Today has been a really good day, which started in a very special way! Courtney, of The Hungry Yogini, came over to give me a personal 60 minute yoga practice! Courtney babe, you were BORN to be a yoga teacher! She even brought her own sweet tunes and for a whole hour, we just flowed.
We talked about how I’m just now starting to get comfortable again in my practice and how yoga and the mental self are very much intertwined. When my brother died in April I physically could NOT practice for the first time in my life. Instead, I threw myself into high intensity exercises like spinning, where I could go and just drown out all my grief. If I didn’t have to think about it it wasn’t really real, and in spinning I could just drown everything out. Yoga is a bit different. In yoga we constantly open our hearts, which makes us incredibly vulnerable in more ways than one. After losing someone that I was so close to I was downright SCARED to open my heart to anything again! My body took a “fight or flight” mentality and I closed myself off, physically and mentally. It took me a solid three months to get back on my feet and open again to my mat, which has always been of constant comfort in the past.
This week I have learned that its OKAY to be scared, to be anxious, to be afraid…..you just have to let it all out on your mat. Bad things happen to good people but no matter what, we can’t close off our hearts because then, my friends, we aren’t truly living. And life is not a dress rehearsal. Did you know that the left side of a woman’s body is often much more tight than the right? This is because the left side is where we receive life. If we are closed off, we are tight in that area. I was so tight I could hardly rest in pigeon pose—it was a huge wake-up call. So thank you, Courtney, for sharing your “yoga wisdom” with me today and bringing back to my mat where I belong.
After our power yoga/life session I was starving! I made a killer sammie for lunch—
WOWZA was this good!!!! I had defrosted an organic freerange chicken breast that I had gotten from Whole Foods a few weeks ago and I heated it up with Wisconsin cheddar and sandwiched it on soft whole wheat Arnold bread with pickles, red onion, spinach and organic honey mustard. Freakin’ phenomenal.
Then I started to pack!!! I was admiring Kath’s neat, organizational way that she packs and clearly mine follows the same suit……