I know people will read this and interpret that I’m “attacking” you. I’m honestly NOT trying to attack you at all, I’m just trying to get some clarification on this.

    • jenna
      April 13, 2010 at 8:06 am


      Its hard for me to justify my personal fitness goals to thousands of people on the internet and I agree with you 100% that our bodies DO change and that is fine. I’m sorry if you think I am sending a mixed message but honestly, I just FEEL my best when I’m at my normal size. Every body is very, very different and I’m not saying we all should go on diets or anything like that. I’m just going to watch what I eat and drink a little more carefully that I have been. Its a pretty personal decision but I felt compelled to share since this is a food blog and all.

  • Jessica @ How Sweet
    April 13, 2010 at 7:59 am

    That dress is adorable! I would want to fit into it too!

  • Evan Thomas
    April 13, 2010 at 8:00 am

    I love being early to bed and early to rise. it makes me feel so healthy!

  • Diana
    April 13, 2010 at 8:00 am

    I’m totally doing the same to fit into some of my jeans! They’re just a bit too snug now 😛

  • melissa
    April 13, 2010 at 8:01 am

    I’m up for the challenge! Thanks for the motivation 🙂

  • Stephanie
    April 13, 2010 at 8:01 am

    Also doing 30 day shred and loving it. What level are you doing? I started with 3 lb weights because the first time I did 5lbs I couldn’t move my arms the next day.

  • Ozlem
    April 13, 2010 at 8:04 am

    Can you please give the name of the cookbook Magnolia Bakery?? where you took your fried chicken recipe from? I go the Magnolia Bakery cookbook from the library but it only has bakery items in it, no other recipes. Thanks. Or author names etc. will help too.

  • Anna @ Newlywed, Newly Veg
    April 13, 2010 at 8:04 am

    I am totally joining in! I’ve been doing the No More Trouble Zones DVD in an attempt to fit back into a pair of jeans (old favorites) that are now ASSSSSS tight. Ugh.

    I just finished American Wife and really liked it– give it a try if your book doesn’t get better!

  • Morgan @ Life After Bagels
    April 13, 2010 at 8:05 am

    I am very blessed and proud of myself to have been able to keep my body nice and fit all winter, which I have never done any other winter. Or maybe it’s because I don’t own any awesome blue dresses and only lululemon outfits that my clothes still seem to fit hahaha 😉

  • Beth
    April 13, 2010 at 8:06 am

    I pulled out the shred yesterday too when my errands caused me to miss yoga. I had never done level 3 so I figured just for fun I would try it. I’m a bit hurting today! But it felt good and I was thinking I would try to fit it in 3 times a week to compliment the running and yoga schedule I have.

  • Cara
    April 13, 2010 at 8:10 am

    I am working on this same challenge. Some of my cute clothes are just not fitting right, and I paid enough for them for me not to let weight cause any issues for wearing them 😉

  • Natalie
    April 13, 2010 at 8:12 am

    Oh, I’m with you!! I’ve already been trying to stay on track since having my adorable, chunky baby 12 weeks ago 🙂 I’m going on vacation to Florida in June–quite the motivation!

  • Jenny
    April 13, 2010 at 8:13 am

    I’m withit’/

  • NMD
    April 13, 2010 at 8:13 am

    I think it’s great that you shared…a lot of people come to this blog for topics such as this, and with summer just around the corner I feel like it’s very topical and seeing how you execute will be helpful to everyone. You shouldn’t feel bad for wanting to get down to a weight you know you can and have been at…especially if favorite clothes are a reward!

  • Jil
    April 13, 2010 at 8:14 am

    I’m definitely with you! And I’m reallyl intrigued by Jillian’s 30 Day Shred…I mean 20 min? (I mean, I’m sure their the toughest 20 min of your life but stil…) I can do that!

  • Estela @ Weekly Bite
    April 13, 2010 at 8:15 am

    I understand your goals and think its great that you’re using your clothes as a guide and not a number!

    Each person has an idea of what their normal size is. There’s nothing wrong with listening a little more closely to your body and try to get to your “happy” size 🙂

  • Tracey @ I'm Not Superhuman
    April 13, 2010 at 8:15 am

    That dress is so cute, no wonder you want to wear it again. I hate the time of year where I have to try on all my old summer clothes. Shorts, for me, are the worst.

  • theemptynutjar
    April 13, 2010 at 8:15 am

    I like that pink bowl. Its cute. I need to get a decent book to read now too.

  • Abby
    April 13, 2010 at 8:15 am

    I’ll join you!

    I’m not really worried since I’m training for a marathon and my pants don’t fit (too SMALL darn leg musicles!)!!! My Marathon is May 2 and i’m going on a beach vacation with my hubby on May 23rd, so I’m hoping that in those 3 weeks, I can get into my pants again!

  • Abby
    April 13, 2010 at 8:16 am

    I’ll join you!

    I’m not really worried since I’m training for a marathon and my pants don’t fit (too SMALL darn leg musicles!)!!! My Marathon is May 2 and i’m going on a beach vacation with my hubby on May 23rd, so I’m hoping that in those 3 weeks, I can get into my pants again!

  • Chelsea (Chelsea's Chew and Run Fun)
    April 13, 2010 at 8:18 am

    I’ve already discovered quite a few things in my closet that don’t quite zip up so smoothly (if at all) anymore. I’m with you on the mission!

  • Samantha
    April 13, 2010 at 8:18 am

    Jenna– I really enjoy the blog! While I don’t have any old clothes that I would like to fit into, I have been toying with the idea of doing the 30 day shred. If it is effective, I am in! I really just want to develop some more strength throughout my body-my exercise routine totally lacks strength training.

  • jen trinque
    April 13, 2010 at 8:20 am

    I totally already know exactly what the item of clothing I’m trying to fit into is! They fit, but um, not in a way that is attractive! I’m totally with you. I may even start Shredding again myself.

  • Erin (Travel, Eat, Repeat)
    April 13, 2010 at 8:21 am

    I hadn’t been craving oats at all lately with the warm weather but this morning was chilly and drizzly – totally a day for oats!

  • maggie
    April 13, 2010 at 8:25 am

    I am definetly in! I have many a-pairs of designer jeans that I must get to fit again. That is just FARRR too much moo-la to let go down the drain! I would love to get updates occasionally for inspiration! sometimes it is hard to stay on track when you are not seeing the results you want!

  • Rachel @ Suburban Yogini
    April 13, 2010 at 8:26 am

    Hmmm… 20 minutes of shred is hardly “intense exercise” is it?

    Anyhooooo….. I fell asleep reading last night, sitting up in bed, glasses on, book in hand, probably drooling as well. Attractive. Lucky boyfriend seeing me like that… 😉

  • karla
    April 13, 2010 at 8:26 am

    love that dress! and loving the “old clothes challenge” b/c i have noticed the same thing…my fun spring/summery clothes are a bit too snug. i am hoping to tone up for a beach trip by the end of june. p90x here i come!

  • Mama Pea
    April 13, 2010 at 8:29 am

    Or treat yourself to a nice long walk and a NEW dress! 🙂

  • Amy
    April 13, 2010 at 8:31 am

    I’m totally in for the old clothes challenge! I have a pile of pants I really, really want to fit into. I’ll be shredding today too, I think!

  • Amy
    April 13, 2010 at 8:32 am

    I’m totally in for the old clothes challenge! I have a pile of pants I really, really want to fit into. I’ll be shredding today too, I think!

  • Jess @ MTL Veggie
    April 13, 2010 at 8:33 am

    I’m totally with you, Jenna! Summer is coming which means bikini season is nearly upon us and, as much I am (mostly) happy with my body image, I could use a little toning up myself. Hopefully my training for my upcoming race will help me get there a bit faster 😉 Good luck with the 30 day shred!!!

  • S
    April 13, 2010 at 8:34 am

    What a cute pic of you!! I’ll certainly join and found shred on the exercise on demand channel!! I have to fit into a wedding gown this fall!! Just want to tone up; not lose weight! Have a wonderful day!! =)

  • Katie@ Two Lives, One Lifestyle
    April 13, 2010 at 8:39 am

    I can’t tell if my legs are getting bigger from marathon training or all the extra eating (training makes me hungry!), but my pants have been looking kind of short and goofy. I haven’t tryed on summer clothes yet but I’ve definitely had moments of throwing clothes in frustration :). I do however have a yellow polka dot bikini this makes me want to wear!

  • Katie@ Two Lives, One Lifestyle
    April 13, 2010 at 8:40 am

    eep I misspelled tried as I edited to past tense! Terrible.

  • Becky
    April 13, 2010 at 8:41 am


    Thanks for your reply. I appreciate your sentiment (and of course I also appreciate the desire to fit back into a favorite item of clothing!). I also think it’s setting oneself up for disappointment to try to fit back into clothes that haven’t fit for 7 months in about 2 months of following a revamped diet/exercise plan. If you have been slowly gaining a bit of weight and/or losing muscle tone since you moved to California in September, then it would make sense to give oneself an equal amount of time to shape up. Right? It’s all about life changes that one can maintain over the long term, isn’t it?

  • Lynna
    April 13, 2010 at 8:41 am

    This challenge definitely speaks to me! I have tons of old clothes (mostly pants) that I would love love love to fit into again. I’m already working on it but, I think your idea of bringing the clothes out might be good motivation! I look forward to hearing about your progress, what’s working, and what’s not!

    Best of luck!

  • Tiffany
    April 13, 2010 at 8:44 am

    I’m in! I’m already in the swing of getting back to eating healthy foods and exercising more. My clothes have gotten a little snug over the winter and I want to comfortably wear my old summer clothes! As someone commented about you, I am still healthy and in a healthy weight range, but just not comfortable for ME. I agree that you know what’s healthy for yourself and it’s hard for others to see when they are not you.

  • Sharon
    April 13, 2010 at 8:44 am

    I’m with you on wanting to fit into older clothing-but it seems despite all my efforts I’m actually GAINING weight, not losing it! a week or two ago I was down to 127 (goal 120) and now I’m back up to 131!!! wth? so annoying. Let us know your strategy for getting into your great blue dress-I have one from Anthro too that’s just a leetle bit too snug that losing 5 lbs would really help-I need to do the Jillian dvd more too….

  • Lindsay @ The Ketchup Diaries
    April 13, 2010 at 8:44 am

    I’m all about rising early!! And, I don’t want to start a war, but would just like to say that I enjoy this challenge. I simply view it as YOU knowing YOUR body and realizing that perhaps a few things have gone by the wayside and it’s time to take hold before it becomes an actual “issue”. I think this is the exactly what a healthy, balanced lifestyle is all about. Only you know what’s best for you. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise!

  • Marina
    April 13, 2010 at 8:45 am

    You are beautiful just the way you are, but if you want to tone up like you’ve said, go for it 🙂 I know you’re wise enough to know what does your body good.My all clothes have gotten bigger, maybe my challenge should also be to try and fit in them again 🙂

  • Heather (Heather's Dish)
    April 13, 2010 at 8:46 am

    i’m totally there…i also have a pair of shorts that i bought as motivation a while back that i’m JUSTHISCLOSE to fitting into – totally doable by june!

  • Picnics and Peonies
    April 13, 2010 at 8:48 am

    Hey Jenna,
    Just wondering, is 30-day shred something you can do at home? I have a very tiny apartment and am wondering if you need lots of room to move around when you do it?
    Also, have you ever tried just plain Stevia packets in your tea, etc? I’ve been using them for a few years and while I haven’t tried Truvia yet, I think they’re great! 🙂

    • jenna
      April 13, 2010 at 8:54 am

      Picnics and Peonies,

      Absolutely!! I don’t even have a tv and live in a place that is about 550 square feet and it works just fine. All you need is a computer (to play the dvd) and a set of handweights.

  • Julie
    April 13, 2010 at 8:49 am

    Well, in a fit of frustration, I donated everything that was too small. But I’d be willing to update my wardrobe if my current clothes get too big. : ) I *love* 30DS. I should start it up again too.

  • E.M. (.Real.Gone.Bettie.)
    April 13, 2010 at 8:50 am

    I love this! I am totally in, and it is perfect timing for the summer, still some time, not too much pressure, but the motivation is just around the corner. And, I agree, it’s about feeling comfortable and wanting to rock out in the clothes that make you feel awesome, not a number on the scale or a size.

  • courtney
    April 13, 2010 at 8:53 am

    You go girl!!!!!

  • Cynthia (It All Changes)
    April 13, 2010 at 8:55 am

    My favorite work skirt is a bit tight. I’m with ya!

  • Lara
    April 13, 2010 at 8:55 am

    Fitting into favorite old clothes is definitely great motivation and a better barometer than the scale I think.
    I think you will have better results if you focus on food intake. Cutting back on the frequent indulgences and wine (not cutting out, just back) That is so much more important for losing weight than ramping up exercise (which you already do a lot of) especially with the bike race training.

  • Freya @ Brit Chick Runs
    April 13, 2010 at 8:55 am

    Awh that is a really pretty dress!! Beautiful colour 🙂

  • Suzanne de Cornelia
    April 13, 2010 at 8:57 am

    I’ve kept my ‘ideal’ size white J Crew jeans for years and try these on every Friday AM. If snug, increase fruits/vegs/lean protein/salads/exercise and cut back portion size and anything fattening. Here is a doctor’s guide to portion size:
    French women remain slim for life, eat better and healthier, which is wise on multiple levels, by holding the mindset from childhood of slowing savoring smaller portions. Americans are constantly on diets because the majority hold core thoughts about food are antithetical to staying slim, i.e. the French never use the word ‘full’ which would be the complete opposite of their intention, and they don’t eat fast. Those two American habits of stuffing oneself: eating big portions fast have produced an epidemic of obesity–the #1 health crisis in US that is the causal factor in many diseases, and a struggle with weight for life.

    Mark Morford penned this hilarious piece about how Americans are duped into the ‘Supersized’ mentality:

  • Julie
    April 13, 2010 at 8:59 am

    I’m on! I actually just (as in 2 minutes ago) bought the 30 Day Shred, because I have a wedding dress to fit into by September. And yes I only need to shred around 5 kilos (10 lb), but still… The last ones are the hardest.

    THANK YOU for being so inspiring Jenna!

    Lots of love from Denmark,


  • D
    April 13, 2010 at 9:02 am

    I don’t see anything wrong AT ALL with wanting to fit into clothes. I think losing “vanity pounds” is absolutely fine as long as the individual has a healthy attitude, which I think you do. You can be confident and healthy and still want to wear some skinny jeans! But I think I have the same reaction as another commenter. I remember the post you wrote about gaining ten pounds in California, and I think the issue is that you said how that weight didn’t matter at all to you and you weren’t trying to lose it. I don’t think you SHOULDN’T try if that’s what you want, but I think the mixed message is that you said you were totally fine with the weight, and now you’re saying you’re not. I don’t think people have to be content with a weight they don’t like (even if it’s perfectly healthy) but I think it’s confusing to say you are truly okay with extra weight when it’s not the case.

  • Jessica @ The Process of Healing
    April 13, 2010 at 9:05 am

    I will be joining you… eventually haha when I can exercise again I am going to be all over Jillian.. one day!!
    And I LOVE the dress! I can understand wanting to fit in it again!

  • Sarah
    April 13, 2010 at 9:13 am

    Would you like me to send you a set of 5 lb weights? I have an extra pair that I bought from Amazon mistakingly. They’ve never been out of their box, and they’re just hanging out in my room. Let me know ; )

  • Sarah C
    April 13, 2010 at 9:14 am

    I have to say, I am on day 3 of the shred and am in pain, but I think it’s a good pain. I have the same goal as you, fit into that pile of clothes at the top of the closet that just don’t fit anymore! Good luck to you and I’m glad someone out there is sharing in my agony right now 🙂

  • Yasmin
    April 13, 2010 at 9:14 am

    What part of California do you live in? I’m planning on relocating there in June and July but wanted to get your opinion on pros and cons of the state and which areas you think are good. Thanks!

  • Keri
    April 13, 2010 at 9:19 am

    I’m in! I’m in my best friend’s wedding on July 31st, and I definitely want to lose a few. I can tell that over the past year and a half, I have gained a little. All scales aside (haha), a few of my “fitted” clothes are a bit snug. I did the 30 day shred in March to see if it worked b/c I didn’t want to recommend it to women if I hadn’t tried it myself. It’s a great DVD, but by day 27 I wanted to shoot myself b/c of boredom! I’m curious to know what you and others think of it. I started Crossfit on April 1, and I love it b/c of the variety. I love the idea of high intensity for shorter periods of time. Of course, I have to scale it. I keep the shred close by though on those super busy days, or if I need motivation (i.e. Jillian telling me what to do instead of my having to think about it). Happy shredding!

  • Lauren
    April 13, 2010 at 9:21 am

    You’ll be back in that gorgeous dress in no time!!! 🙂 Good luck with the shreds.

  • K
    April 13, 2010 at 9:21 am

    I would echo the “confusing” message. This blog is about health and enjoying life in moderation – but your talk about weight and working out in a punishing manner seems to be contradictory. Paired with the frequent head shots of yourself, your blog has a different tone than I think it once did.

  • maura
    April 13, 2010 at 9:21 am

    This happened to me too recently and my birthday is in June too! I’m on board here with the Old Clothes Challenge 🙂

  • Midgetkeeper
    April 13, 2010 at 9:30 am

    I love 30 Day Shred, it’s a great work out in a short amount of time. I have yet to do it consecutively for 30 days but that would be great.

  • Diana
    April 13, 2010 at 9:32 am

    I’ll join too!!! I just had a little fashion show too and found out my jeans are getting tight!!! Sheez. I guess those ice cream and bakery calories do add up. What’s worst i’m studying to become a register dietitian and I am not following what I preach. All about healthy eating. It’s time to go back to basics!!!! Yoga and running!!!

  • Diana
    April 13, 2010 at 9:33 am

    I’ll join too!!! I just had a little fashion show too and found out my jeans are getting tight!!! Sheez. I guess those ice cream and bakery calories do add up. What’s worst i’m studying to become a register dietitian and I am not following what I preach. All about healthy eating. It’s time to go back to basics!!!! Yoga and running!!!

  • Diana
    April 13, 2010 at 9:36 am

    I’ll join too!!! I just had a little fashion show too and found out my jeans are getting tight!!! Sheez. I guess those ice cream and bakery calories do add up. What’s worst i’m studying to become a register dietitian and I am not following what I preach. All about healthy eating. It’s time to go back to basics!!!! Yoga and running!!! Those “vanity lbs” will be GONE!!!

  • Rachel
    April 13, 2010 at 9:44 am

    I’m right there with ya!!! I just ran a half marathon on Sunday and it seems that I thought I was burning more calories than I was because I definitely gained about 5-8 pounds by how much clothes are fitting. They are NOT comfortable.

    I love that blue dress of yours btw 🙂

  • Michelle
    April 13, 2010 at 9:45 am

    I wish I actually enjoyed the 30 Day Shred. It sure is effective, but since I don’t find it “fun”, I only do it when I start to forget how much I don’t like it!

    Maybe I’ll pick it up later this week after my sunburns subside enough for me to comfortable lift my arms?

    I agree with you about wanting to fit into a beloved dress. I mean, really, why not? It’s your favorite dress! If you’re not doing anything unhealthy to get into it (and upping the ante on toning exercises a little is hardly unhealthy), where’s the problem?

  • Paige @ Running Around Normal
    April 13, 2010 at 9:45 am

    Obviously you’re gorgeous right now, and your current weight looks great to me! However, if I had that dress in my closet, I’d want to fit in it, too! Super cute:)

  • kalli@fitandfortysomething
    April 13, 2010 at 9:47 am

    i have beem working with a trainer because my arms need work-keep it up 🙂

  • eatmovelove
    April 13, 2010 at 9:52 am

    What book are you reading??
    Your goals are your goals.
    I love the color of your dress! Will look awesome with the blonde hair.
    But focus on how you FEEL right?

  • Steph
    April 13, 2010 at 9:52 am

    What’s in the back of my closet that no longer fits? All of my clothes! Haha I am 38 weeks pregnant, so I can’t wait to start getting my body back.
    By the way, you look great just the way you are! But I can understand how frustrating it is to own cute clothes you can’t fit in to.

  • LC @ Let Them Eat Lentils
    April 13, 2010 at 9:56 am

    I’m with mama pea on this one – treat yourself to a new favorite dress! 🙂 Then do the shred ’cause you feel like it.

    I think you’ve never looked prettier. Just because you were one size at one time in your life, doesn’t mean that’s YOUR size for the rest of your life.

  • Michelle
    April 13, 2010 at 10:01 am

    I’m right there with ya. I’ve gained 15 pounds since Thanksgiving and I could say oh, my body has changed when in fact my body hasn’t changed, my eating habits changed. I need to watch what I eat, exercise and then the 15 will be gone. Thank you for the motivation.

  • Holly
    April 13, 2010 at 10:14 am

    I’m already with you!! I pulled all of my old clothes out of the attic last week, since I’ve dropped some weight, to see what I can and can’t still fit it. I came across a favorite dress and I’m on a mission. I turn 30 in 3 months and my goal is to wear that dress on my birthday YEA!!

  • Heather
    April 13, 2010 at 10:15 am

    I am definately in! I have a pair of Lucky jeans that I used to live in that I cant get over my hips now! My birthday is in May and I plan on getting in to them by then!!

  • janetha
    April 13, 2010 at 10:21 am

    i am all about looking good in my old summer clothes. and my wedding dress. that is why i am hitting the weights and eating super clean! good luck getting back into that dress! it’s dang cute.

  • claire
    April 13, 2010 at 10:32 am

    I’m totally in! I have some jeans that I bought after my wedding. Right now they fit, except that they don’t… HERE WE GO!! June 1 is my deadline!

  • Amy
    April 13, 2010 at 10:36 am

    Hey girl! You look BEAUTIFUL just the way you are. You workout almost everyday and eat really good healthy foods. I can understand wanting to be as strong and as fit as you possibly can and switch it up some with the Shred, but don’t kill yourself to get there. Life is too short! That old dress will fit soon enough, but for now just buy yourself a new gorgeous dress!

  • ida
    April 13, 2010 at 10:42 am

    i’m sure the century training will have you back in that dress- no problem. and you’ll have some bangin’ hamstrings to boot!

  • MMiller
    April 13, 2010 at 10:43 am

    You do whatever you want! I usually put a small squirt of agave in my tea! I had actually been working on putting a few pounds on…then all of the sudden I had put more than 10 on! Every time I say something about losing a few, people jump down my throat! I know I am not supposed to be skinny, but I don’t want to be flabby either! I feel much healthier when I have some meat on my bones…and I look healthier too! I just want to firm up and maybe take about 5 pounds off! Fitting into more of my clothes would just be a bonus! Also, you could see if you can have the dress taken out a little…cheaper than buying a new one!

  • Sarah-Mae @ Eat, Run, Knit
    April 13, 2010 at 11:05 am

    Great dress motivation!
    I love Stevia, although my morning coffee in particular is still best with a tbsp of Sucanat or Turbinado. Mmm… sugar cane!

  • Caitlin
    April 13, 2010 at 11:15 am

    My breakfast was exactly like yours today..even with the pb crumbles and tea with truvia! lol good choice!

    I have a few pairs of jeans that I want to fit in to I am trying to work on that!

  • Karen
    April 13, 2010 at 11:17 am

    Take it from one who was overweight her whole childhood, then lost the weight at 18 and have kept it off for many years, even through two pregnancies…..I eat healthier today then I did as a child and work out more as well, just because you watch your weight doesn’t mean you’re not advocating a healthy lifestyle, quite the contrary…..I have maintained my weight simply from watching the scale and trying on those skinny jeans, I applaud Jenna for doing what’s she’s doing, too many times people get comfortable with where they’re at and before they know it they’re struggling with those extra lbs, too easy to buy a new dress in the next size…….

  • Amanda
    April 13, 2010 at 11:25 am

    That is a gorgeous dress! I know what you mean …. I have a shirt that used to fit better too …..

  • Laura
    April 13, 2010 at 11:30 am

    You seem to have such a great attitude to life Jenna, I hope none of the slightly negative comments you’ve had above have upset you. Life changes, seasons change, and people change, as do their mentalities. I’m sorry but I really don’t see when people thought you had to take up the mantle as a role model, and with it such a great weight of responsibility and critique. I don’t know you at all, but after following your life, as it is from your writings, I am constantly amazed by your strength, grace, humility and insight. So in that respect, in what really matters, you are an inspiring role model- with a very wise head on your shoulders! You taking care of both your mental and physical health is your business 😉 Not at all sure what the point of my comment is, but there you are. Blame my migraine 😉 I hope you are having a lovely day!

  • lola
    April 13, 2010 at 11:33 am

    Yeah, go for it Jenna!!! It doesn’t mean you don’t “accept you as you are” it’s just that you want to look better! Is not as if you want to change your body into something it isn’t. That blue dress was yours after all!
    I’m with you on this one 🙂

  • Andrea
    April 13, 2010 at 11:34 am

    Most of us can relate to how you’re feeling right now. It is refreshing FOR ME at least to read your posts like this. I feel like what you’re saying about fitting into that dress is totally a normal conversation I would have with one of my friends. I think your “challenge” is perfectly justified. Somebody will always be here to judge. I am sure you’ve learned that.

  • jennifer
    April 13, 2010 at 11:39 am

    I am definately with you, just need to find the DVD! Maybe target? Please let us know how the book is, I am really looking for some good summertime reading material!

  • Diana @ frontyardfoodie
    April 13, 2010 at 11:45 am

    I wish! I’m only halfway through my pregnancy but maybe once I’ve had the baby I can focus on getting into pre-baby clothes.

  • Alina
    April 13, 2010 at 11:46 am

    I think I know how you feel – you can love your body and still want to be at a certain size that just feels right and natural. I have a question though – maybe you could do a post sometime on your approach to strength training. Whenever I read your posts on the bootcamp style workouts at your yoga studio, I am super impressed that you could get through them (dozens of chaturangas? what?) but I feel like those are way harder than the 30 day shred (since I can do levels 1 & 2 of the Shred pretty easily but totally cannot do 10 chaturangas in a row). So, is it just that you haven’t done those workouts for a while and lost some strength? Personally, I find it hard to be fit in different ways at once, and I am curious about how other people do it.

  • Amanda Bowen
    April 13, 2010 at 11:46 am

    I’m with you!

    I liked three things about your post today: 1) getting to bed and getting up earlier, 2) 30-Day Shred and 3) fitting into old clothes again!

    Let’s do them all!
    Old clothes to fit into: Designer jeans I have hanging in my closet!

  • PippaPatchwork
    April 13, 2010 at 11:52 am

    I have to say, I know where you’re coming from. There have actually been times when I wanted to gain weight, but having my clothes get tighter was the most annoying part! On the other hand, there’s nothing wrong with wanting to lose some as well–this is your body and your blog so do what feels right!

  • Lauren @ louisianagrown
    April 13, 2010 at 11:54 am

    I truly hate gaining weight, not because of the number on the scale, but because of the fact that all of the clothes I’ve spent money on no longer fit. Good luck getting back in that super cute dress!

  • Jaimers
    April 13, 2010 at 12:02 pm

    Ugh, I feel your pain. When I moved to CA, I gained 20 lbs. I thought I’d lose weight, but the food and wine is so yummy there it is hard to resist.

  • Louise
    April 13, 2010 at 12:13 pm

    Thank you for this! My birthday is also in June and my favorite pair of James jeans are wadded up in a corner of my closet where I threw them in a fit of rage. I need to spend more time in the gym and less time on the couch drinking wine while planning dinners out with my husband.

  • Kelly
    April 13, 2010 at 12:14 pm

    Hang in there w/ the book….it was one of my favorites that she wrote…..

  • Jessica
    April 13, 2010 at 12:18 pm

    Count me in! I have been working out for a while but the nutrition component is missing….and I think having a group helps. good luck to everyone!

  • Tyler
    April 13, 2010 at 12:23 pm

    i’ve been steadily gaining weight since graduation last May, and in January, my fav jeans officially didn’t fit anymore. (and i did not fit into the super-cute new years eve dress i bought in october!!! i was bummed. still haven’t ever worn dress) so i’m totally with you! i can’t wear most of my current summer wardrobe right now, and don’t have enough $$ to buy a whole new one!

  • Sarah (Oc2Seattle)
    April 13, 2010 at 12:24 pm

    Have been curious about the Shred – would love to hear more as you progress!

  • Lauren @ Running Examiner
    April 13, 2010 at 12:32 pm

    Eek, I definitely know how it feels when your clothes stop fitting. For me, it’s a hard thing–I was very unhealthy at one point in my life, and wore very tiny clothing as a result. When I made a commitment to getting well, I KNEW I would no longer be able to fit into 00’s and 0’s. While I’ve settled at a healthy, athletic size 4 (my natural size), I stupidly held on to some of my size 1’s and 2’s (the transition-stage clothing)…until about a month ago. I must say, giving away this clothing was totally liberating. I know longer feel like I “have” to fit into it, by virtue of the fact that it hangs in my closet.

    I’m not quite sure if there’s a point to my comment. Obviously, every body is unique–only YOU know at which size you feel best. If getting back into your (very pretty!) dress is an achievable goal, then go for it! Just take it slow, and don’t put too much pressure on yourself. You looked wonderful in that picture from last year, and you look wonderful now. Do whatever makes you feel your happiest and healthiest.

  • Carolyn
    April 13, 2010 at 12:32 pm

    I with you on the Shred! I hate strength training and love the mental benefits of cardio- but I need to do both. I ordered a pair of half price jeans and am feeling like they won’t fit when they arrive…

  • Katie
    April 13, 2010 at 12:35 pm


    This post makes me so so so happy. I am in the same situation and seeing as how I love your outlook on food + life, I can not WAIT to see how you healthily get back into your old clothes. I want to fit into my size 4 AE jeans that fit me all through out high school until I went to college 🙁 LETS DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🙂 You rock Jenna!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • amanda
    April 13, 2010 at 12:40 pm

    OMG I love that blue dress. Super cute! Good luck to you on your weight loss journey. I have heard great things about Shred

  • Nicole
    April 13, 2010 at 12:43 pm

    this post totally relates to me. I no longer fit into 2 pairs of my summer shorts ahhhh!!! I would love to join you! what is the plan?! workout more? any changes to your diet? This was just the boost i needed, as i fellt very discouraged trying on shorts that no longer fit:(

  • Carrie (Love Healthy Living)
    April 13, 2010 at 1:07 pm

    When I find something in my closet that is too small, I throw it in the Goodwill bag. Alas, I don’t have too many clothes. Ha ha! I do think there is value in being careful when clothes get tight and getting back to your normal place. I may or may not join you in this endeavor. 🙂

  • Carrie (Love Healthy Living)
    April 13, 2010 at 1:07 pm

    When I find something in my closet that is too small, I throw it in the Goodwill bag. Alas, I don’t have too many clothes. Ha ha! I do think there is value in being careful when clothes get tight and getting back to your normal place. I may or may not join you in this endeavor. 🙂

  • Amy
    April 13, 2010 at 1:26 pm

    Yep, that is my plan, starting Monday, AFTER I run the Boston marathon. Between winter, marathon training, and making career/life decisions over the last couple months, I have put on some lbs!! I have way too many cute clothes!

  • Tina
    April 13, 2010 at 1:41 pm

    I have so many events coming up in the next few months! Among them, my class reunion, so I’m definitely in!

  • Tina
    April 13, 2010 at 1:42 pm

    I have so many events coming up in the next few months! Among them, my class reunion, so I’m definitely in!

  • Salah@myhealthiestlifestyle
    April 13, 2010 at 1:45 pm

    I’m definitely joining in!! Sounds like fuN! I always enjoy a challenge 🙂

  • Salah@myhealthiestlifestyle
    April 13, 2010 at 1:45 pm

    I’m definitely joining in!! Sounds like fuN! I always enjoy a challenge 🙂

  • Ashley
    April 13, 2010 at 1:59 pm

    Hi Jenna! I think this post is refreshing! sometimes bloggers lives seem so perfect. I know i can definitely relate to this, I wish a few pairs of pants were a bit looser, so it’s comforting when other people feel the same way. Just because you want to lose a few pounds does not mean you are unhappy with yourself, isn’t the bigger issue that women connect their weight to their self worth? there is nothing wrong with wanting to change your body slightly, it doesn’t mean that you are unhappy with yourself, and we do not have to just accept our bodies as they are, bodies change based on our habits, so what is wrong with changing habits?

  • Kaitlyn
    April 13, 2010 at 1:59 pm

    Becky #39 Please stop analyzing . It’s irritating ! Losing a few pounds, from April-June to fit better into dress is quite healthy and attainable !

  • kootz
    April 13, 2010 at 2:00 pm

    Why is everyone so against big muscular running thighs?

    It’s better than twig thighs and you can probably do a lot more with them!

  • Michelle
    April 13, 2010 at 2:24 pm

    I Am 100% with you on this challenge. I HATE when my favorite old clothes no longer fit!! annoying as heck.

  • Jae
    April 13, 2010 at 2:45 pm

    omg. TRUVIA
    they’re my addiction. (we have like 2 boxes in the fridge right now)
    i went through one box in a day (gulp)

  • MollyM
    April 13, 2010 at 2:48 pm

    Girl! I’m am SO joining you on the Old Clothes Challenge!

  • Following Julie
    April 13, 2010 at 3:22 pm

    I totally admire your shred challenge and will be on board come September, but between now and then I’m growing twin baby boys in my tummy so I’m afraid my waistline is headed in the opposite direction!

  • Katie
    April 13, 2010 at 4:01 pm

    Girl I am right there with you on this challenge. Summer is CREEPING up and I could use a little less peanut butter and a little more dumbbell action!

  • Alison
    April 13, 2010 at 4:20 pm

    I never comment, but I started laughing when I got into work today and read this – I tried to put on my favorite work skirt today and for some reason the zipper just didn’t seem to want to zip 🙂

    Thanks for the motivation/letting me know I’m not the only one whose clothes seem to have shrunk lately!

  • jenna
    April 13, 2010 at 5:00 pm

    love your dress-super cute 🙂

  • Ana (AnActiveAdventure)
    April 13, 2010 at 5:22 pm

    Awesome!! I just recently began Jillian Michaels “Making the Cut” 30 day program.. I want to graduate next month looking my best and fitting back to some old clothes!!

  • Rachel
    April 13, 2010 at 5:22 pm

    I would wholeheartedley like to agree with #115 Ashley. There’s a pair of jeans that I want to fit back into, healthily, growing runners thighs and all. And you know what? That’s entirely ok, and it’s great to know that many others, all shapes and sizes are motivated to be in a state that they feel best in.

    Side note, also randomly retreated back to Jillian’s DVD after almost a year and was quickly reminded of how great a sweat I could work up in 20 minutes. The 2 days after, I was also reminded of how it can be pretty tough on your joints (knees mainly)…is anyone else in the same boat?

  • Kristin (Cook, Bake and Nibble)
    April 13, 2010 at 5:35 pm

    I’m with you! Culinary school has gotten to me. Erm, I mean my thighs and tummy. I need to get this booty into shape!!


  • Sana
    April 13, 2010 at 5:46 pm

    I love being able to fit into clothes again! It’s even better than buying them in the first place :)!

  • eatmovelove
    April 13, 2010 at 6:02 pm

    I don’t get why people don’t understand it’s okay if she wants to change her mind!!
    A couple of posts say Jenna is contradicting herself from a few months ago saying she was happy with her weight…uh, hello?!! People change, things change, life changes. People are allowed to try new things and feel different ways (and I mean in general, not just with food and stuff). It’s silly to think otherwise….

  • Ana
    April 13, 2010 at 6:14 pm

    eatmorelove: i couldn’t agree more!

  • Ana
    April 13, 2010 at 6:15 pm

    i meant “eatmovelove”. how lame to mis-spell your name. sorry!

  • Morgan
    April 13, 2010 at 6:19 pm

    For those who are marathon training, when you do train, you have a higher blood volume, thus making it feel as if your thighs are bigger. Once you resume a normal running schedule, your blood volume will go back to normal, as long as you return to your pre-marathon training eating habits.

  • Hilary
    April 13, 2010 at 6:21 pm

    I have a pair of jeans that are my go-to size guide. If they fit, I’m happy. If not, time to work-it-out. Works better than weighing for me. Cute clothes are way better motivation 🙂

  • Becky Runner
    April 13, 2010 at 6:36 pm

    When you wrote your previous post on gaining weight in Cali, I think I remember you saying something about your clothes fitting, but filling them out differently. I loved that post, and I think you have a really healthy attitude towards these things. I also really understand a desire to turn up the healthy lifestyle intensity a little bit in order to feel better and more comfortable in your clothes…personally I also find that in the warmer months I’m just generally more motivated to exercise more and eat healthier (helloo more daylight hours!!) and that in the colder and darker months I typically feel a little less toned and a lot less motivated to get outside and do things. On the other hand, this could also be inspiration to get a cute new summer dress in the meantime! My real suggestion though is that this seems like the PERFECT time to organize a clothing swap with all the lovely ladies at the yoga studio (and non-yoga lovely ladies – and guys for that matter, but in my experience clothing swaps have always been girls-only) because they are a freeeee way to pass off the clothes that you don’t like/don’t wear/have worn so many times you can’t stand the thought of them anymore/bought impulsively and would actually look so much better on someone else….and are a really great excuse for a girls’ night!

  • erin
    April 13, 2010 at 6:48 pm

    Oh yeh – my skinny jeans. I don’t even *want* to wear them anymore, because they’re so old and ratty. I just want to fit in to them! I’ve gained almost 10kg since I met my fiance, and about 6kg from this time last year, and I don’t fit in to my jeans anymore 🙁

    As soon as they fit, I’m throwing them out, and buying a new pair with a few less holes.

  • Richelle
    April 13, 2010 at 6:56 pm

    Hey Jenna, I’ve been reading your blog for a while but have never commented! But reading some of these “confused” comments have made me… want to comment! I think it’s refreshing to see that when you gained your 10 “California pounds”, you were okay with it! But now I totally understand the feeling of wanting to get back to your “normal size”. I have gained up to 10lbs before and knew that it wasn’t the end of life, but I just feel more confident at my regular weight. This IS a healthy/food blog… and I find it comforting that even those of us that DO tend to lead healthy lives sometimes go through these challenges of fitting back into those clothes that are super fun to wear.

    Sorry this was kind of long – but just wanted to get out there to those “confused” commenters who seem disturbed that *GASP* sometimes even us, healthy lifestyle leaders and eaters, feel the need to revamp our eating/exercise routines to feel our best!

    P.S. I think your Macbook “headshots” are always super cute and adds that much more personality to a blog! Take care 🙂

  • Kelly Olexa
    April 13, 2010 at 6:56 pm

    I’m down with it girl! I am determined to look smokin in my bright orange bikini AND my favorite Bermuda shorts! WE WILL!!

  • SallyH @
    April 13, 2010 at 7:03 pm

    Jenna! That’s an awesome goal — to feel better in your clothes. Nothing wrong with that. I pulled out my favorite pants from last summer and they are tight. Too tight to comfortably wear them to work. I’d love to try the 30 shred. Do you have the DVD? Which one? I’ve checked out a couple on YouTube, but it seemed kind of weird doing it that way. I’m not sure where to start.

  • anon
    April 13, 2010 at 7:03 pm

    hi Jenna –
    Love your blog. Here’s what’s tough…being a food blogger, writing a cookbook, living and working amongst foodies and great chefs in wine country AND trying to stay thin ! None of your foodie pals are skinny — all your chef buddies enjoy their food and it shows. It’s hard to do both !

  • Blaine
    April 13, 2010 at 7:28 pm

    Oh, the wisdom of Mama Pea. I’m with her!

    It may be hard to believe this, but my innocent attempt to fit back into a cute pair of summer shorts led to a three-year battle with bulimia/anorexia. Sounds extreme, I know everyone is totally different but I am extra careful with untruths like “I will feel better if I am skinnier and can fit into these tiny clothes”… it just hits pretty freakin’ close to home.
    However, I do appreciate the sense of accomplishment and “feel-goodness” that comes from being active and taking care of yourself – if you don’t take it too seriously, then good for you 🙂
    Much love! (and absolutely no hatin’)

  • Katie
    April 13, 2010 at 7:47 pm

    I am with Blaine above. I am recovering from an eating disorder and found this post really triggering. You didn’t do anything wrong, I just don’t think I will be able to read your blog for awhile, not feeling inspired. Best of luck to you.

  • Natalie
    April 13, 2010 at 8:47 pm

    Jenna – You simply ROCK! Enough said.

  • Marcia
    April 13, 2010 at 10:34 pm

    30 day shred. I should get that one. I have the problem of a 4 lb weight swing every month, so there’s one week where only one pair of pants fits. Dangit.

    Right now I’m focusing on the half marathon that’s in 3.5 weeks, then maybe I can work on those couple of pounds – need to get back into strength training. I’m turning 40 in June – 40 and fabulous baby!! I’m in the best shape of my life and I plan on staying that way.

  • Marcia
    April 13, 2010 at 10:43 pm

    You know…people do change as they get older, back and forth. Where you are in your life changes.

    I lost 57 lbs in 2002. I’m 5’2.5″ and got down to 125, very skinny for me – I have a lot of muscle, particularly on my lower half. I was very happy there, but a few friends felt that I was “too skinny”. I figured they’d get over bit, but really, at 123, I couldn’t sleep at night (Hipbones digging into the bed).

    Then the stress of trying to get pregnant and I gained 15-20 lbs. I found myself gaining because “I don’t want to diet if I’m trying to get pregnant”, but had to admit to myself that it may never happen. I did get pregnant. Had a baby. Had almost 2 years of carrying around an extra 15-20 lbs. I gave away all my size 8’s, figuring “this is where I am”.

    But ya know, I lost those 20 lbs again. But it got to be too hard to maintain 125. And my friends with the “too skinny”, but what I discovered is that as I got into my late 30’s…yeah, at 125, my face is…gaunt. And I look a lot older. As one of my (60 year old) friends told me “at some point, you need to choose between your face and your a$$”.

    So my weight fluctuates. Would I love to be 125-127 again? Sure thing. But 132 is reasonably easy to maintain and even 135 – while higher than I’d like – isn’t too bad either. I can still run 10+ miles. I can still do yoga, lift weights, and fit into at least half my clothing. With a full time job, a husband, and a 4-year old, sometimes you have to cut yourself some 10-pounds of slack.

    Jenna broke up with a boyfriend, uprooted herself, and moved to California. That’s a perfect opportunity to cut herself some slack (heck, I gained 37 lbs when I moved to Cali). But there’s nothing wrong with wanting to get back to where she once was…as long as she’s at a healthy weight, who cares??

  • Jessie
    April 14, 2010 at 4:49 am

    I am totally with you. My youngest will be 2 in September & I still haven’t lost all the baby weight. I can’t wait to wear my clothes this summer, once I finally get the weight off 🙂

  • Jennie {in Wonderland}
    April 14, 2010 at 4:57 am

    I remember you bought that dress from Anthro because you knew your brother would have loved it, right? It’s gorgeous and I totally get wanting to slip right back into it again.

    I’m in the process of losing weight right now, so most of my clothes are actually a bit too big… which is fun! I’ve had a pair of capris that I bought last summer [knowing they would be too small, haha] in my closet for months and I finally fit into them the other day! Best.feeling. I’m just trying to get healthier, not ‘skinnier’, but as it goes, the weight comes off as the vegetable intake goes up. 😉

    I love the Shred but I do so much strength training at the gym that I don’t feel I could fit it in. The first time I did it, I couldn’t move my arms above my head for days. Such is the power of Jillian!!

  • sflunchreview
    April 14, 2010 at 7:25 am

    This is hilarious. I just packed up a suitcase of clothes that no longer fit me since moving to CA last May. I am SO with you!

  • Sarah
    April 14, 2010 at 12:11 pm

    I’m definitely in on that challenge! I’ve got a closet full of stuff I can’t seem to fit into since that awesome honeymoon weight settled itself on my body! My bday is also in June, so let’s do it!!!

  • Sarah
    April 14, 2010 at 12:11 pm

    I’m definitely in on that challenge! I’ve got a closet full of stuff I can’t seem to fit into since that awesome honeymoon weight settled itself on my body! My bday is also in June, so let’s do it!!!

  • Helen
    April 14, 2010 at 12:36 pm

    I love that dress! I know you will do this challenge in the most healthy way you can. You don’t eat unhealthily at all and so so much exercise. In fact you lead such a balanced life I’m sure you’ll be back in that dress in no time.

  • Ashley
    April 14, 2010 at 12:37 pm

    totally in!!!!

  • Mastering Public Health
    April 14, 2010 at 4:19 pm

    Go, Marcia! Inspiring story and tell-it-like-it-is experience right there.

    April 14, 2010 at 6:21 pm

    I am in…. let’s do it!

  • Andrea
    April 14, 2010 at 9:20 pm

    Thank you so much for sharing this, Jenna! Obviously, many of us have some clothes we would love to get back into, and this is a great motivation to do so when we’re all doing it together! I realize that it may be a bit difficult to share something like this on your blog, because of what soooomme people may think, but anyone who follows your blog can clearly see that you lead a very healthy and balanced life!

  • diana@mymarblerye
    April 15, 2010 at 6:08 am

    What if your body has changed? I’m NEVER going to fit into the skinny mini shorts I had a few years ago cause now that I’m 27 my body has changed (hello hips and thighs) and “things” have moved. I’m happy you want to be a HEALTHY role model but just remember as we age our bodies DO change. Enjoy your life and send me that dress and buy yourself a new one. 😉

  • Sandy
    April 27, 2010 at 10:06 am

    I am keeping this post in my inbox so that I see it and remember my goal of getting into a few dresses before my son’s wedding in June.

  • Jen @ Eat. Swim. Shop.
    January 20, 2012 at 9:40 pm

    Hi! I am new to your blog and just stumbled onto this post, and I had to say: I have that dress, too, and mine doesn’t fit me anymore, either! So, I’m hoping you were able to get back into yours, now I’m working on getting back into mine. I may have to put off trying those homemade chocolate-covered mint oreos until after I wear it once or twice, though.