Behind The Butter

To My Brother

This morning at approximately 12:45, my 19 year old brother John, passed away. The cause of his death was accidental gunshot wound to his head and, unfortunately, my mom was stuck in a Midwest airport and could not be there. I was with my brother the entire time at the hospital, holding his hand and talking to him when he finally passed. Although I am shaken to the core, I need to have faith that he is now with our Father in heaven and he is no longer suffering where he is.

I ask you all to please pray for my family in this time. My mom should be getting in around 8:30 this morning and my three best friends are driving down together from different states to be with us, along with aunts, uncles and extended family. I am numb with shock…thinking this just isn’t happening…how could this happen?? Things like this don’t happen to us. I don’t know why God took John but I am praying to believe he is in a better place.

God Bless.

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832 Comments

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    Maggie
    April 25, 2009 at 12:03 am

    I’m so sorry for your loss. Peace be with you and know that we’re thinking of you.

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    Lisa
    April 25, 2009 at 12:07 am

    Oh my goodness, Jenna. I am so sorry. I’m a faithful reader and don’t post much, but my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family right now. ::Jenna and family::

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    ratzx31
    April 25, 2009 at 12:08 am

    am so sorry to hear about your bro… your family are in my prayers…take care…

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    ali
    April 25, 2009 at 12:08 am

    I am absolutely so heartbroken for you and your family. I am so, so deeply sorry. You, your brother, and your family are in my heart and prayers.

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    danielle
    April 25, 2009 at 12:09 am

    Oh my dear. From someone who has been in a similar position as you, your family is in my prayers.
    Lean on those that you love, they will help you through.

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    Eliza
    April 25, 2009 at 12:12 am

    Jenna,

    I just started reading your blog but was immediately hooked by it and I feel like I know you already! I was shocked and saddened to read this post about your brother. I am so, so sorry for your loss and my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I have never felt compelled to respond to a blog in this way but you have truly touched my heart and I’m sure many others’.

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    Brandi
    April 25, 2009 at 12:14 am

    Jenna,
    I am a long time reader who never posts. I know there is nothing anyone can say or do to make you feel better right now. But I am so sorry that this has happened to you and your family and I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Faith
    April 25, 2009 at 12:17 am

    I am sorry!

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    Brooke
    April 25, 2009 at 12:25 am

    Jenna I am so sorry for your loss. I am thinking of you and your family.

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    Erin
    April 25, 2009 at 12:29 am

    Jenna,
    I am beyond sorry for your loss. My prayers go out to you and your family.

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    L
    April 25, 2009 at 12:29 am

    Jenna,
    I’m a long time reader and your posts are always so positive and I know they help so many of your readers get through their days. I am so deeply saddened for you and your family and you will all be in my thoughts and prayers.

    God bless you!

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    Run Sarah
    April 25, 2009 at 12:35 am

    Just want to let you know I’m praying right now for you and your family.

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    Rachel
    April 25, 2009 at 12:35 am

    Jenna,
    I’ve never posted, but in the past few months, I’ve come to rely upon your writing as a source of strength, humor, and real-life wisdom. You and your family are now in my thoughts and prayers. Please take care.
    Much Love.

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    ann
    April 25, 2009 at 12:36 am

    Keep faith dear. Life gives us many challenges but be strong because God is watching over all of us.

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    *Andrea*
    April 25, 2009 at 12:37 am

    jenna, i am so sorry! when reading this post i burst into tears. i am so sorry for this loss and i will PRAY for you an your family at home and at church.

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    Carmen
    April 25, 2009 at 12:39 am

    Oh no. I am so sorry for your loss. I wish your family the best in coping with this tragedy. I am so, so sorry.

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    Sarah (lovINmytummy)
    April 25, 2009 at 12:40 am

    Oh Jenna. I can’t believe it. I am so sorry. You are loved and we are all thinking of you and praying for you and your family. He is with you. I hope He can bring you some peace.

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    Petra B
    April 25, 2009 at 12:41 am

    My wish you and your family all the very best to cope at this shocking time. I am so, so terribly sorry for your loss.
    My thoughts are with you all.

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    Becca A
    April 25, 2009 at 12:45 am

    I’m so sorry for you and your family’s loss Jenna. You are all in my thoughts.

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    Hallie
    April 25, 2009 at 12:47 am

    Jenna, I like so many of your readers feel like I’ve gotten to know you and your family over the past year or more that I’ve been reading. So even though I don’t really know the right thing to say at a time like this, I felt had to say something. I am so terribly sorry for your loss and am thinking about you and your family.

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    Jana
    April 25, 2009 at 12:49 am

    Jenna, this is such a shock. I am so so sorry. I wish you all the best, and you all are in my prayers.

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    Krista
    April 25, 2009 at 12:52 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry about your loss. Just know that your brother is with God and he is taking care of him. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

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    Hannah Hawley
    April 25, 2009 at 12:54 am

    Oh Jenna! I am so sorry, my thoughts are with you. Lots of energy your way to help your family grieve and being the healing process.

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    kristen
    April 25, 2009 at 12:56 am

    Jenna,

    I’m so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family. I’m a long time reader and I’m praying for you and your family.

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    janessa
    April 25, 2009 at 12:59 am

    My thoughts are with you. I’m sorry.

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    Shana
    April 25, 2009 at 1:00 am

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss.

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    Sankeerth
    April 25, 2009 at 1:00 am

    Jenna, I’m very loss for your loss. Loosing someone we love soo much is the real saddest thing in life.. I’ve always been reading your blog but never commented. I really pray that you, your family have a strong heart to overcome this loss.

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    heather
    April 25, 2009 at 1:01 am

    what has always lay at the core of my belief about God is one word, one name: Emmanuel. it means God with us. and it is the word that i pray, over, and over, and over, when i have no words, “Emmanuel, I trust in you. God with us, I trust in you.”

    i have no words, but i trust that God is with you.

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    Sankeerth
    April 25, 2009 at 1:06 am

    Jenna, I’m very sorry for your loss. Loosing someone we love soo much is the real saddest thing in life.. I’ve always been reading your blog but never commented. I really pray that you, your family have a strong heart to overcome this loss.

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    gina (fitnessista)
    April 25, 2009 at 1:20 am

    oh jenna, i’m so sorry… i’m thinking and praying for you and your family.
    call/text if you need anything
    xoxo

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    Ellen M
    April 25, 2009 at 1:24 am

    I’m deeply sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.

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    Ash
    April 25, 2009 at 1:30 am

    I’m normally a lurker but my goodness Jenna I’m so very sorry. I can’t imagine how you all must be feeling but you and your family are in my thoughts. Much love to you all xxxxx

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    Lisa
    April 25, 2009 at 1:31 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry to hear this! I wish I could somehow comfort you better, but please know that I am praying for you and your family.

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    Marian
    April 25, 2009 at 1:36 am

    I am so, so sorry. You and your family are in my thoughts.

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    Sanja
    April 25, 2009 at 1:41 am

    O Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my thoughts.

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    Jen
    April 25, 2009 at 1:42 am

    I wish I could convey how sorry I am for your loss, in something more than a simple comment. But please just know that you and your family are in my prayers tonight.

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    Debbie~
    April 25, 2009 at 1:45 am

    OMG…I’m so sorry for your loss. My heart and prayers go out to you and your family at this heartbreaking time.

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    jenner
    April 25, 2009 at 2:02 am

    OMG Jenna, I am so so sorry for your loss.

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    Laura
    April 25, 2009 at 2:09 am

    I am terribly sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this time.

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    Louise
    April 25, 2009 at 2:12 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family. I hope that your faith and strength gets you through this tragic time. Stay strong.
    xo

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    Manda
    April 25, 2009 at 2:21 am

    I’m 19 too. I’m at a loss for words. I have been enjoying your blog everyday and am beginning to love you very much (in a very friend way ;)… Please know that I am sending kind thoughts to you right now. Also let us know if there is anything we can do.

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    Laura
    April 25, 2009 at 2:33 am

    any comfort i have is sent to you.

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    girlatastartup
    April 25, 2009 at 2:34 am

    Jenna, please let me know if there is anything I can do. You and your family are in my prayers indefinitely.

    Kat

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    Susan
    April 25, 2009 at 2:34 am

    hi jenna, i’m also a faithful reader, but i don’t ever post. i’m so sorry to hear about your brother. love and prayers to you and your family.

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    Moran (The Running Addict)
    April 25, 2009 at 2:37 am

    Dear Lord, I am SO sorry Jenna! I know that absolutely nothing that I shall say can make this any better. I just want to let you know that you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. I wish there was anything to do to make this better. Hold on to your faith; the LORD will not abandon you and your family at this horrible time!
    John is in a better place, bless his soul!

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    ash
    April 25, 2009 at 2:38 am

    oh my gosh, im so sorry Jenna, your brother and family are in my prayers, i dont know what else to say just know that even around the world (ie, me in Australia and others in other countrys too) care for you, the blog world is really like one big second family and when your ready too return to blogging we’ll all be here too offer advice or just or listen (..or read) when you need us

    again im sorry for your loss,

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    Julie
    April 25, 2009 at 2:48 am

    I am so sorry. My brother passed 5 years ago in his early 20s and I know that I have never felt a deeper pain. From what I “know” about you from your blog, a lot of people care about you and will help you through this.

    -Julie

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    laura
    April 25, 2009 at 2:50 am

    jenna i am so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this time.

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    Orla
    April 25, 2009 at 2:56 am

    My heart skipped a beat when I read the opening line of this post -I have a younger brother who I adore, and I can’t even begin imagine how you feel. I’m so, so sorry for your loss.

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    sara
    April 25, 2009 at 2:56 am

    You and your family are in my thoughts, Jenna. I am so, so, so sorry.

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    Kim
    April 25, 2009 at 3:05 am

    Oh Jenna…..There are no words to say that can make you feel better. What a HORRIBLE HORRIBLE thing to happen to your family. I am so sorry.

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    Alison
    April 25, 2009 at 3:10 am

    Oh Jenna, I am so sorry. I have a brother and cannot even begin to imagine how I would be feeling in your position. Please know that you have a whole world of friends praying for you and take some time to yourself.

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    caitlin
    April 25, 2009 at 3:13 am

    i am shattered to the core and thinking of you….

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    Jessica
    April 25, 2009 at 3:20 am

    Jenna-
    I follow your food quest everyday, I have never posted a comment, however when I logged on to your site this morning, I felt compelled and saddened. May God be with you and your family during this difficult time.

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    Siobhan
    April 25, 2009 at 3:24 am

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I am saddened to hear of your loss. The world just lost a very, very good young man. xoxo

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    PY
    April 25, 2009 at 3:32 am

    Hi, i’m an avid reader of your blog. I’m so sorry for your loss. May god be with your family at this difficult time…

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    lauren
    April 25, 2009 at 3:32 am

    im so so so sorry to hear about your brother. you and your family are in my prayers,
    take care hun

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    coco
    April 25, 2009 at 3:39 am

    so sorry to your loss Jenna… I’m shocked too!

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    Kate
    April 25, 2009 at 3:45 am

    Jenna. I read your blog all the time, and feel like I know you. So sorry for your loss, and praying for you and your family. xoxoxo

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    Nancy
    April 25, 2009 at 4:00 am

    Hello Jenna, I’m another reader who is, unfortunately, making this my first post. I look forward to your daily posts, and am so saddened as I read this about your brother this morning. I know that your faith is so very important to you. Let that give you the strength and comfort that you need in this time. I so wish there was more that could be said to ease your pain. My prayers are with you and your family.

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    sarah (ghost world)
    April 25, 2009 at 4:08 am

    i’m so sorry, jenna. i can’t even imagine what it would be like to go through that. know that the whole blog world will be thinking of you.

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    Lindsey
    April 25, 2009 at 4:11 am

    My thoughts and prayers are with you Jenna. God Bless You and your family.

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    Carole
    April 25, 2009 at 4:14 am

    Jenna– I have lurked on your blog for a few weeks, and never commented before, but I had to respond to this post. I am so, so sorry for your loss. I am so, so sorry your mother could not be with John. I am so, so sorry that we live in a fallen world where these kinds of accidents take place, and where people must experience this kind of pain. Your faith in the Lord will sustain you; and you will be an example to the world of the peace that God provides, the peace that passes all understanding. Not meaning that you will feel peaceful all the time. You are in my thoughts, and in my prayers, as I am sure you are in the thoughts and prayers of many right now.

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    lauren hopple
    April 25, 2009 at 4:20 am

    What a shock to read your post this morning. May it comfort you that you were able to be with him..you are in my thoughts and prayers.God bless you and your family.

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    Cecilia
    April 25, 2009 at 4:21 am

    I am so sorry for your loss Jenna, I don’t know what to say … You are right, your brother is now up there in heaven with Lord. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers … stay strong Jenna!

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    polly
    April 25, 2009 at 4:21 am

    I love you, my friend. I am so sorry, my heart is breaking for you. I have no words other than this is REAL PAIN and even when it hurts like crazy… He is with us. He really is. Jesus said we will have trouble and I don’t know why things like this happen, but I do know he said he Has overcome the world and all the CRAP we go through. We love you so much. The light and love you bring to EVERYONE is irreplaceable and precious. God will use you in this, Jenna. Ryan too. Your mom and dad too. If you want to cry, scream, or just be still… that’s cool. I am just a phone call away. XOXO P

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    M
    April 25, 2009 at 4:39 am

    I am devastated for you, Jenna. I don’t know what else to say.

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    Heather
    April 25, 2009 at 4:41 am

    So sorry for your loss, Jenna. You and your family will be in my thoughts. <3

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    brittany meenach
    April 25, 2009 at 4:45 am

    My heart goes out to you and your wonderful family. I lost two close loved ones not to long ago. At the time we may say it not fair and become extremly angry, but that is ok. We may not realize why this is happening, why us, why now, really? God has his reasons, and Jenna he needed more Angels, and he only chooses the best. So your brother will always be around and you have a angel on your shoulder. We all care about you, I feel like I know you , from your blog. Take care of yourself and you know if you ever needed anything that all you would have to do is ask. We all have you back girl, God Bless you.

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    Carolyn
    April 25, 2009 at 4:50 am

    The mental and physical health you strive for every day, and tell us about on this blog, is what will also be the strength you will draw on to get you thru this… and to help others…one minute, one hour, one day, at a time…

    You were with him… that is very special…

    I am so sorry for what you are going thru…

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    megan
    April 25, 2009 at 4:50 am

    I am so so sorry for your loss. Your family is in my prayers.

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    katie s
    April 25, 2009 at 4:52 am

    Jenna and family, I am deeply sorry for your loss. God bless your family, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Angela
    April 25, 2009 at 4:53 am

    There are no good words I can say. It breaks my heart. I will be thinking about you and your family and know that your brother will be in a better place.

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    marina
    April 25, 2009 at 4:57 am

    I don’t know what to say. I know how it is to loose someone close. And I know what goes on in your head right now. When I lost my father 10 months ago, I kept on going. I laughed the same day. It was my copping method. I know that my father is in heaven and looks after me. I talk to him, I just know that whatever happens next in my life, it will be ok because I have my own personal angel.
    My thoughts are with you and your family. Be strong, please.
    Marina

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    Rachel
    April 25, 2009 at 4:59 am

    Jenna, I’m so sorry about your loss. I’ll be thinking about you and your family.

    I know you loved your brother, and that he was thankful you were there with him.

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    Leanne
    April 25, 2009 at 5:01 am

    Thinking of you…

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    Keegan
    April 25, 2009 at 5:04 am

    You and your family are at the foremost of our thoughts and prayers. I know there is little that can change the heartache that you now have. We lost my brother-in-law under similarly sudden circumstances and the numbness, grief, and frustration that followed can only be understood by those that experience it. Stay strong to your faith, you will make it through. God Bless.

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    KatieF
    April 25, 2009 at 5:05 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    VeggieGirl
    April 25, 2009 at 5:06 am

    PLEASE CHECK YOUR EMAIL.

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    Allie
    April 25, 2009 at 5:07 am

    Jenna,
    I am so sorry to hear of your loss and am praying that the Lord’s love and comfort fills the hearts of you and your family members in a time of utter sorrow.

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    Lindsay
    April 25, 2009 at 5:10 am

    Jenna,
    I am SOOOOOO sorry to hear this. Please know that we all love you and my family and I are praying for you and your family as you deal with this… I pray that God is with you, helping to comfort you and your family…

    Please let me know if you need ANYTHING whatever it may be…

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    lindsay
    April 25, 2009 at 5:15 am

    Jenna-
    I am so so sorry for your loss and will keep your family in my prayers. God bless you and stay strong.

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    Jennifer
    April 25, 2009 at 5:16 am

    Reading this this morning, Jenna, I felt like I was talking to a close friend! It’s funny how reading someone’s blog everyday can do that. I will certainly be praying for you and your family, especially your mom since she’s trying so hard to get back in town. We love you! I pray that God comforts you and you know that He is near.

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    Leah
    April 25, 2009 at 5:17 am

    Jenna, I am so sad to read this post. I am praying for you & your family in this time.

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    Alison
    April 25, 2009 at 5:20 am

    You and your family are in my prayers.

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    faith
    April 25, 2009 at 5:21 am

    jenna, i am so entirely sorry, im putting your family on my prayer list at church immediately.

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    Christina
    April 25, 2009 at 5:22 am

    Jenna,
    I am so so sorry to hear about this tragic event. I am a sophomore at Loyola college in Baltimore, Maryland and am dealing with the tragic event of Steph Parente’s death. Jenna, stay strong. Sometimes things happen in life that you cannot explain. It makes you question so many things that you believe in. But you must forge forward with confidence that your little brother is up above smiling down upon you and your family. Do not be afraid to seek out profession help, either. Here on campus they brought in counselors for people to talk to. They say its normal to go through a roller coaster of emotions…to feel fine one second and cry the next. (something i am have been going through). It’s okay to cry. I love you very much and will be thinking about you and your in my prayers.
    Best,
    Christina

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    Tara
    April 25, 2009 at 5:23 am

    Jenna,

    I am so sorry for your loss. You family is in my thoughts and prayers.

    With care,
    Tara

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    Krista
    April 25, 2009 at 5:23 am

    Jenna, I’m another reader who’s been “lurking” but absolutely had to comment today. I am so incredibly sorry for your’s and your family’s loss. The Lord works in mysterious ways and I know your brother is in a safe and happy place now. Know that people are praying for you and care deeply for you. Try and take just a little comfort in this…”The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, My God, my rock, in whom I take refuge; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.” Psalm 18:2

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    Matt
    April 25, 2009 at 5:24 am

    You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I’m so sorry for your loss.

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    Colleen
    April 25, 2009 at 5:24 am

    Words escape me right now, but please know that I’ll be thinking of you and praying for you and your family. I’m so sorry.

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    Lauren
    April 25, 2009 at 5:26 am

    Jenna – I will keep you and your family in my thoughts.

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    Emily
    April 25, 2009 at 5:26 am

    I just only came across your blog earlier this week, but oh my god, I’m so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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    allie
    April 25, 2009 at 5:27 am

    Jenna
    I am very sorry to hear this. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I wish you all peace

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    Katrina (gluten free gidget)
    April 25, 2009 at 5:27 am

    You and your family will be in my prayers for the next couple of weeks. I don’t really have the words to comfort you. Only know that God in His love and mercy will be holding you, and carrying you through this time.

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    Tina
    April 25, 2009 at 5:27 am

    I’m so sorry. Please let us know if you need anything.

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    Sarah
    April 25, 2009 at 5:28 am

    Jenna, you and your family are in my prayers.

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    Holly
    April 25, 2009 at 5:28 am

    Jenna, I’m praying hard for you and your family!!!

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    SC
    April 25, 2009 at 5:28 am

    Jenna, I have lurked on your blog for a long time and really love it. I am so incredibly sorry to hear about your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    zestycook
    April 25, 2009 at 5:31 am

    Jenna, I am praying for you and your family in this time of tragedy. Please let me know if you need anything.

    zesty

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    Tracy
    April 25, 2009 at 5:33 am

    Jenna, I read your blog every day and cannot tell you how sorry I am for you and your family. My prayers are with you.

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    mi
    April 25, 2009 at 5:36 am

    dear Jenna,
    I am so, incredibly shocked, it took a while to start breathing again after i read this horrible, tragic news. you and your family are in my thoughts, there are just no words. i am so sorry.

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    Susan
    April 25, 2009 at 5:37 am

    Jenna, I am so deeply sorry for your loss and that your brother had to leave us at such a young age. Your family is in my thoughts.

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    Nate
    April 25, 2009 at 5:37 am

    Hi Jenna – So sorry for your loss. You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.

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    Debbie
    April 25, 2009 at 5:37 am

    Sorry for your loss -there is definitely a reason for all of this. I truly believe that my sister who died has been my guardian angel over the last couple of years. Watching over me and keeping me safe. I am sure your brother although not here physically will still be around to watch out for you.

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    Gina G
    April 25, 2009 at 5:38 am

    I am so so sorry Jenna, I could not imagine what you are going through at this time, my prayers are with you! God will be with you every step of the way =)
    God bless you and your family Jenna

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    Annalisa
    April 25, 2009 at 5:38 am

    I am so sad for your loss….I read your blog daily and feel like I have come to know you. You and your family are in my family’s prayers.

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    meg
    April 25, 2009 at 5:38 am

    Jenna,
    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family! I am so sorry for your loss!

    Megan

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    cabarry
    April 25, 2009 at 5:39 am

    Jenna, you and your family are in my prayers. I am so sorry for your loss.

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    Veronica k
    April 25, 2009 at 5:40 am

    I am truly sorry for your loss. The most painful thing I have went thru is losing my little brother at the age of 22. I know we don’t know each other, but if you need anything, please let me knw! Veronica@showtruckscene.com

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    Lisa
    April 25, 2009 at 5:41 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. My heart is hurting. We will most definately keep you and your family in prayer.

    Love,
    Lisa

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    Courtney (The Hungry Yogini)
    April 25, 2009 at 5:41 am

    Jenna, I’m so so sorry. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Many hugs and a lot of love waiting for you. I know it’s so hard but he is safe and at peace now. Love you and always here for you.

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    Lauren
    April 25, 2009 at 5:41 am

    I am so very sorry for your enormous loss. Please know that you are in all of our hearts and prayers.

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    Becky
    April 25, 2009 at 5:42 am

    I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I will keep your family in my thoughts and prayers, and I know that God is watching over John and keeping him safe.

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    Lauren
    April 25, 2009 at 5:43 am

    Jenna, I read your blog every day and I am so sorry for your loss. This is a devastating thing that happened to your family and we are all here for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers <3

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    emlit
    April 25, 2009 at 5:43 am

    Jenna,
    Like many of the other commenters today, I am a regular reader but do not comment much. This morning, though, I wanted to tell you how sorry I am for your loss. I hope that in time, you and your family will be able to find peace and comfort. My thoughts are with you.

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    Jenny
    April 25, 2009 at 5:44 am

    Jenna,
    You are in my prayers. Your faith, family and friends will help get you through this terrible time.

    Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths. (Prov 3.5-6)

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    Haleigh
    April 25, 2009 at 5:45 am

    You and your family will be in my prayers. I am so sorry for your loss Jenna, I have been a reader for a long time.. and I feel like I really know you and it makes my heart hurt. Your brother is at peace now. Many kisses and hugs.

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    Lindsay
    April 25, 2009 at 5:45 am

    You and your family will be in my prayers. May you find peace and comfort in each others’ arms. I am so sorry for your tragic loss.

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    Aimee
    April 25, 2009 at 5:47 am

    I am so sorry Jenna. I have no words, what a horrible tragedy. You and your entire family are in my prayers. I was hoping this was a sick joke and maybe your computer was hacked, I just can not believe this happened.

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    BethT
    April 25, 2009 at 5:48 am

    I can’t imagine the pain of losing a brother. Thinking of you. Tale care of yourself and your mom.

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    Mrs.Boone
    April 25, 2009 at 5:48 am

    I also am a long time reader who never posts. my thoughts are with you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss.

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    hk
    April 25, 2009 at 5:48 am

    all my love forever- be strong-

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    Michelle
    April 25, 2009 at 5:50 am

    Jenna,
    I got physical goosebumps when I read this post. Words can not even describe how completely and utterly sorry I am. I do not know why God chose your brother at that time in his life, but I’m sure he had a reason for it. But that does not stop the pain. I am going to be praying for you, your family, and your brother up in Heaven.

    Michelle

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    Kath
    April 25, 2009 at 5:51 am

    Jenna,

    I am so sorry to hear your brother passed away. We are all thinking about you and your family today.

    xoxo

    Kath

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    stacey
    April 25, 2009 at 5:56 am

    I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Alex
    April 25, 2009 at 5:56 am

    Jenna-

    I am another avid reader whose first post this is. You and your family are in my thoughts and my prayers. Im so sorry for your loss.

    alex

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    maggie b
    April 25, 2009 at 5:56 am

    “Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed,” says the LORD, who has compassion on you.”
    Matthew 5:4

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    faith
    April 25, 2009 at 5:58 am

    Jenna-
    My prayers and condolences to you and your family. I am a long time reader and as you know through some emails can relate to so much. I can empathize with this all too much. Please let me know if there is anything you and your family need. Until then, many many prayers will be sent your way. *hugs*
    -faith

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    Heather
    April 25, 2009 at 6:00 am

    Oh my goodness, I can’t imagine what you and your family are going through right now. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    AshleyP
    April 25, 2009 at 6:00 am

    I’m so sorry, Jenna. Ya’ll are in my prayers.

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    Glidingcalm
    April 25, 2009 at 6:01 am

    oh my gosh, Jenna. I am so so sorry for your loss. We are all here for you.

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    Joelle
    April 25, 2009 at 6:01 am

    Jenna,
    I am longtime reader as well who has never posted, but I want you to know how deeply sorry I am. One of my close friends faced a similar situation last winter… Just know God has a plan. Your family is in my prayers.

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    Matt
    April 25, 2009 at 6:02 am

    Jenna, I am shocked and deeply sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.

    -Matt

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    weight and meditate
    April 25, 2009 at 6:05 am

    I am so sorry to hear this, Jenna, words can’t express how sorry I am.

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    Foodie (Fab and Delicious Food)
    April 25, 2009 at 6:06 am

    Jenna, I’m so sorry. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    tiff
    April 25, 2009 at 6:08 am

    Jenna,
    You and your family are in my prayers.
    I am so sorry.

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    Erin
    April 25, 2009 at 6:08 am

    Jenna, I don’t know you, but I feel like I do from reading your blog, as your sunny personality always shines through. I was terribly shocked to see this and I’m so so sorry you are dealing with this terrible loss. I know there is nothing I can say to help, but my thoughts and prayers are with you.

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    Rachel
    April 25, 2009 at 6:09 am

    Words really don’t ever seem to suffice in times like these. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Have faith and courage.

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    Tiffany
    April 25, 2009 at 6:12 am

    I’m am terribly sorry for your loss. May the love of those around you help you through the days ahead.

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    RunTOFinish
    April 25, 2009 at 6:12 am

    oh jenna… i know there is nothing i could say to help, but you are in my prayers an I am sending loving thoughts to your entire family

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    Kristin
    April 25, 2009 at 6:14 am

    I’m also a lurker, who’s never commented, but my heart absolutely went out to you in this post. Use the strength and energy of everyone around you to get through this. Your brother is in a better place, and will be keeping an eye on you.

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    Alison
    April 25, 2009 at 6:14 am

    Jenna,
    I don’t know how to express my utter sorrow. I don’t understand how this could happen to someone and some family that is so good at heart. I will pray for you and your family to make it through. Your brother will be in my heart forever.

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    carolinebee
    April 25, 2009 at 6:15 am

    I’m so deeply sorry and praying for your family.

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    Heather McD (Heather Eats Almond Butter)
    April 25, 2009 at 6:15 am

    Sweet Jenna,
    I am praying for you right now and sending you a huge hug from Nashville…Big tight squeeze.

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    Amy
    April 25, 2009 at 6:16 am

    As your words provide a source of strength for friends, family and a number of devoted readers may you in turn lean on them and find strength during this trying time. My prayers are with you and your family during this incredibly difficult time.

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    Candi
    April 25, 2009 at 6:16 am

    I am so sorry for your loss! I’m thinking of you and your family.

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    Julia
    April 25, 2009 at 6:17 am

    Aside from your amazing blog I keep coming back because you are such an inspiration; you have such faith. I hope that that faith will get you through this horrible time. You and your family are in my prayers.

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    Kati
    April 25, 2009 at 6:17 am

    Jenna, I know that no words are adequate at a time like this. Please know that I will be keeping your family in my prayers all day.

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    life coach jen
    April 25, 2009 at 6:19 am

    Oh Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear about this. I love your blog so much and enjoy reading about your life and I feel like I know you. Know we’re all with you and that his soul is free and he is with God now.

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    Jenny
    April 25, 2009 at 6:21 am

    Hi Jenna, I have never commented before, but this post gave me the chills. I am very sorry for your lost and I wish you and your family the best. There is nothing harder than losing a family member, but I know you will make it through. You are a strong and amazing person.

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    Megan
    April 25, 2009 at 6:22 am

    I am so sorry! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family!

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    dylan
    April 25, 2009 at 6:23 am

    oh my gosh. i am so so so sorry! G-d should only bless you with good things from now on!!!

    πŸ™ <3

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    Laura
    April 25, 2009 at 6:24 am

    Jenna,

    Words cannot express the sorrow I feel right now for you and your family. Please know that your family is in my thoughts and prayers. Peace be with you now and forever.

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    runjen
    April 25, 2009 at 6:26 am

    Jenna, I wanted this to be some kind of fake post or something. I just can’t wrap my mind around it. I am so unbelievably sorry. You and your family will be in my prayers more than you know. I read your blog everyday but don’t comment everyday. Please know that we are all praying for you.

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    Mary-Jo
    April 25, 2009 at 6:27 am

    Dearest Jenna ~ You have been a shining ray of light for so many people, I can only hope that you feel that ray of light others are now trying to be for you in this dark time. I am thinking of you and your family and your brother. What a strong, brave woman you are ~ talking with your brother as he moved on to Heaven, letting him know he wasn’t alone.

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    mel h
    April 25, 2009 at 6:28 am

    Oh sweet Jenna,
    I am beyond sorry for your loss. Sometimes I question why/how God could let some of the things in life happen, but then I remember he always has a plan…even through the pain he brings joy. My heart broke when i read this post b/c I also have a brother and could not even image your pain. Stay strong my friend and please let me know if you need anything. You are amazing and i’m praying for your entire family- Your brother is a peace and looking down on you smiling

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    Amanda
    April 25, 2009 at 6:28 am

    Jenna,

    I am praying for you and your family. We are all here for you, as you have been here, every day, for us. Please do whatever it is that you need to do in this time of grief. Major hugs!

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    Elizabeth
    April 25, 2009 at 6:29 am

    Jenna,

    Our family’s prayers and sympathies go out to you. I’m so sorry for what your family must be suffering right now, it is so soon to call your brother home. But he is HOME with his Lord and he is only experiencing joy. Please let your blog readers know if there is anything we can do.

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    shawna
    April 25, 2009 at 6:30 am

    I am so sorry to hear this, Jenna. Peace be with you and your family, and please trust that things are as they should be and you will see your brother again someday. Remember all of your good times together and cherish the memories.

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    Danielle
    April 25, 2009 at 6:31 am

    Oh Jenna I’m so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my prayers.

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    Melissa
    April 25, 2009 at 6:32 am

    Oh my gosh, Jenna….I am SOO sorry for you loss. I will pray for you and your family. Keep up your faith although I’m sure it’s a very, very hard thing to do right now.

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    Jill
    April 25, 2009 at 6:33 am

    Praying for you and your family.

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    emily
    April 25, 2009 at 6:33 am

    This made me cry, I almost couldn’t believe it. You have always shown your family to be so tight-knit and loving, I cannot imagine what you are going through. We’ve lost several friends this same way in the last year and it’s hard to think about all the senseless tragedy. Your family will be in my thoughts. I am sorry your mother was away, but I am sure she knows that you were wonderful to your brother and can feel that you made his last minutes peaceful.

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    Marissa
    April 25, 2009 at 6:34 am

    I’m shocked by this news and got goosebumps when reading it. I’m so deeply sorry for what you and your family are going through. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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    Kristine
    April 25, 2009 at 6:35 am

    Jenna.
    I can’t even imagine how you are feeling right now and although I wish I could magically say something to you to make this all better, that’s just not possible. Please just know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Please look to God for support and love during this time as well. He has a plan for all of us, and he wanted your brother in heaven at such a young age. While this must be an incredibly hard time, please stay strong and know that you have so much love and support to get you through. We all love you!
    Love, Kristine

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    K
    April 25, 2009 at 6:36 am

    Oh my gosh, Jenna, I am so deeply saddened to hear this. All of my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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    Gloria
    April 25, 2009 at 6:36 am

    Jenna, I have only just recently discovered your blog, but am enjoying reading so much. I’m so saddened to hear about your brother. You and your family are in my prayers.

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    Emily
    April 25, 2009 at 6:37 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. I will be praying for you and your family. God is faithful, and he will hold you through this difficult time.

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    Shelby
    April 25, 2009 at 6:39 am

    Jenna, I’m so sorry for your lose. I’m will pray for you and your family. What a picture of strength and courage to sit by his bed and hold his hand and being with him in his final moments.
    Grace friend,
    Shelby

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    Shelby
    April 25, 2009 at 6:40 am

    Oh Jenna, I can’t believe this has happened. I will be thinking of you and your family all day. Your brother will always be with you and he will never be out of your life. Just know that if you ever need anything, we are all here for you.

    *BIG HUGS*

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    Brittney
    April 25, 2009 at 6:41 am

    I’m so sorry to hear about your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family…

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    Meghann
    April 25, 2009 at 6:42 am

    Jenna,
    I wanted to cry when I got your e-mail last night. I feel so helpless and all I want to do is make it better. Please, please let me know if there is anything you need from me. I land in Orlando at 4:00 and can be at Tampa tonight is need be. Your little borther is my the same age as mine and I don’t even want to imagine what you are dealing with right now. Just remember I am here for you.

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    Sarah
    April 25, 2009 at 6:43 am

    I am so sorry for your loss Jenna. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers today.

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    Becky
    April 25, 2009 at 6:43 am

    I am so sorry. I will be praying for you and your family.

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    Sara
    April 25, 2009 at 6:45 am

    I will be praying for your family. I am so sorry.

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    Jennifer
    April 25, 2009 at 6:46 am

    I was absolutely shocked to hear such sad news. I am so sorry for the loss of your brother but hope you and your family find strength and comfort through your faith in God. I will be praying for you and your family.

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    Yasmin
    April 25, 2009 at 6:48 am

    We are shocked here in the blog world to hear about your loss. Our thought and prayers are with you and your family at this difficult time.

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    Lea
    April 25, 2009 at 6:48 am

    May your brother rest in peace.

    Stay strong Jenna. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

    *big hugs*

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    Adie
    April 25, 2009 at 6:49 am

    Oh my goodness, I am so sorry! Before I was born, my parents lost a son–at 3 months (he had SIDS). I know it was hard on my parents (and hard for my oldest sister who was alive when it happened), but you do need to believe that this happened for a reason. I know that my brother’s death caused my parents to become the strong Christians they are today. And I cannot wait till I go to Heaven and finally get to meet my brother.

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    Michelle
    April 25, 2009 at 6:49 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry. You and your family is in my thoughts and prayers. I can’t begin to imagine what this must be like for you. Have faith that He is with you and your brother.

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    Blissy
    April 25, 2009 at 6:51 am

    Dear Jenna,
    Please accept my condolences.I’ve read your blog everyday from the start but haven’t commented before. I’m so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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    Michaela
    April 25, 2009 at 6:52 am

    Wow. I am so sorry for your tragedy. Your family is in my prayers.

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    Rebecca
    April 25, 2009 at 6:53 am

    Jenna –
    Oh my goodness I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
    Rebecca

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    Mara @ What's For Dinner?
    April 25, 2009 at 6:53 am

    I’m sending thoughts and prayers your way… I’m so sorry Jenna…

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    Meg C.
    April 25, 2009 at 6:53 am

    Jenna I am so, so sorry to hear what has happened. I cannot imagine the depths of your grief right now. I pray for you and your family in this difficult time.

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    Jennifer
    April 25, 2009 at 6:56 am

    Praying for you and your family to have peace.

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    Sarah
    April 25, 2009 at 6:56 am

    Oh Jenna. I’m so sorry for you loss. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Laura
    April 25, 2009 at 6:58 am

    Jenna I am sooo sorry for your loss and the suffering that your family must endure now. Be assured that John is safely in Heaven with our father, living the most luxurious life in peace. I know that you must be going through an extremely difficult time trying to rationalize which clearly will be impossible; stay strong and be brave and know that you have support from everyone around you. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
    Laura

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    holly
    April 25, 2009 at 6:59 am

    Jenna, I don’t really comment much, but I want to let you know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family today. I know there is nothing one can say at this point, but I hope you may find comfort in those around you and know you will find love and support wherever you seek it.

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    Christine
    April 25, 2009 at 6:59 am

    Jenna,
    I have read your blog for over a year and feel like I know you through postings. I have never commented before, but wanted to let you know that I feel for you and your family at this difficult time.
    My prayers are with you,
    Christine

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    Regan
    April 25, 2009 at 6:59 am

    Oh Jenna, I went numb when I read this post. I am so sorry both you and your family, this is unimaginable. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this diffiicult time.

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    ari
    April 25, 2009 at 7:00 am

    i am truly sorry for your loss. all my thoughts are with you and your family in this time.

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    FoodsThatFit
    April 25, 2009 at 7:01 am

    Jenna girl-
    I am just thinking of you non-stop and want you to know I am praying for you and your family. Hang in there sweet girl and please know that we love you and will do anything for you!

    Love you lady!!!
    Abbie

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    melissa (fitnessnyc)
    April 25, 2009 at 7:03 am

    Dear Jenna, my thoughts are with you and your family during this very difficult time.

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    Heather
    April 25, 2009 at 7:04 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine what you are going through. You and your family are in my prayers.
    Heather

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    Steph
    April 25, 2009 at 7:04 am

    You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry for your loss.

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    kirsten
    April 25, 2009 at 7:04 am

    I am so terribly sorry for you loss. I am praying for you and your family.

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    Kim
    April 25, 2009 at 7:05 am

    Jenna,

    I am so very sorry for your loss. I will keep your family in my thoughts & prayers.

    Kim

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    Nan
    April 25, 2009 at 7:05 am

    Jenna,
    My heart is breaking for you and your family right now. I read your blog daily and am continually inspired by you and your joy for life. This is such a tragedy and while there is nothing that can be done to take away the pain and sadness you are feeling, please know that you have so many supports out there (both within the blog community and elsewhere) that will be here with you every step of the way. Know that you are not alone and we are here to listen and be there.

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    Angelea
    April 25, 2009 at 7:05 am

    Hugs. My prayers are with you and your family.

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    Courtney
    April 25, 2009 at 7:06 am

    Stay Strong. My thoughts and prayers go out to your family.

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    Dana
    April 25, 2009 at 7:06 am

    So sorry for your loss. This post made me cry even though I have never met you….my heart breaks for you and your family. You are all in my thoughts.

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    Rachel
    April 25, 2009 at 7:06 am

    Jenna I am so sorry for your loss. I am for sure calling my little sister today and telling her I love her. We aren’t as close as I’d like but your post was a very sobering reality check that we never know how much time any of us has. Please know you’re in my prayers.

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    Farah
    April 25, 2009 at 7:08 am

    Jenna, I’m so very, very sorry for your loss. All my thoughts and prayers ware with you and you family.
    God Bless,

    Farah

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    Heather R.
    April 25, 2009 at 7:09 am

    Jenna,
    I am so very sorry for your loss. I pray that God brings you peace during this incredibly difficult time. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Coley
    April 25, 2009 at 7:09 am

    Jenna,
    My jaw dropped to the floor when I read about your brother. I will be praying for you and your family! Take peace that he is with the Lord now.

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    Anna
    April 25, 2009 at 7:10 am

    Jenna- I too am a long-time lurker who was moved to post this morning. You have been an inspiration to me in your deep faith and I pray that you are given strength to cope during this difficult time. May God be with your family today and always.

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    ALD
    April 25, 2009 at 7:12 am

    Jenna,
    I too, have loved reading your blog for a while now – and have come to enjoy the stories about Ryan and your beautiful family.

    I am so so sorry for your loss; I will keep your family in my thoughts and prayers.

    – Anne

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    Gina
    April 25, 2009 at 7:13 am

    I could not believe it at first when I read what happened. I am so sorry, my thoughts are with you and your family. May he rest in peace.

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    Tamara
    April 25, 2009 at 7:14 am

    Jenna, I am so deeply sorry. I am praying for your brother, you, and your family. Please know that you are in everyone’s thoughts and hearts. We all love you and support you. May your love and faith help you through this.

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    Alli W.
    April 25, 2009 at 7:14 am

    You are in my prayers, Jenna.

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    LaughingLindsay
    April 25, 2009 at 7:16 am

    Jenna,
    I’m so shocked and so sorry. We know he’s in Heaven with an abundance of peace and safety. I wish I could give you a huge tight hug, but please feel all of our and God’s love and energy to help you get through this. I love you girl.

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    Susan
    April 25, 2009 at 7:17 am

    Jenna – I am so sorry for the loss you and your family are experiencing. We cannot understand why God takes people so young to be with Him, but we must understand he’s in a better place. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong.

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    Lauren P
    April 25, 2009 at 7:17 am

    Jenna,

    I have read your blog every day for over a year. Yet, I hardly comment. You have become a great friend to me, and although I have never met you in person, your personality and life and joy has filtered through mine very much. Hearing about your brother this morning has completely rocked me to the core. I am emotional for you and wish I could be there for you. I only wish you the best right now and will be thinking of you and your family for days to come. Please find the strength to carry on.
    Love, Lauren

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    tc
    April 25, 2009 at 7:17 am

    Jenna,

    I am so sorry for you loss. You’re in my thoughts and prayers.

    -TC

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    leslie
    April 25, 2009 at 7:18 am

    jenna,

    i am so deeply sorry to hear of your loss. know that you are loved and you will find peace again. you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Karley
    April 25, 2009 at 7:18 am

    I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I don’t know that I’ve ever posted, but I read your blog daily. Please take care of yourself and your family and know that my thoughts and prayers are with you.

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    Justy2003
    April 25, 2009 at 7:20 am

    Wow, this was definitely a shock to read. I’m so sorry to hear about your brother. As you can see, you’ve got lots of people thinking and praying for you and your family during this time. Take care of yourself as you cope with this.

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    Bree
    April 25, 2009 at 7:21 am

    Jenna,
    I am so sorry to hear about your brother. You and your family are in my thoughts.
    Bree

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    Hangry Pants
    April 25, 2009 at 7:22 am

    Jenna, My thoughts and love are with you and your family right now. I know you will have the strength to get through this. We are all here if you need us.

    – Heather

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    jsr
    April 25, 2009 at 7:23 am

    I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in our thoughts.

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    Alex
    April 25, 2009 at 7:26 am

    Jenna,
    I cannot even imagine what you are feeling. I am so sorry for your loss.

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    Jennifer
    April 25, 2009 at 7:27 am

    I am sorry beyond words. My love and prayers are with you.

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    CJ
    April 25, 2009 at 7:29 am

    So very sorry to hear about your loss. I’ll keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Anna
    April 25, 2009 at 7:30 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. You will be in my thoughts today.

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    MyThy as in "Mighty" ;)
    April 25, 2009 at 7:30 am

    Oh dear Jenna,
    I’m sorry for your loss. I rarely post but felt compelled to this morning. Hold on tight to your memories for comfort, lean on your friends for strength, and always remember how much you are cared about. You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.

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    megan
    April 25, 2009 at 7:31 am

    Jenna, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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    Hannah
    April 25, 2009 at 7:31 am

    Jenna-this came as such a shock and I am so so sorry about your loss. I will keep you in my prayers.
    Hannah

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    c.h.e.l.s.i.e.
    April 25, 2009 at 7:31 am

    I am so very sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.

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    Katie
    April 25, 2009 at 7:31 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for letting us know so that we can be praying for you and your family.

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    Shauna
    April 25, 2009 at 7:31 am

    Jenna

    I have been reading your blog right from the beginning but never posted before. I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I am grateful for your friends and family who can support you through this time.

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    Katie
    April 25, 2009 at 7:32 am

    May he rest in peace and may peace one day be with you and your family.
    You are in my thoughts although we are a world apart.

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    kh
    April 25, 2009 at 7:33 am

    Jenna, so sorry to hear. My thoughts are with you and your family.

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    Whitney
    April 25, 2009 at 7:34 am

    Jenna-I am so sorry for your loss. I will be thinking about you today.

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    Sue
    April 25, 2009 at 7:34 am

    Another long time reader who doesn’t post. Thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.

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    Kristin
    April 25, 2009 at 7:34 am

    I also don’t comment much, but have been reading for a few months now. I am so sorry to hear this, I can’t imagine what you must be going through. I will be thinking about you and praying for you and your family.

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    elizabeth
    April 25, 2009 at 7:35 am

    jenna, i have been a long time reader but rarely comment. i am so sorry to hear of your loss. you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    meagan
    April 25, 2009 at 7:36 am

    hey jenna. psalms 91, psalm 73:23-26, Isaiah 40:31 and lamentations 3:21-26 have given my mom and i comfort in similar times. we are praying for you and your family.

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    Milly
    April 25, 2009 at 7:36 am

    Jenna,

    I’m truly sorry for your loss. You are an amazing person with limitless strength. May the Lord give help you during this difficult time. You will be in my prayers.
    Milly

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    Rachel
    April 25, 2009 at 7:37 am

    I am so sorry about your loss. I am praying for you and your family.

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    Meghan
    April 25, 2009 at 7:38 am

    Jenna, you and your entire family is in my prayers. I know that nothing I say will be of true solace to you but I am so sorry for your loss, stay strong.

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    KatieMoo
    April 25, 2009 at 7:39 am

    I am SO sorry, Jenna! My thoughts are with you and your family and I am sending you tons of virtual hugs.

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    Julia
    April 25, 2009 at 7:40 am

    Jenna,
    I am so sorry for your loss. Please know you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers!

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    Heather
    April 25, 2009 at 7:40 am

    Jenna,
    I cannot imagine what you are going through. You are right. God sometimes does things we do not understand. Continue to have faith and cling to people that bring you to a happy and holy place. My prayers are with you always.
    Love,
    Heather

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    Briana
    April 25, 2009 at 7:41 am

    I don’t what to say Jenna, I’m so sorry. You and you’re family will be in my prayers.

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    Andrea
    April 25, 2009 at 7:42 am

    Jenna,
    I am also a long time reader, but have never commented. I truly admire your positive outlook on life. I am so sorry for your loss and I can’t begin to imagine how hard it must be for you and your family.

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    lisa
    April 25, 2009 at 7:44 am

    hi jenna,
    i’ve only commented once a very long time ago, just like some of the readers above. i’m truly sorry to hear about your loss. i sincerely hope that you will find peace one day, through the memories you have with your brother. i’m glad that you have your faith to carry you through this significant trial in life, and i, along with this community you’ve built, have your family in my thoughts. your brother is very lucky to have had you by his side. his last moments must have been calming because of it.
    may he rest in peace.

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    jperonto
    April 25, 2009 at 7:44 am

    Oh my gosh. I am so sorry. I feel for you and your family. Your brother is in a good place, and you are going to be all right.

    XOXO always!

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    lori
    April 25, 2009 at 7:46 am

    Jenna,

    I cannot even imagine your pain and what you and your loved ones are going through right now. I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time. I believe in the power of praying.

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    kaneil, balanceisbest
    April 25, 2009 at 7:46 am

    Sweet Jenna, you are in my constant thoughts and prayers. We are all here for you through this insanely hard time. Big big hugs. πŸ™‚

    Kaneil

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    Kate
    April 25, 2009 at 7:48 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry. You and your family will be in my thoughts.

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    Tegan
    April 25, 2009 at 7:49 am

    Jenna,
    I am so SO sorry for your loss. I cannot even imagine what you and your family must be going through right now. My thoughts are going out to you and your family.

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    Lindsay
    April 25, 2009 at 7:49 am

    Jenna,

    I am so so sorry for your loss… I cannot even imagine what must be going through your mind and heart right now. I’ll keep you and your entire family in my prayers.

    God bless,
    Lindsay

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    Rachel
    April 25, 2009 at 7:50 am

    My heart and prayers go out to you and your family. That same exact thing happened to a close friend and it’s absolutely heartbreaking. It’s not fair. You are so strong and I know you will get through this with your faith. Please know He is watching over John and your family and you will get through this. We are all here for you.

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    lori
    April 25, 2009 at 7:51 am

    Footprints

    One night a man had a dream. He dreamed He was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from His life. For each scene He noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. One belonging to Him and the other to the LORD.

    When the last scene of His life flashed before Him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of His life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of His life.

    This really bothered Him and He questioned the LORD about it. LORD you said that once I decided to follow you, you’d walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don’t understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.

    The LORD replied, my precious, precious child, I Love you and I would never leave you! During your times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.

    ——————————————————————————–

    Carolyn Carty, 1963

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    kristina
    April 25, 2009 at 7:51 am

    I am so sorry for your loss. Your family is in my thoughts.

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    MJ
    April 25, 2009 at 7:51 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss and the pain you and your family are feeling. You are in my prayers. Please make sure to take care of yourself – eat, hydrate, sleep if you can – and let people help you. Know that there is love, friendship and support out here for you at any time, day or night.

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    Joy
    April 25, 2009 at 7:52 am

    I’m so very sorry for your loss. My thoughts & prayers are with your family through this tough time.

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    Alyssa
    April 25, 2009 at 7:53 am

    I’m so sorry this has happened to you and your family. We are all here for you, always. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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    carrie
    April 25, 2009 at 7:53 am

    Jenna-
    You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. May the memories of your brother bring you comfort during this difficult time.

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    Amanda
    April 25, 2009 at 7:53 am

    I am so sorry for your loss.

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    Jessica
    April 25, 2009 at 7:55 am

    I am praying for you and your family. May god’s love be with you during this time.

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    Romina
    April 25, 2009 at 7:56 am

    Jenna,
    I am so sorry to hear about your tragic loss. He was so young. It’s heartbreaking to think that one day a person could be with you and the next they are gone. I know you are a strong woman, and you will get through this, but the pain never fully goes away.
    May your brother rest in peace, and may everyone cherish each moment they spent with him in joy and in sadness.
    My heart goes out to you and your family.

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    Liesl
    April 25, 2009 at 7:56 am

    Oh Jenna, I am so sorry. I am praying the Lord’s peace that passes all understanding to be with you at this time. And that you would experience who God truly is and His love in a situation like this.

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    Emily
    April 25, 2009 at 7:57 am

    Oh Jenna! I just lost a family member about a week ago and I know how it feels! Horrible, like it is a nightmare and not real! You and your family are in my prayers!

    Psalm 46:1-2
    God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea.

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    Chris
    April 25, 2009 at 7:58 am

    Jenna, I am absolutely sick for you. Please accept my condolences. You and your family will be in our prayers.

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    Melissa S.
    April 25, 2009 at 7:58 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts as you go through this.

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    Stephanie
    April 25, 2009 at 8:00 am

    Jenna, So sorry to hear about your brother. You and your brother’s family and friends will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Jessica
    April 25, 2009 at 8:00 am

    This sends chills down my body reading it, I’m praying for you and your family.

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    brandi
    April 25, 2009 at 8:01 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry to hear this. You and your family and in my prayers.

    We don’t always know what God’s plans are or why things happen the way they do, but his ways are higher than our ways, and his thoughts higher than our thoughts. What seems like a mess to us is weaving into his beautiful tapestry of life.

    John 16:33

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    Gadergirl
    April 25, 2009 at 8:03 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Please know that you and your loved ones will be in my prayers. *Hugs*
    Katie

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    Heather
    April 25, 2009 at 8:03 am

    I can’t even imagine what you and your family are going through right now. I have two brothers myself that I love unconditionally, and losing them would be just about the worst thing to possibly happen to me. I’ll be keeping you, your brother, and family in my thoughts and prayers. Stay Strong!

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    Mica
    April 25, 2009 at 8:05 am

    I’m very sorry for your loss, Jenna. What an unexpected and sad loss for your family and friends. You are definitely in my thoughts!

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    Marlow
    April 25, 2009 at 8:05 am

    You are in my prayers.

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    Allie
    April 25, 2009 at 8:06 am

    i can’t imagine your world right now. my prayers and thoughts to you and your family.

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    Melinda
    April 25, 2009 at 8:07 am

    Jenna, I am so so sorry for your loss- I will be praying for you and your family- May God give you his peace that surpasses understanding.

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    Cate
    April 25, 2009 at 8:07 am

    Dear Jenna,
    I am so sorry to hear of your loss. May God be with you and your family through this difficult time. My thoughts are with you.

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    lisa
    April 25, 2009 at 8:09 am

    I am so sorry to hear this. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.

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    stephanie
    April 25, 2009 at 8:10 am

    I am so sorry.

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    Natalie
    April 25, 2009 at 8:10 am

    Jenna,
    It breaks my heart to imagine the pain you are in. Your brother is the same age as me, and it is hard to realize that this can just as easily happen to anyone. John is safe and in Gods hands now and always with you in spirit. I will be thinking of you and your family all day and know that everyone on here loves and supports you.

    Peace & Love
    Talie

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    MLT
    April 25, 2009 at 8:11 am

    Jenna,

    I am so sorry for you and your family. You have shared so much of yourself with us, the readers, through this blog and I wish there was some way we could share back and help you in some way. Stay strong.

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    Nicole
    April 25, 2009 at 8:11 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry about your loss. I am so sorry and I will be keeping you and your family in my thoughts.

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    Gena
    April 25, 2009 at 8:12 am

    Jenna, I just saw this. I’m going to email you, too. You are in my thoughts and prayers right now, and please reach out if you need anything from me, from the community. I’m sending you love. xoxo Gena

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    Dayna
    April 25, 2009 at 8:14 am

    Oh Jenna….I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I lost my mom two years ago (this May 1) and it was a very tough thing to go through, and when I read your post my heart immediately dropped. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, and please take the time that you need to heal and do the things that make you happy, these things are the most important in a time like this. I will be thinking about you and your family. Please take care.
    Dayna

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    Kudret
    April 25, 2009 at 8:14 am

    Jenna,

    I am sooo sorry to hear about your loss and know that words or expression of condolence does nothing right now to help you through your grief or through this astronomically difficult time. I just want to say I’m sorry for your loss. I am sending you a bazillion hugs and a shoulder to cry on.

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    Jaime
    April 25, 2009 at 8:15 am

    Jenna. I am so deeply sorry for this tragedy… please know we are all praying for you and your family.

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    Sheri
    April 25, 2009 at 8:15 am

    Jenna, I am so deeply sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my prayers.

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    kaw
    April 25, 2009 at 8:15 am

    I am at a complete loss of words.
    I am soo sorry and my prayers are with you.

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    Christina
    April 25, 2009 at 8:16 am

    Soooo sorry to hear about this. Peace be with you.

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    Amanda (Two Boos Who Eat)
    April 25, 2009 at 8:16 am

    Your family will be in my thoughts tonight. I am so sorry for your loss.

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    Megs
    April 25, 2009 at 8:20 am

    I never comment, but no family should ever have to go through what you and your family are experiencing. I literally began to cry when reading your post. What a horrible, horrible, tragedy. I will pray for the grief to gradually ease from your minds and that he is looking down on you from Heaven, eternally at your side. He will always be with you, Jenna. I’m so, so sorry.

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    Emily L.
    April 25, 2009 at 8:21 am

    I am so deeply sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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    Amy
    April 25, 2009 at 8:22 am

    Oh my goodness. I am so sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers as well.

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    kilax
    April 25, 2009 at 8:23 am

    I am so sorry for this loss. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. *hugs*

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    haya
    April 25, 2009 at 8:23 am

    oh my goodness. i am so unbelievably sorry for your terrible loss. i will be keeping you and your family in my thoughts.

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    Jen
    April 25, 2009 at 8:23 am

    I am very sorry for your loss. Stay strong and know John will always be watching over you.

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    Rae
    April 25, 2009 at 8:26 am

    Jenna, I am so shocked and saddened by your loss. There really are no words. I’m so thankful that you have this community to support you and I hope you know how many people in this community care about you and love you.

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    elise
    April 25, 2009 at 8:28 am

    you and your family and your brother are in my prayers. im so so sorry for this loss.

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    butterjessfly
    April 25, 2009 at 8:29 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

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    Emily
    April 25, 2009 at 8:30 am

    Jenna,
    I haven’t commented much, but I enjoy your blog most everyday. You are an amazing person and I am so sorry that this has happened. I wish I could say something that would somehow make things better for you, but I know that words are inadequate at a time like this. Please know that I, along with so many others, are feeling for you and praying for your family at this time. All my love, Emily

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    Oh She Glows
    April 25, 2009 at 8:30 am

    I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine what you and your family are going through. You and your family are in my prayers.

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    courtney
    April 25, 2009 at 8:30 am

    Dear Jenna,

    I am so sorry… words cannot express the sympathy that I feel for you and your family at this time. I do not understand how this could happen to such a bright and wonderful family. I am not really religious, but I will pray for you all at this time; I know that God will hear my prayers for you. God bless, and please take care of yourself and let your friends and family take care of you as well. There are so many people in this world who love you. Again, I am so so sorry.

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    Maria
    April 25, 2009 at 8:31 am

    Jenna,

    I am so sorry and upset over this even though I don’t even know you and not even sure if I ever commented on your blog before even though I read it EVERY SINGLE DAY. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. Remember have faith and be strong, God has a plan for all of us and they say he takes those who he loves the most first.

    With deep sympathy,
    Maria

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    Lesley
    April 25, 2009 at 8:31 am

    So very sorry to hear about your loss. My prayers are with you and your family. Peace and grace to you.

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    Candice
    April 25, 2009 at 8:31 am

    I’ve come to really love your blog, Jenna, and I feel as if I know you even though I don’t really. I can’t imagine what you must be going through. Just remember that God has a plan, and He loves us beyond what we can imagine. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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    Mary Catherine
    April 25, 2009 at 8:32 am

    Jenna, I am so so sorry you and your family are going through this. I hope you always find comfort in the fact that he is in a much better place. You and you family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Katherine
    April 25, 2009 at 8:32 am

    All my love is sent your way. I’m in shock.

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    Anais
    April 25, 2009 at 8:34 am

    I am so so so sorry for your loss. I can’t even begin to imagine what it’s like to lose a brother, who had his whole life ahead of him. You and your family seem very strong and supportive, and you will get through this!

    Just scrolling down to leave a message, I had to keep on scrolling and scrolling because there were so many comments, so it’s obvious that you also have a lot of support in the blogging community, you’re not alone!

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    Jennifer
    April 25, 2009 at 8:34 am

    I’m so, so sorry, Jenna. I pray for you and your family. May God give you all strength and peace.

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    suzanne
    April 25, 2009 at 8:36 am

    “hugs” i’m keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers today.

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    Meredith
    April 25, 2009 at 8:37 am

    Jenna- nothing i can say will do justice for this situation. I pray that you feel God’s comfort at this difficult time. I will be praying for you and your family.

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    Jessica
    April 25, 2009 at 8:37 am

    I am praying for you right now Jenna.
    May God be with you and your family right now, and send you the peace and strength to make it through it incredibly difficult experience.

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    marissa
    April 25, 2009 at 8:39 am

    oh Jenna I don’t even know what to say. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Janet
    April 25, 2009 at 8:40 am

    Jenna, I am so, so sorry. I know your faith will get you through this. I don’t pray often, but I will for you and your family.

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    Jen
    April 25, 2009 at 8:44 am

    I am so, so sorry for your loss. I hope you find comfort in your memories, your faith, and your family during this difficult time.

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    Priyanka
    April 25, 2009 at 8:45 am

    Jenna, I am really Sorry for the terrible loss. Your family is in my prayers, I can’t believe this is happening!

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    Lida
    April 25, 2009 at 8:46 am

    Jenna, I can’t even tell you how sorry I am. Life is so unfair and unexpected. I’ll be thinking of you and i am so sorry.

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    Errign
    April 25, 2009 at 8:46 am

    So sorry for your loss Jenna.

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    Amanda E.
    April 25, 2009 at 8:47 am

    I was shocked when I visited your site this morning to find your most recent post. You are such a beacon of light and inspiration. My thoughts, prayers, and love are with your family today and in the future. I am so, so deeply sorry for your loss. I hope all these comments, all these people whom you have touched, can bring a little bit of comfort to you in these dark times.

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    Keva
    April 25, 2009 at 8:47 am

    Jenna, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. May your faith and God’s love carry you through. Take care

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    Kelly T
    April 25, 2009 at 8:48 am

    Jenna, I don’t know if I’ve ever commented before but I’ve been a LONG time reader of your blog. Right now I feel compelled to tell you what a source of inspiration you are to me, how you have helped me develop a much healthier relationship to food and my body. I look forward to reading your sweet and funny words every morning. I also want to tell you that I know you will get through this. You are such a strong person, and you have an amazing support system that extends to all these people who have commented. Have faith in yourself and your family, life is so confusing and hard sometimes and just does not make sense but you have the inner resources to get you through this. Just know right now that so many people are thinking of you, wishing you and your family well.
    with warm wishes,
    Kelly

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    Andrea
    April 25, 2009 at 8:48 am

    Jenna,

    I am so sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers for you and your family!

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    Tabby
    April 25, 2009 at 8:48 am

    Jenna I am so sorry!! I know there is nothing I could say to make you feel better but I just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you and your family. I hope you can find some comfort in the fact that he is in Heaven and you will get to see him again some day.

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    Little Black Dress
    April 25, 2009 at 8:50 am

    Jenna, I have been reading your blog since day 1- I have always been so inspired by everything about you and consider you a serious role model in my life.

    I am so incredibly sorry- God works in mysterious ways sometimes. My thoughts are iwth you and your wonderful family. I know you will get through this and I know John is with God now.

    I would like to bhe able to help in any possible way- please let us know.

    Otherwise, I will keep on praying.

    Many hugs,
    Anna

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    Melissa
    April 25, 2009 at 8:52 am

    Oh my gosh, Jenna, I am so very sorry to hear this. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers …

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    Don
    April 25, 2009 at 8:52 am

    I’m so sorry for your loss. Be strong; take care of yourself.

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    Allyson
    April 25, 2009 at 8:52 am

    Jenna-

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. What a shock, I’m so sorry for your loss. Please know you have the love and support of the entire blog community forever and always. Do what you need to do to take care of yourself and your family at this time…

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    Yelli
    April 25, 2009 at 8:55 am

    I’ll be praying for you and your family, Jenna. I’m so sorry for your loss.

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    Danielle J
    April 25, 2009 at 8:55 am

    Jenna,
    Although I don’t comment often, I am a huge fan of your incredible blog. Your creativity and passion for baking, cooking, and a living a healthy lifestyle have inspired me to make changes in my own day to day habits.
    I am so sorry to hear about your brother. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Erin
    April 25, 2009 at 8:57 am

    Jenna,

    I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I have a sister that I love more than anything and I can’t imagine what I’d be feeling if I ever lost her. You are such a beautiful person and just know that the Lord is with you in times like this, as He always is, and will help you through this.

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    healthy ashley
    April 25, 2009 at 8:58 am

    Oh Jenna.. I am so so sorry for you. I’m taken by tears. I hope I can help somehow as I live so close to you. I will pray for your family.

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    april
    April 25, 2009 at 9:00 am

    Jenna, I know I don’t know you personally but I have seen how strong you are. You are a wonderful girl and sometimes God works in mysterious ways. I like to think that everything happens for a reason, although sometimes its hard to understand why. You are in my thoughts and prayers!

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    lisa
    April 25, 2009 at 9:01 am

    may God draw your family into his arms, hold you close, and give you as much peace as possible in this time of brokenness. your family will be in my prayers.

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    zoe
    April 25, 2009 at 9:02 am

    As a new reader, I can only reiterate what others before me have said. You are an incredibly special spirit and a joy to read, and I am so sorry for your loss. I have a 19 year old brother who is my best friend, so I cannot imagine what you are going through.

    Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. I send you my love.

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    Samantha
    April 25, 2009 at 9:02 am

    I’m so sorry to hear this. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Erika
    April 25, 2009 at 9:03 am

    My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.

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    Amy
    April 25, 2009 at 9:03 am

    Jenna – I am without words as I read about your loss. I certainly will be keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time.

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    Alisa - One Frugal Foodie
    April 25, 2009 at 9:05 am

    Jenna, you are an incredible inspiration. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Sara
    April 25, 2009 at 9:06 am

    Jenna,

    I am so sorry. I am another reader who has been following your blog for over a year and have never commented. I also have a younger brother, also named John who has brought so much joy to my life. I cannot begin to imagine what you are your family are going through, but you are all in my thoughts and prayers. Your healthy lifestyle and positive attitude are always an inspiration to me and I hope you know that your readers will be there for you, whenever you need us.

    All my love,
    Sara

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    Kristin @ Iowa Girl Eats
    April 25, 2009 at 9:06 am

    Jenna, what an unspeakable tragedy, I am shocked and sickened my this news. My prayers are with you and your entire family.

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    Help Meghan Run
    April 25, 2009 at 9:06 am

    Oh Jenna, I am so sorry. I’m crying for you, and your family is in my thoughts. You are such a wonderful person, take care of yourself and know that you and your family will get through this. We are all here for you.
    Meghan

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    Liza
    April 25, 2009 at 9:07 am

    Jenna,
    All my thoughts, prayers, and love are with you and your family. I can’t imagine how difficult this is for you right now, but know that your faith will help you through. God bless.

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    Brittany
    April 25, 2009 at 9:07 am

    My heart goes out to you and your family. You will be in my prayers.

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    Emily
    April 25, 2009 at 9:08 am

    Oh my goodness Jenna, I’m so sorry for your loss! Like others have said, I have been reading for your blog for quite some time and almost feel as though I know you. You truely are a beautiful and kind person. My thoughts are with you and your family.

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    Megs
    April 25, 2009 at 9:12 am

    Jenna – I have commented a few times before and have been a faithful reader. Please know that you and your entire family are in my thoughts and prayers. We many never know why these things happen and I know it doesn’t always help to hear “he’s in a better place or he;s still with you” but let those words bring you comfort in the days, weeks, months, and years ahead.

    We all are here to support you and pray for you.

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    Lauren
    April 25, 2009 at 9:13 am

    What an incredible tragedy… I don’t have the right words, no one does, but know that you have a legion of faithful readers who are all thinking of you and sending you virtual love and hugs.

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    Carly C
    April 25, 2009 at 9:14 am

    Hi Jenna. I read your blog everyday and you are truly an inspiration to me. I know your strength and positivity will get you through this time. I am thinking and praying of you and your family. I am so sorry.

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    Jerilynne
    April 25, 2009 at 9:14 am

    Jenna, I am so so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts.

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    Beth
    April 25, 2009 at 9:15 am

    Jenna, there are no words. I just want to say how very very sorry I am for your loss. This tragic loss. We don’t know why things happen, but I know you will have the support of friends and family to get through. Celebrate your brother’s life, and even though I don’t know you personally, I will hold you and your family in my heart and thoughts.

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    elliebelle
    April 25, 2009 at 9:16 am

    Oh Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine the shock and pain you feel. I, along with many, am thinking of you and your family at this tragic time.

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    Mandy
    April 25, 2009 at 9:16 am

    So sorry for your loss… I can’t even begin to imagine what you must be going through. My thoughts are with you and your family.

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    Sarah
    April 25, 2009 at 9:17 am

    I have been a lurker for the past couple of weeks on here, but when I read this, I felt like I needed to say something. I don’t know what, because I know there are no words that can truly make it better, but I will be praying for and thinking about you and your family.

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    Bec
    April 25, 2009 at 9:19 am

    Sorry for your and your families loss, my thoughts are with you.

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    Eleanor
    April 25, 2009 at 9:20 am

    I am so sorry for your loss. Deepest condolences; my heart goes out to you and your family.

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    cbinkc
    April 25, 2009 at 9:21 am

    I am still shocked after reading your post this morning and I’m so sorry about your family’s loss. I will be praying that God will shower you and your family with love during this difficult time. I cannot begin to imagine what you and your family are feeling right now, but I KNOW that God has and will continue to be with you. I am glad that you were able to be with your brother and I am saddened that your Mom is just getting back this morning. I will be praying for you and your family during the upcoming weeks.

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    Brooke
    April 25, 2009 at 9:21 am

    Jenna, I literally started crying when I read this. I have been a faithful reader of your blog since January 2008. This is a terrible tragedy, but I hope you are somewhat comforted by the kind words of those around you and your readers. We are all praying for you and your family.

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    Jess M
    April 25, 2009 at 9:22 am

    Jenna, I have just recently began reading your blog but your posts reveal what a wonderful, kind person you are taking the time to inspire others every day with your healthy perspective and humble attitude. I am so sorry for your loss and I am praying for you and your family. You have an entire community that is here for you — don’t hesitate to reach out.

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    Tamela
    April 25, 2009 at 9:22 am

    My prayers are with you and your family at this difficulty time. May God help you through this and help you cope with your pain. God bless you and your family.

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    Shelbney
    April 25, 2009 at 9:22 am

    My heart hurts for you Jenna. I’m so sorry. I can’t imagine your mom’s trip. Thoughts and prayers to you and your family.

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    Mariel
    April 25, 2009 at 9:23 am

    Jenna, You’ve opened your heart and life to so many people. You’ve drawn us in with your wit and charm. I feel as if you’re a friend, and I’m deeply saddened for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.

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    Julie
    April 25, 2009 at 9:24 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. It’s unbelieveable but you are a strong woman with strong faith and I know you can make it through this. You are in my prayers.

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    Jennie
    April 25, 2009 at 9:26 am

    I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Lisa W
    April 25, 2009 at 9:27 am

    What a horrific tragedy. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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    Kiersten
    April 25, 2009 at 9:27 am

    I am so sorry for your loss Jenna. You and your family are in my thoughts. *hugs*

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    Neela Marijana
    April 25, 2009 at 9:28 am

    my thoughts are with you jenna,
    i will pray for you and your family. stay strong.

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    Megan
    April 25, 2009 at 9:28 am

    Hey, I came over from Kath’s blog. I’m really sorry to hear about this tragedy. I will be praying for you and your family.

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    ellie
    April 25, 2009 at 9:28 am

    I’m so sorry Jenna. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers xxx

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    MaryBe
    April 25, 2009 at 9:28 am

    I lost my brother when I was 28 and he was 30 (he was a Navy Seal)
    No one can ever take away your happy memories, and they will comfort you
    Faith, and the love of family and friends, will help you through this
    We are praying for you

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    Abbey
    April 25, 2009 at 9:30 am

    Jenna,

    Geez, I’m so sorry for your loss Jenna. It was very brave of you to be with your brother until the end. I’m sending my thoughts and prayers to you & your family. God Bless and stay strong.

    Abbey

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    Barbara
    April 25, 2009 at 9:31 am

    Jenna~

    I will pray for you and your family. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Strength be with you.

    B

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    Lindsey
    April 25, 2009 at 9:32 am

    Jenna –
    My heart goes out to you and I want you to know that I’m praying for you and your family. You’re right – there is a reason that only God knows, but HE is in charge and he will be with you always.

    Peace and Comfort,
    Lindsey

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    Shandi
    April 25, 2009 at 9:32 am

    Oh my goodness! Jenna, I will definitely be praying for you and your family. Stay strong and remember that everything happens for a reason God’s plan is much bigger than ours and we can’t always see the reason behind what happens. I pray that he’ll give you and your family comfort during this time!

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    Amy
    April 25, 2009 at 9:34 am

    I am so sorry for your loss-I cannot imagine how shocking and painful this must be for you and your family. My thoughts are with you all during this difficult time.

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    Amanda
    April 25, 2009 at 9:36 am

    I am praying for you and your family.

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    Christina
    April 25, 2009 at 9:37 am

    Jenna,

    I have read your blog for quite a while, but never commented… I am just in shock, and my heart is breaking for you and your family. I am so, so sorry for your loss, and you and your family will all be in my thoughts.

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    Linda
    April 25, 2009 at 9:37 am

    I have been reading you blog for a year now and rarely comment but have grown to adore your attitude about life and food. Just reading your post this morning I felt like I was punched in the gut and am now on the verge of tears for you. As so many have said there are no words I can say to alleviate what you and your family are going through. . .just know you will be in my thoughts today and on and I will pray for your family in my own way. The Universe and/or God does have a divine plan it just doesn’t always make sense in the moment.
    love and peace to you and your family
    Linda

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    Leslie
    April 25, 2009 at 9:37 am

    I’m so sorry! I’ll be praying for you.

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    Jessica
    April 25, 2009 at 9:38 am

    I’m so sorry for your loss Jenna!!!!! I’ll keep you and your family in my prayers.

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    hepsmom
    April 25, 2009 at 9:38 am

    I am so sorry to hear about your loss! How horrific it must be for your family to face this. I am praying that God will give you what you need to work through this. I wish the peace that passes understanding to you, your family, and others close to your brother.

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    Jaclyn
    April 25, 2009 at 9:39 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry to hear about this tragedy in your family. It is such a shock and overwhelming sadness, I konw. Know that there are SO many people out there supporting, praying and thinking about you! Take Care,
    Jaclyn

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    Rachel
    April 25, 2009 at 9:39 am

    Praying for you and your family, my heart goes out to you.

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    granolagirl
    April 25, 2009 at 9:40 am

    Your are in my prayers Jenna. I can’t even imagine what you must be going through.

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    Rosebud
    April 25, 2009 at 9:41 am

    I rarely comment, but just want you to know I’ve been a reader now for a while and really want to offer my condolensences. God is with you, and you and your family are in my prayers

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    Lara
    April 25, 2009 at 9:42 am

    Jenna,
    I have never commented before but I wanted to send my DEEPEST condolences to you over this tragic loss. I am truly heartbroken for you and your family. Hugs, prayers, every good thought is being sent your way.

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    Grace
    April 25, 2009 at 9:42 am

    Jenna!

    I have never posted but am a long term reader. I am SO sorry to hear about your brother but I know that you will get through this with the help of your family and friends. I hope that you can take comfort in the blog and see how many caring and thoughtful people have posted. My prayers go out to you and your family, may your brother rest in peace <3

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    Shell
    April 25, 2009 at 9:43 am

    Jenna, i know this feels so horrible and never-ending but it will get better. Stay close to your family and friends and support each other. I too have lost a brother and I know how completely devastating it feels but please remember that our Heavenly Father loves you, he is there for you, and he wants you to be happy. Pray to him and keep faith. It will get better. You are in my prayers.

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    Jessica
    April 25, 2009 at 9:43 am

    Jenna,

    I am a long time reader and am always inspired by your positive outlook on life. I am your age with a younger brother of the same age as yours, and I cannot imagine the strength it takes to deal with such a tragedy. Although I am not deeply religious I will say a prayer for you and your family. I hope that you will make it through this tough time.

    Jessica

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    alice
    April 25, 2009 at 9:44 am

    I’m so sorry, Jenna. My heart goes out to your and your family and everyone that knew and loved your brother. I’m keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you find strength.

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    Allison
    April 25, 2009 at 9:46 am

    Jenna,
    I am deeply sorry for your loss. I can’t even imagine what you are going through, but just know that my family and I are keep you and your family in our prayers. <3

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    Dori
    April 25, 2009 at 9:46 am

    Jenna, I am so so sorry. I can’t imagine how awful this must be for you… my thoughts are with you.

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    meghan cohen
    April 25, 2009 at 9:46 am

    Jenna,
    My thoughts are with you and your family. May you find peace in knowing he is now with God.

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    Fancy
    April 25, 2009 at 9:47 am

    You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers, Jenna. I am so sorry for your loss….

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    Joleen
    April 25, 2009 at 9:47 am

    Jenna,
    You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry for your loss.

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    Ruby
    April 25, 2009 at 9:50 am

    Oh my goodness, what a horrible horrible shock… you are all in my thoughts and for what it’s worth, I’m sending you strength.

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    Meredith (Pursuing Balance)
    April 25, 2009 at 9:50 am

    I am so sorry for your loss. I am praying for you and your family.

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    Caitlin
    April 25, 2009 at 9:50 am

    My stomach just dropped – I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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    Emily
    April 25, 2009 at 9:51 am

    Dear Jenna, Prayers for you and your family are being sent from Atlanta, GA right now. God will provide the strength you need to get through this. You have surrounded yourself by people who love you and they will be there to carry you along the way. You are so loved.
    ~Emily

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    Tiffany
    April 25, 2009 at 9:51 am

    Jenna,
    Our thoughts and prayers are with you. I hope you’re able to find a little comfort in company and that we are all thinking about you and your family. God bless.

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    Cate
    April 25, 2009 at 9:51 am

    I can’t imagine. Thinking of you Jenna… praying and sending you love.

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    ashley (sweet & natural)
    April 25, 2009 at 9:51 am

    Jenna, my heart stopped when I read this. No words can describe how deeply sorry I am that this happened. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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    Pearl
    April 25, 2009 at 9:51 am

    Dear Jenna,

    I am so, so sorry to hear about this tragedy. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I am in San Diego, but if there is anything I can do, please do not hesitate to contact me.

    Pearl

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    Veronica
    April 25, 2009 at 9:51 am

    Jenna,
    So sorry to hear of your loss. I’m crying as I type this because the same thing happened to my brother 5 years ago on 8-01. I know the pain and shock you’re feeling now. I pray for comfort that only our Heavenly Father can give. Its a tough road you’re about to travel but our Father will hold you even when you forget to ask him to.

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    Meredith
    April 25, 2009 at 9:51 am

    Jenna,
    Like so many here I always read but never comment. My prayers are with you and your family today. May God bless you and help you through this difficult time.

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    Kristin
    April 25, 2009 at 9:52 am

    Jenna,
    I’m so, so sorry. I recently lost someone very close to me too and I know how sickening the feeling is, it WILL get better…
    You’ll be in my thoughts,
    Kristin

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    Organic Girl aka AshleyH
    April 25, 2009 at 9:54 am

    Oh Jenna! I feel like I have this blog for so long now that you are like family to me. I literally broke down at my computer this morning. I am so sorry for your loss. Take a break for a while. We will all understand if you need to take a step away from blogging for a month or two and try to catch your breath. This is so much more I want to say but I dont know the words or even how to start. Pray for strength and listen to god’s response. You and your family are in my heart and my prayer’s right now. I am shocked.

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    Aimee
    April 25, 2009 at 9:55 am

    Jenna, I know that words can’t take away your pain, but I am praying that God takes care of you brother and your family.

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    van
    April 25, 2009 at 9:56 am

    Jenna, I am a long-time reader but have never commented. I am very sorry for your loss and will keep you and your family in my prayers. Take care.

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    Bethie
    April 25, 2009 at 9:57 am

    Jenna,
    You’re in my thoughts and prayers. Nothing I can say can take the pain away, but please take comfort in this:
    John 14:1-4 “Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father’s house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going.”

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    Ashley
    April 25, 2009 at 9:58 am

    Jenna,

    May God be with your family and Ryan during this time of grief. I can’t imagine what you all are going through but my prayers and thoughts are with you. I am also comforted to know you’ve developed such a great support network down there since you moved back. May peace be with you.

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    Rebecca Hoover
    April 25, 2009 at 9:59 am

    I’m so sorry. I’ll be praying for you and your family.

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    christy
    April 25, 2009 at 10:00 am

    Jenna,
    ” Be joyful always; pray continually ; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.” 1 Thess. 5:16

    ” Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” Phillipians 4:6

    ” God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.” Psalm 46:1
    I will pray for you and your family.

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    Eat, live, love, dream
    April 25, 2009 at 10:02 am

    Jenna,
    as some one who’s been in your position, I feel the pain. I’m so sorry for your loss. You and your family our in our prayers. God is strong on your behalf and he will see you and your family through.

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    Paula
    April 25, 2009 at 10:03 am

    Jenna,
    I am so very sorry to hear about your brother. I have went through something very similar. We cannot understand why or how these things can happen but as you said we have to have FAITH. We have to believe that there is a reason these things happen and although we might not know why we HAVE TO know our loved ones are in a better place and are no longer suffering. You and your family will be in my constant prayers and I hope you find faith in GOD and in each other to get you through this. I will offer his name in a prayer group. Stay strong and keep that head up and positive. May GOD bless you and your family.

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    erika
    April 25, 2009 at 10:08 am

    I am so sorry.

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    Kylie
    April 25, 2009 at 10:08 am

    I am so deeply sorry Jenna. I am praying that you feel God’s presence so strongly right now that you don’t feel alone. Keep your face turned to His and open yourself up to His strength. You don’t have to be strong…He is strong enough for you both.

    Much love through Him to you and your family. You will be in my thoughts and prayers…

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    Elizabeth S.
    April 25, 2009 at 10:09 am

    Jenna, you and your family are in my prayers. So sorry to hear about your brother.

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    Crystal
    April 25, 2009 at 10:10 am

    I am so sorry for your loss. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Kayla
    April 25, 2009 at 10:11 am

    Jenna I have been reading your blog since september although i’ve never commeted before.. I am literally shocked to read about your brother. I can not imagine what your family is going through. I pray for your family right now and will try to keep in mind that none of us know how much time we have to live our life.

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    Katie
    April 25, 2009 at 10:12 am

    Oh Jenna, I am so, so so so sorry about your chocolate chip cookie-baking little bro. You and your family are in my thoughts.

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    jessnyc
    April 25, 2009 at 10:15 am

    every prayer i have and all my love to you and your family right now jenna. we are all here for you.

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    Brittany
    April 25, 2009 at 10:16 am

    Jenna,
    its such a sad thing when a loved one is called. im so sorry for your loss. My best advice is dont hold on to the memories of him in the hospital dying but hold on to the good ones and remember him like that. Keep your head up and always know he is with you and watching over you. You and your family are in my prayers and God will help you get through this difficult time. I hope the best for you.

    Sincerely,
    Brittany G.

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    Katerina
    April 25, 2009 at 10:17 am

    The very best to you and your family. How terribly an awfully sad.

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    Rebeca
    April 25, 2009 at 10:17 am

    Jenna,

    Words cannot express my deep sorrow for you and your family. Please know that my family and I will be praying for your.

    Love in Christ,
    Rebeca

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    Ariel
    April 25, 2009 at 10:18 am

    I’m so sorry- there are no words- I lost my brother when he was 19 too- perhaps he’ll look in on your bother.
    Hugs.

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    Priscilla
    April 25, 2009 at 10:18 am

    Jenna,
    I have never commented before but read your blog daily and always look forward to it when I get home from work. I was shocked when I read this and my heart is broken for you. I have a younger sibling similar in age and I can’t imagine what you are going through. But you are a strong girl and have your faith in God, family and many friends (both IRL and on the internet) which will get you through this dark time. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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    Jewels
    April 25, 2009 at 10:19 am

    I am so so so sorry Jenna you will be in my thoughts and prayers as well as your family. I lost my brother about 9 years ago and I feel your pain right now. God Bless.

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    Monica
    April 25, 2009 at 10:21 am

    I am so shocked. I’m so sorry. I’m only 19 and I have a twin brother who is also 19..I can’t imagine. I’ll be thinking of you and your family…You’re in everyone’s thoughts today.

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    LT
    April 25, 2009 at 10:22 am

    Jenna, I haven’t prayed in what feels like forever – i’ve really strayed from my faith recently – but I am in tears just imagining what you and your family are going through and am completely moved to pray for the first time in a while. I’m so sorry.

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    SS
    April 25, 2009 at 10:23 am

    Jenna, I’m so sorry for your loss. I am praying for you and your family.

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    Danica
    April 25, 2009 at 10:25 am

    Jenna I am so sorry for your loss – my thoughts and prayers definitely go out to your and your family. I cannot begin to imagine what you all are experiencing but I definitely think you have the right mindset – he is in a good place.

    *Hugs*

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    alli
    April 25, 2009 at 10:25 am

    jenna, i can not begin to tell you how sorry i am to hear about your loss. your brother and your family are in my prayers.

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    Graze With Me
    April 25, 2009 at 10:27 am

    Oh my goodness, my heart stopped when I read this. I am so sorry girl. I hope you and your family are getting through this tough time and my thoughts and prayers go out to all of you.

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    Kristen
    April 25, 2009 at 10:28 am

    I’m so sorry, Jenna. You and your family are in my prayers. Lean on God.

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    Andrea
    April 25, 2009 at 10:29 am

    I am sorry for your loss.

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    andrenna
    April 25, 2009 at 10:31 am

    I’m sorry this has happened to you and your family. I don’t know if I believe in God, but in times like this, there is the need for prayer. I will still pray for you and your family.

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    Carla
    April 25, 2009 at 10:31 am

    I’m deeply saddened by your loss. My prayers go out to you and your family.

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    Sam
    April 25, 2009 at 10:32 am

    Jenna,
    I’m so sorry for your loss. I have been a loyal reader for a few months now, but I’ve never worked up the courage to leave a comment. I have to say you are such a strong, inspirational person and I know you can get through this. I read your post earlier this morning and haven’t been able to stop thinking about you and your family. I myself am only 18 years old, and the idea that my life could be ended any day has been something I’ve never considered. I’ve always believed “oh that would never happen to me.” But your brother’s death has struck a chord with me. In the past few years I’ve lived my life putting things off, and never truly lived each day with the happiness, enthusiasm, and appreciation it deserves. I now realize I must to change this; life is so precious and I never want to waste another day.
    God bless you and your family.

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    Maureen
    April 25, 2009 at 10:33 am

    Jenna, I have been reading your blog for about a year and I absolutely love it. When I read your post this morning I was in utter shock. I have been thinking of you and your family all morning and will continue to! I’ll be praying.

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    Emma
    April 25, 2009 at 10:34 am

    Jenna, I always read but never post, but all my heart goes out to you. You are so beautiful and strong and I admire you so much. Please take care of yourself, and I am truly so sorry for your loss.
    much love,
    emma

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    Katy
    April 25, 2009 at 10:34 am

    You and your family are in my prayers during this difficult time. I hope you see all these comments from your readers and feel the big blog hug we are sending your way. I know your strong faith will help you find solace in the minutes, hours, days, weeks, years to come. I am so sorry for your tragic loss.

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    Ryan (Chase Daylight)
    April 25, 2009 at 10:36 am

    Jenna, though I’ve only met you in person once, I am deeply saddened by the heartache and pain you must be going through right now. I am praying for you and your family and I’m so very sorry for your loss.

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    Brynn
    April 25, 2009 at 10:37 am

    Jenna, my love and prayers are with you and your family after this devastating loss. I hope you are together with your mom by now. I am so truly sorry for your loss.

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    Bev
    April 25, 2009 at 10:40 am

    Jenna,
    I’ll keep you family in my prayers, God Bless you all

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    Lauren
    April 25, 2009 at 10:41 am

    Jenna,
    You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Please know that we all are here for you.

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    Lauren
    April 25, 2009 at 10:42 am

    Jenna,
    I am a longtime reader who doesn’t comment much, but I just wanted to express my greatest sympathy to you and your family. Words cannot describe how deeply saddened I am to hear about the tragic lost of your brother. You and your family will be in my thoughts. Please let the blogging community know if there is anything we can do to ease this time of pain.
    Love,
    Lauren
    Scottsdale, Arizona

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    Danielle
    April 25, 2009 at 10:45 am

    Jenna,
    So sorry to hear this!
    Prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.

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    Caitlin
    April 25, 2009 at 10:46 am

    Jenna I am so so sorry for your loss. Please know we are all keeping you and your family in our thoughts.

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    sirenjess
    April 25, 2009 at 10:47 am

    Jenna,

    I am so sorry for you loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you an your family.

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    maritza
    April 25, 2009 at 10:48 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. I will be praying for you and your family. With love, Maritza

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    Stephanie
    April 25, 2009 at 10:48 am

    Jenna, I read every day but I’ve never made a comment. Your news took by breath away. I can’t believe it. I am so sorry for you and your family. God bless you.

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    Kristy
    April 25, 2009 at 10:50 am

    Oh Jenna, I am so sorry! I immediately started crying when I read your post. My heart truly aches for you and your family.

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    Kailey (SnackFace)
    April 25, 2009 at 10:52 am

    Oh sweet Jenna, I am so incredibly sorry. As one who has looked to you and your posts for inspiration and help (for your bright, shiny, strong spirit always lifts me), I am devastated to know this has happened to you and your family. I truly believe your brother is in a better place, and that the Lord will swoop in and assist you in this time of utter pain. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Sandy
    April 25, 2009 at 10:53 am

    Jenna..I’m so incredibly sorry.What a horrible thing to happen to your little brother John…Praying for you and your family at this..
    I’m sorry…

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    Jo
    April 25, 2009 at 10:54 am

    Jenna,
    So very sorry to hear about the loss of your brother. Somehow, I hope the memories you had together will help get you through these difficult days.
    With great sympathy,
    Jo

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    Jade
    April 25, 2009 at 10:55 am

    Hi Jenna,
    Let the wonderful memories of your brother together with your family carry you through this tragedy. Hold dear to those moments he made you smile. Big hug for you.
    Jade

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    Jess
    April 25, 2009 at 10:56 am

    Praying for you. May Peace be with you.

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    Kiki
    April 25, 2009 at 10:57 am

    Oh gosh honey, I am so so sorry, I dont comment much on your blog, but this was my actual reaction when reading the post, I hope you arent feeling too low. Very sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you.

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    Laura (On the Threshold of Greatness)
    April 25, 2009 at 10:58 am

    You and your family are in my prayers. Surround yourself with the ones you love, and know that we are all here sending you love as well.

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    Meg
    April 25, 2009 at 10:59 am

    I am so sorry for you & your family’s loss, Jenna. Please know that John is in a better place. You and your family are in my thoughts & prayers.

    Love, Meg

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    Liz
    April 25, 2009 at 11:00 am

    I’m so sorry for your loss – You are in my prayers.

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    Dawn
    April 25, 2009 at 11:02 am

    Jenna,
    I’ve been reading your blog for nearly a year yet have never commented, but I felt truly compelled to today. I’m so so sorry for your loss. I know that you have a strong support system composed of family, friends and your faith that will help you get through this, and I just know that John is in a better place free from pain. You and your family are in my thoughts, and as difficult as it may be, try to stay strong through this for yourself and your loved ones. Please take care.

    With love and strength,
    Dawn

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    Heather
    April 25, 2009 at 11:05 am

    I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I experienced the loss of my brother when I was 10 years old & know that you’ll forever feel that empty place in your life. Be comforted in knowing that he’s with the Lord & will be dancing in the clouds! You have my prayers!

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    Cassie
    April 25, 2009 at 11:05 am

    My prayers are with you Jenna…be strong

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    Janet
    April 25, 2009 at 11:05 am

    Jenna I am sooo sorry for your loss.. Yes he is in a better place with our Father in Heaven…

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    Melissa @ For the Love of Health
    April 25, 2009 at 11:07 am

    I am so sorry for your loss. Prayers and thoughts.

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    Anita
    April 25, 2009 at 11:09 am

    Oh my God, Jenna. Words cannot express how deeply sorry I am over your loss. My thoughts are with your family during this time. We love you and are here for you.

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    Erica
    April 25, 2009 at 11:11 am

    You know I love you and am praying for you constantly that God will keep your entire family tightly in His grip. Love you bunches. xoxo

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    Cindy
    April 25, 2009 at 11:12 am

    Jenna…I am so sorry for your loss. I click onto your blog everyday and feel as if I really know you. Surround yourself with friends and family…my prayers are with all of you.

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    Carly
    April 25, 2009 at 11:13 am

    Jenna,
    I am so very sorry for your heartbreaking loss.
    You will all be in our prayers.

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    Lindsay
    April 25, 2009 at 11:15 am

    jenna – I woke up this morning and was so saddened to hear about this tragedy. Your are in my prayers and know that you have a tremendous amount of support from this community.

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    Wiggs (The Beholder)
    April 25, 2009 at 11:17 am

    I’m so, so deeply sorry for your loss. I also feel hope and am moved by how much wisdom you’re already showing in overcoming this. You know that your brother is in a better place now, and he’ll be watching you and cheering you on for the rest of your life.

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    Leila
    April 25, 2009 at 11:17 am

    this is beyond imaginable. I’m am deeply sorry for you and your family’s loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you all.

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    Jennifer
    April 25, 2009 at 11:17 am

    Jenna –
    I am like a lot of your readers: I check your blog daily, but never post. I can’t imagine what you are going through, but my thoughts and prayers are with you, your family, and friends. I am very happy you were there with him until he passed away. I was in a similar situation and for some reason, it seems to help. Take time off, take care of yourself, and of your Mom, and when you’re ready to post again, we’ll all be here.
    Jennifer

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    Jeni
    April 25, 2009 at 11:17 am

    I’m so sorry for your loss. Thinking of you.

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    Jenna
    April 25, 2009 at 11:22 am

    My thoughts and prayers to you and your family.

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    Jenner
    April 25, 2009 at 11:23 am

    I am so sorry. There are no words right now. I am a Christian and will be praying for peace, comfort in friends and family, and God’s healing hands to be on your family.

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    lyssab324
    April 25, 2009 at 11:26 am

    I am so sorry for your loss, may angels lead him in…

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    Lindsey
    April 25, 2009 at 11:26 am

    Jenna–I know words don’t really help, but please know that I am praying for you and your family.

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    Kristi @ Sweet Cheeks
    April 25, 2009 at 11:28 am

    Jenna, I will be praying for you and your family. I can not even begin to imagine what you are going through but just know that God has a plan. Even when the worst happens, something good always comes from it. Keep your faith and keep strong, girl. We are all here for you.

    Hugs <3

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    brianna
    April 25, 2009 at 11:30 am

    I am so so so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with your family.

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    alwaysroom4dessert
    April 25, 2009 at 11:31 am

    Jenna,
    Like others I read your blog everyday and feel like I know you. I am incredibly sorry for you and your family’s loss. My thoughts are with you.

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    Karen
    April 25, 2009 at 11:31 am

    Oh my God — I am a longtime reader, though I rarely post, but I want to express my deepest sympathies — this is absolutely horrifying and heartbreaking news. My prayers are with you and your family.

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    Jess
    April 25, 2009 at 11:33 am

    I’m saying a prayer right now for you and your family. I am deeply sorry.

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    nadia
    April 25, 2009 at 11:35 am

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family, Jenna. I’m so very sorry for your loss.

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    Julie
    April 25, 2009 at 11:38 am

    oh my gosh jenna, so sorry for your loss,we are all here for you and prayers to you and your family.

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    Jamie
    April 25, 2009 at 11:39 am

    My heart truly goes out to you and your family. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Heartbreaking.

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    Joy
    April 25, 2009 at 11:39 am

    <3

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    Paula
    April 25, 2009 at 11:39 am

    Jenna, words escape me. I am so very sorry for your loss. Know that your family is my thoughts and prayers.

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    L
    April 25, 2009 at 11:43 am

    Other readers:
    I’m sure you all have been just as touched by Jenna and her blog as I have. Please light a candle here for her during this difficult time:

    http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/enter.cfm?l=eng

    God bless you Jenna

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    nicole r.
    April 25, 2009 at 11:43 am

    Jenna I have never met you but feel like I know you. My sister, my best friend, is newly 20 — I cannot imagine what you are feeling, and it brings me to tears just to think about it. You are beautiful in all ways, don’t forget that now. My deepest wishes to you and your family, you are in my heart.
    Be well.
    Om santi santi santi peace shalom
    Namaste
    nicole

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    Faith C.
    April 25, 2009 at 11:44 am

    Jenna,
    I am so very sorry for your loss. You and your family and loved ones will be in my prayers as well.

    Faith

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    Nicole
    April 25, 2009 at 11:44 am

    Jenna,
    I have been reading your blog for a long time, but have never posted.

    It seems odd to say this, since I don’t actually “know” you, but I will be thinking and praying for you and your family tonite.

    Please take good care of yourself.

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    Marisa
    April 25, 2009 at 11:46 am

    Jenna,
    You are in my prayers

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    Mandy
    April 25, 2009 at 11:47 am

    Jenna, wow… you are and your family are in my thoughts in prayers!

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    Sheree'
    April 25, 2009 at 11:49 am

    Jenna,
    I have read your blog for a long time but have not commented until today. I have always admired your faith and love for God and your willingness to share it with others. I have thought of you as a great role model to everyone who reads your blog. I want you to know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family as you go through this tragic time. Please accept my deepest sympathies for your loss.

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    Andrea
    April 25, 2009 at 11:49 am

    I’m so sorry for your loss! I read your blog regularly and don’t generally don’t comment but I just wanted to let you know you and your family are in my thoughts.

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    Stephanie
    April 25, 2009 at 11:53 am

    Just wanted to say I am sorry for your loss, and you are in our prayers. God bless you.

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    Melanie
    April 25, 2009 at 11:56 am

    “… the righteous are taken away to be spared from evil. Those who walk uprightly enter into peace, they find rest as they lie in death.” Isaiah 57:1-2

    Jenna,

    I’m so unbelievably sorry for your loss. I’ve been reading your blog for well over a year, but I’ve never commented. Please know that my heart goes out to you, your brother, and your family. I lead a Bible study for my sorority, and I know all of our girls will be praying for you this week.

    Love and peace in Him,
    Melanie

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    Arianna
    April 25, 2009 at 12:02 pm

    Jenna, I am usually a lurker but I wanted to comment to express how terribly sorry I am to hear about your family’s unimaginable loss. There are lots of people out there sending prayers and love to your family now.

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    Sarah
    April 25, 2009 at 12:06 pm

    Jenna,

    When I read your post today I immediately started to cry. I thought of what a sweet person you are and how close you are to your family, and thought of my own brother and could not imagine going through what you are being faced with. My deepest apologies to you. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

    Sarah

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    Nat
    April 25, 2009 at 12:08 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my prayers.

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    Sara
    April 25, 2009 at 12:08 pm

    Jenna,

    Please accept my condolences on the loss of your beloved brother. I’m so sorry and completely speechless. May your memories bring you comfort.

    Sara

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    Hilary
    April 25, 2009 at 12:12 pm

    Jenna, I am thinking about you and your family right now. I know that it takes a power much greater than a simple blog comment to offer comfort, but I wanted to let you know you aren’t alone.

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    Andi
    April 25, 2009 at 12:13 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    greenbean
    April 25, 2009 at 12:15 pm

    oh Jenna I’m so sorry to hear this news. I pray the Lord continues to comfort you and keeps you at peace. I pray that you experience grief that helps you heal, but that doesn’t leave you broken, confused or angry. You and your family will continue to be in my prayers.

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    Debbie
    April 25, 2009 at 12:16 pm

    I’m so sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Serena
    April 25, 2009 at 12:18 pm

    This was such a shock to read, which just shows how much you and your blog mean to your readers. I am so sorry for your loss and hope you are doing as well as you could be doing at a time like this. Your family is definitely in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Allison
    April 25, 2009 at 12:19 pm

    Jenna,
    My heart literally sunk when I read your post. I have been reading your blog for awhile now, and although we’ve never met, I feel that I am your friend. I am SO deeply sorry for you and your family. I will be thinking about you and praying for you. Stay strong.

    Allison

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    lora
    April 25, 2009 at 12:20 pm

    jenna, i am praying for you and I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot even imagine losing one of my brothers. Please know we are all here for you and your family.

    love,
    Lora

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    Lauren
    April 25, 2009 at 12:22 pm

    I have read your blog anonymously for several weeks & I am so sorry to hear the tragic passing of your brother.
    God has plans for us far beyond what we can understand – the Lord has just chosen your brother to meet with Him in Heaven, living in his eternal love and glory.

    I willl pray for you and your family through this hard time & that God’s love for you will lift you up during your sorrow.

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    Babycakes
    April 25, 2009 at 12:26 pm

    Jenna,
    There are truly no words. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Amanda
    April 25, 2009 at 12:27 pm

    my thoughts are with you and your family. I’m truly so sorry. Be strong.

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    JoPo
    April 25, 2009 at 12:27 pm

    You are in my thoughts, Jenna. May you find some peace during this terrible time.

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    megan
    April 25, 2009 at 12:27 pm

    My deepest sympathy to you and all your family and loved ones facing such a tragic and devastating loss in the passing of your young brother.
    Wishing strength,courage and love for you to all lean on each other now and always.
    May the prayers and caring from the readers around the world bring a tiny ray of sunshine in your darkest hours.
    Blessings to you from Canada.
    May your beliefs and spirituality comfort your grief.
    If you do ever start a scholarship or charity fund in your beloved brother’s name one day please let us all help you .
    Strength to you and your loved ones in your sorrow.

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    K
    April 25, 2009 at 12:29 pm

    Jenna-
    I am a longtime reader of your blog who has never commented before, but this post today made me wish that I could reach out to you.
    My thoughts are with you and your family today. I could not imagine losing my brother. You (although I only know you through your blog) seem like such a strong and lovely women, and I know that you and your family will make it through this time.
    Much love to you and yours,
    K

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    Kristin
    April 25, 2009 at 12:30 pm

    Jenna,

    I can’t even imagine what you and your family are going through. My thoughts are with you.
    Kristin

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    Lisa
    April 25, 2009 at 12:30 pm

    Jenna, prayers to you and your family. I cannot imagine how you and your family must be suffering now, but I know that God will guide you through this. I am so sorry this happened.

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    The Healthy Hostess
    April 25, 2009 at 12:30 pm

    You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry for your loss, it is unimaginable.

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    Amy C.
    April 25, 2009 at 12:30 pm

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. πŸ™ My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.

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    Brooke M
    April 25, 2009 at 12:31 pm

    Hi Jenna, I am a long-time reader who has never commented much but I just want to let you know how much I am praying for your family and your brother. You are such an inspiring and beautiful girl who has helped the blogging world and myself out to be better people. A week ago today my mother’s fiance passed away and I was away from home at the time and the first thing I did to find comfort was read your blog and Polly’s blog because you two are incredible woman with such a profound faith in God. I wanted to let you know that your positive energy and bible quotes helped me find comfort in knowing that there is a heaven and we must believe our Lord will help us with the next steps. God bless you and your family is in my thoughts.

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    Tracy Range
    April 25, 2009 at 12:31 pm

    Dear Jenna,
    I have been reading and gaining inspiration from your writings for a few months now. I come back to your blog because it comes through loud and clear that you are a special person–endlessly cheerful, intelligent, caring, kind and benevolent. I am so sorry for your loss. I know that your faith will see you through. As evidenced by the many comments here, you have many much-deserved friends who have grown to love you. I hope that you can take some small measure of comfort in that. My sympathy and prayers go out to you and your family.
    Sincerely,
    Tracy

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    Michelle
    April 25, 2009 at 12:31 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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    Monica
    April 25, 2009 at 12:32 pm

    jenna, please know that i am praying for you and your family. my heart is broken for you. stay strong in your faith.

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    Sara
    April 25, 2009 at 12:33 pm

    My thoughts are with you.
    Love,
    Sara

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    Kelly
    April 25, 2009 at 12:34 pm

    Jenna,
    I have been reading your blog since almost day 1 but have never commented. You have inspired me in so many ways. When I read your post my eyes filled with tears. I’m so sorry for your loss. My heart, thoughts, and prayers go out to you and your family.

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    melissa
    April 25, 2009 at 12:37 pm

    I’m so sorry about your loss. You’re in my thoughts.
    Peace be with you.

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    Laura
    April 25, 2009 at 12:42 pm

    Jenna,
    I’m so sorry to hear what happened. Everyone is in my prayers. Here’s a virtual hug from St. Louis!

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    stephanie o.
    April 25, 2009 at 12:43 pm

    Jenna,
    I don’t know you and you don’t know me but I have been lurking on your site for awhile. When I read this, my heart just stopped. I am so sorry that this has happened to you and your family. My little sister drowned in a swimming pool when I was younger and it was the worst day of my life. Please don’t lose your faith in God the way that I did. Sometimes, I think that’s all you have. If you EVER need anything, my email address is oddohead@gmail.com and I will respond as soon as I get it.

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    Rae
    April 25, 2009 at 12:45 pm

    Jenna,

    My thoughts are with you and your family. Even though many of us have never met you, you seem like such a wonderful person….stay close with Ryan and your family, as they, I know, will be your rock during this rough time. All the best.

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    Michele (aka Raw Juice Girl)
    April 25, 2009 at 12:48 pm

    Wow, Jenna, I’m so terribly sorry! I’m another lurker who is piping up to let you know my heart and prayers are with you. (I’ve been reading your blog for quite some time, but have never commented until now.)

    I know it isn’t the same, but I very recently (February 23, this year) lost a special cousin. He was 33 and was just the sweetest, best man. It doesn’t make it any easier, but there’s always a reason we lose our loved ones. I like to think it’s because God had to pick the very best, so He chose one of ours….

    *hugs*
    Michele

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    Shelbney
    April 25, 2009 at 12:51 pm

    Hi Jenna,
    I can’t stop thinking about you and your family. I’ve read you for so long and although we have never met, I’m so saddened by this horrible tragedy. I will pray peace for you. As a mother, I feel so deeply for your mom. I just can’t imagine…

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    Sharon
    April 25, 2009 at 12:52 pm

    Jenna, it is hard to think of the words to express my condolences to you and your family. While I rarely post on your blog; I read it every day after dinner as a way of relaxing and getting a glimpse into other people’s healthy lifestyles. Your blog and you mean a lot to me, even though I’ve never met you. You have a lot of friends out here who are hurting for you; please know that we are all praying for God to shed his healing grace on you and your family. Best wishes…

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    skinnyrunner
    April 25, 2009 at 12:53 pm

    Thinking and praying for you and your family.

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    Kodi
    April 25, 2009 at 1:01 pm

    I am so sorry Jenna. Please know that we are all praying for you, your brother and your family. CLing to God and your beliefs at this time and know that you are not alone.

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    Callina
    April 25, 2009 at 1:04 pm

    thinking of you, your brother, and your family. so sorry for your loss.

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    grace
    April 25, 2009 at 1:04 pm

    Please know that I am thinking about you and your family Jenna and I hope that you can remember God’s love during this difficult time. *hug*

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    Nadia
    April 25, 2009 at 1:05 pm

    I’m very sorry. You and your family are in my prayers. Be strong.

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    Kristin U
    April 25, 2009 at 1:08 pm

    Moments like these make it almost hard to breathe. Stay strong. Take it one day at a time. You WILL get through this.

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    miche98
    April 25, 2009 at 1:12 pm

    I am so sorry to hear about your brother.. Your family is in my prayers.

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    kristen
    April 25, 2009 at 1:15 pm

    I’m extremely saddened and sorry for your loss Jenna. I’ve been reading your blog for well over a year and a half and never commented but I have loved getting to know more about your life and your family through this blog. My prayers are with you and your family.

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    Mariel
    April 25, 2009 at 1:16 pm

    I’m so sorry, Jenna. You and your family are in my prayers. You are such an inspiration to all and I know that your faith will get you through.

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    Julia
    April 25, 2009 at 1:16 pm

    Jenna, I am so sorry to hear this. All my love and prayers are with you and your family. I know this is a difficult time for you, but I know with your strong spirit, you will get through this. Have faith, look deep within you and be strong. And I am sending you a huge big hug.
    Be well, Julia

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    cew
    April 25, 2009 at 1:18 pm

    Jenna- So sorry to hear about the loss of your brother. πŸ™ Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.

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    kim
    April 25, 2009 at 1:18 pm

    sorry to hear about his untimely death. He was lucky to have you as a sister and to be born into your loving family. Now he’s with God. May peace be with you and your family and friends.

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    Mary Beth
    April 25, 2009 at 1:18 pm

    Jenna – I read your blog regularly but comment rarely. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Jessica
    April 25, 2009 at 1:19 pm

    I’m so incredibly sorry, Jenna….but I know that you and your family will be able to get through this. My prayers are with you and your family! We love you!

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    cb
    April 25, 2009 at 1:20 pm

    There can be no words that can take away the pain you and your family are feeling. But I hope you may feel some comfort knowing that all the people you have touched through your blog and that you don’t even know are wishing you peace and strength during this very difficult time.

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    Carolyn
    April 25, 2009 at 1:20 pm

    I don’t think there is anything I can say that hasn’t already been said. You and your family are in my prayers.

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    Amandamoo
    April 25, 2009 at 1:21 pm

    You are in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry for your loss. This community is here for you should you need us.

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    RocΓ­o
    April 25, 2009 at 1:22 pm

    I am so sorry that you and your family experienced this terrible loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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    Kelly L.
    April 25, 2009 at 1:24 pm

    I am so truly sorry. You and your family are in my prayers. Pslam 34:18 The LORD is near to the brokenhearted And saves those who are crushed in spirit.

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    Ruby Red Vegan
    April 25, 2009 at 1:24 pm

    Jenna, just know that I will be praying for you and your family. I am so, so sorry for your loss. It speaks volumes about you in the way that you write about your continued faith, and things like this remind us all to really value the things in life that are most important to us.
    I hope you have a great weekend in your family, and please take care, girl!

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    Chaley
    April 25, 2009 at 1:25 pm

    Jenna, My prayers are with you and your family. May your faith give you comfort. God bless. Chaley

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    Stephanie
    April 25, 2009 at 1:28 pm

    Praying for you and your entire family, as well as your brother’s friends, and all that knew him.

    The Lord will NEVER leave you NOR forsake you.

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    Renata
    April 25, 2009 at 1:30 pm

    Jenna, I am so deeply touched by your loss. You are such a kind and loving person, and I know you will find the strength in your heart and soul to heal from this. My best wishes to you and your family. You are loved and we are here to support you in prayer.

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    Melissa (Nibbles and Wiggles)
    April 25, 2009 at 1:31 pm

    Oh Jenna, that is so heartbreaking. I’m so sorry for your loss. Wishing you and your family the best during this time.

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    eurydice
    April 25, 2009 at 1:31 pm

    my thoughts are with you and your family jenna – i’m so sorry.

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    Chris
    April 25, 2009 at 1:31 pm

    Jenna, my heart goes out to you and my prayers are with you. I hope that the prayers, thoughts and words of others can give you a small measure of comfort. God is with you – may His presence give you and your family peace.

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    Jess
    April 25, 2009 at 1:35 pm

    Oh my goodness, Jenna! I am so sorry to hear this. I am saying a quick prayer right now. My prayers and thoughts are with you!
    God Bless,
    jess

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    Nicole
    April 25, 2009 at 1:43 pm

    My deepest sympathies to you and your family Jenna!!

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    Ann
    April 25, 2009 at 1:44 pm

    Jenna – My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I’m so sorry for your loss. This is a tragedy.

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    Samantha
    April 25, 2009 at 1:50 pm

    I’m so sorry for your loss Jenna. I will pray for you and your family. Reading your blog and seeing your faith in God has influenced my own faith. I hope my words can now encourage you. Some things we will never in our lifetime understand. Please remember and believe that your dear brother is at peace in heaven. Your family has my deepest sympathies.

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    Beth
    April 25, 2009 at 1:51 pm

    Jenna,

    I am incredibly sorry for your loss. I pray that you and your family discover an even stronger faith and comfort in the Lord through this difficult time.

    Love and blessings,
    Beth

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    Caitlin
    April 25, 2009 at 1:54 pm

    I am so sorry Jenna. Of course I cannot think of any words to help ease your pain, but please know I am thinking about you and am praying for you. Sometimes it is difficult to understand why things happen the way they do, but just know that God is in control and you have an angel watching over you.
    God Bless you and your family.

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    Jenna
    April 25, 2009 at 1:56 pm

    Jenna Dear!!!!!! IF you need anything please let me know! I’m so heartbroken for you! what an absolute shock.

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    Kelsey
    April 25, 2009 at 1:57 pm

    Absolutely heartbreaking. You + your family are in my thoughts + prayers.

    ox-
    Kelsey

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    danielle
    April 25, 2009 at 1:58 pm

    I am so very very sorry for your loss. God be with you and your family.

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    Erica
    April 25, 2009 at 1:59 pm

    I am so sorry- my thoughts are with you and your family.

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    Sara
    April 25, 2009 at 1:59 pm

    I’ve been a reader of your blog for almost a year but have never commented.. I am so deeply sorry for your loss and wanted to let you know how much of a positive inspiration you’ve been for me to change my unhealthy lifestyles. Your blog has helped me in so many ways and I thank you for that. You and you’re family are in my thoughts and prayers..

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    amelia
    April 25, 2009 at 2:02 pm

    Jenna, I am so deeply sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Ashley
    April 25, 2009 at 2:03 pm

    Jenna – I am so sorry to hear about your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family in this difficult time.

    “When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure”

    xo

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    hjartas
    April 25, 2009 at 2:05 pm

    hi, i know you have received many comments already. i wanted to add to them to say that i’m very sorry to hear about your loss. i wish you and your family strength and peace in this difficult time.

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    Lynn
    April 25, 2009 at 2:10 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss. what an awful and saddening tragedy.

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    Alex
    April 25, 2009 at 2:14 pm

    Jenna

    I am so sorry for your loss and I will pray for you and your family.

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    Lyn
    April 25, 2009 at 2:14 pm

    Jenna, this just breaks my heart for your family. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending many prayers of comfort to you, your mom and your family.

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    Suzanne
    April 25, 2009 at 2:14 pm

    I’m so sorry.

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    bibixs
    April 25, 2009 at 2:15 pm

    Jenna, i’m a reader of your blog and i just want to express my sorrow and give you my condolences. My heart and prayers go to you.

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    Annie
    April 25, 2009 at 2:15 pm

    Jenna,
    I am deeply sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Alex
    April 25, 2009 at 2:17 pm

    I am sorry for you loss

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    Meg
    April 25, 2009 at 2:18 pm

    Jenna I’m so sorry about your brother! My thoughts are with you and your family!! I can only imagine how horrible it would be to lose a sibling so young.

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    Marina
    April 25, 2009 at 2:23 pm

    I am soo sorry. You and your family are in my prayers!

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    Amy
    April 25, 2009 at 2:25 pm

    Jenna
    I am so sorry for your loss. May your family find peace in this time of tragedy. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
    Amy

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    Casey
    April 25, 2009 at 2:25 pm

    I’m so sorry for your loss! My thoughts are with you and your family during this difficult time!

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    Elizabeth
    April 25, 2009 at 2:38 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you.

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    Rachel
    April 25, 2009 at 2:42 pm

    Jenna, I’m so sad to hear this. I’m keeping you and your family in my prayers.

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    Ashley
    April 25, 2009 at 2:46 pm

    Your faith will carry you through this difficult time. We love you and your family!

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    Nora
    April 25, 2009 at 2:47 pm

    Jenna, I am so very sorry about your brother and your family’s loss.

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    Vanessa
    April 25, 2009 at 2:50 pm

    I am so, so sorry for your loss. My thoughts are with you and your family.

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    Darrell
    April 25, 2009 at 2:56 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear about your tragic loss. My prayers are with you and your family at this time. God Bless!

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    amanda
    April 25, 2009 at 2:57 pm

    so sorry jenna )=

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    Andrea W
    April 25, 2009 at 3:03 pm

    I am so sorry for your devastating loss. I know I speak for everyone here in saying your joyful attitude and spunk is inspiring every single day. I hope we can reflect that back to you in this dark time, and provide some comfort and light for you and your family.

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    Emily
    April 25, 2009 at 3:03 pm

    Jenna, I’m so sorry about you and your families loss. I am thinking about you all. Take care.

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    kelsey
    April 25, 2009 at 3:05 pm

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my prayers.

    kelsey

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    Lisa
    April 25, 2009 at 3:08 pm

    Jenna, I’m so sorry! There is nothing but time that will help you to come to terms with this, but from reading about you and the challenges you have risen to and your faith, I know that you are the equal of this. I hope that the passing of months and years will help to ease your suffering and that of your family and that someday you will smile again and learn to go on. For all of us its a lesson to embrace what we have right now because often what turns our world on it head comes right out of a blue sky day with not a cloud on the horizon.

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    Emily
    April 25, 2009 at 3:11 pm

    Jenna ~
    I was so sorry to read this. Our thoughts are with you & your family.

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    Sammie
    April 25, 2009 at 3:11 pm

    Jenna,
    I am so sorry to hear this tragedy. My heart goes out to you and your family – I can’t even imagine the pain you all are feeling at this time. I will keep you in my prayers.

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    Sara
    April 25, 2009 at 3:15 pm

    Jenna-
    I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. Wishing you and your family peace during this painful time.
    Sara

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    Ash
    April 25, 2009 at 3:18 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss, Jenna. God is with you and He has a plan. Along with the others, I am praying for you.

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    Tina O.
    April 25, 2009 at 3:22 pm

    I am so heartbroken for you. My deepest condolences to you and your family. Please take care of yourselves and each other.

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    Julz
    April 25, 2009 at 3:23 pm

    Jenna Jenna Jenna Jenna

    My heart is so tight, holding yours now, cradling those of your precious family. I am SO SORRY. I do not know how to use words at a time like this. John is with G-d, now. He is safe, happy, in love, encompassing all the blessings with his lord. For you, for your mom, your dad, your family: MY PRAYERS, to the moon and back. My thoughts, everything, with you all. Again, words cannot fit with my feelings. In my heart, I feel so. I love you. I AM HERE IF YOU NEED ANYTHING. A candle will be lit tonight, as I pray. Namaste sweet dove, and namaste to your precious John. <333

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    Lindsay
    April 25, 2009 at 3:24 pm

    Wow, Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. I will be praying for you and your family!

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    Michelle Hisae
    April 25, 2009 at 3:26 pm

    I can’t believe this happened. It’s so unfair, but you seem resoundingly strong and I admire that. He must be in a better place, and you and your family are in my thoughts.

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    Runninduff
    April 25, 2009 at 3:27 pm

    I’m thinking of you! I went through a horrible loss this year and know what it’s like. We are all here for you. Take one day at a time and surround yourself with those you love.

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    April3720
    April 25, 2009 at 3:27 pm

    Jenna,
    I’m like a lot of your readers that have posted today through out today: I read your blog regularly (daily) but never post.
    I’m terribly sorry for your loss, you are an amazing person with limitless strength. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family! Please take care.

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    Elizabeth
    April 25, 2009 at 3:27 pm

    Jenna,
    I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Brianna
    April 25, 2009 at 3:31 pm

    Jenna, I am so sorry. My heart goes out to you & your family… you will be in my prayers.

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    sarah
    April 25, 2009 at 3:31 pm

    Oh, Jenna. I’m so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I pray for peace for your family during this time of grief!

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    Siobhan
    April 25, 2009 at 3:32 pm

    I’m still in shock from reading about your loss and I cannot even imagine what you are going through Jenna. I’m so sorry- you and your family are in my prayers.

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    Sara
    April 25, 2009 at 3:33 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts have been with you & your family ever since I read the tragic news.

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    SmA033
    April 25, 2009 at 3:34 pm

    it seems almost futile to write something so small as a comment but being an avid reader of your blog, i know you read your comments & appreciate them. My heart goes out to you & your family….no matter what religion you follow, i think it helps during these tough times to have faith in God & believe that He has a plan for everyone. We may not understand it right now, but we must learn to believe it is for the best. These words are easier said than done, but in situations like this, we become stronger in faith and learn to lean on a Higher Power. Remember, God never puts more on us than we can handle…just know that whatever is happening is not w/o God’s knowledge & His will. He is the Ultimate Guide & Protector….only He can guide you & protect you through this difficult time & for the rest of your life.

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    Wendy
    April 25, 2009 at 3:34 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear this. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Fleur
    April 25, 2009 at 3:36 pm

    I am so sorry to hear your sad news, Ill be thinking of you and just wish I could say something that could make a difference

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    Candice
    April 25, 2009 at 3:37 pm

    I don’t post much, but I had to say that I’m so sorry… I will pray for John, you, and the rest of your family. May peace be with you.

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    Deirdre
    April 25, 2009 at 3:38 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this tragic time.

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    Kate
    April 25, 2009 at 3:40 pm

    Jenna,
    I am so sorry for your loss, my thoughts are with you and your family. You are a strong woman.

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    Marlene
    April 25, 2009 at 3:42 pm

    Jenna,

    I wish to add my heartfelt condolences for you and your family. It is impossible to imagine what you are going through. My thoughts and prayers are with all of you.

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    Leslie
    April 25, 2009 at 3:43 pm

    Psalm 18:2 The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my Savior, my God, my rock in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the strength of my salvation, my stronghold

    These words have helped me through many hard times. Your family will be in my prayers.

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    Emily
    April 25, 2009 at 3:43 pm

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers, and I hope that the love this community has for you comes through in your time of need. I understand loss, and only hope that these hundreds of condolensces can be some fraction of comfort.
    You are an amazing woman, and my heart goes out to you.

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    baylee
    April 25, 2009 at 3:50 pm

    Im so sorry to hear about your loss, girl. I’ll keep you and your family in my prayers!

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    Kelly
    April 25, 2009 at 3:53 pm

    I’m so very sorry for your loss and will most definitely keep you and your family in my prayers…

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    Sarah (Tales of Expansion)
    April 25, 2009 at 3:54 pm

    Oh, Jenna, I’m sorry. What a sad, shocking, and impossible thing to have happened. I’m glad you have so much support from family and friends where you are, and my thoughts are with you all today and going forward. I know this will be a difficult difficult time for you, but I also know your faith and your family will carry you through. I’m sending an enormous hug times 10 million your way right now!

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    Maddy
    April 25, 2009 at 3:55 pm

    oh Jenna, I don’t even know what to say. Just know everyone is praying for you and it is completely okay to feel angry, upset, sad, confused. You are a strong person and will get through this.

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    saima
    April 25, 2009 at 3:57 pm

    I am soo sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!

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    Joanna
    April 25, 2009 at 4:04 pm

    oh jenna – i am thinking and praying for you and our family. His peace transcends all understanding…

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    Emily
    April 25, 2009 at 4:09 pm

    Oh my gosh, I am so sorry for your tragic loss! You and your family are most definitely in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong and allow those around you to envelop you with their love and support.

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    Emily
    April 25, 2009 at 4:09 pm

    Jenna,
    I am a faithful reader of yours and want to tell you I am praying for you, for your family and for your brother. I am so sorry for your loss Jenna. May God be with you and your family.

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    Sarah
    April 25, 2009 at 4:10 pm

    Jenna, I am very saddened to hear about your brother. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your loved ones. Just know that your brother will always be with you in your heart. <3

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    Jennifer
    April 25, 2009 at 4:10 pm

    Thinking of you. Deep sympathy.

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    Jennifer Cheon
    April 25, 2009 at 4:10 pm

    I am so sorry for you and your family. May God be with you as always. You are in my prayers. I have secretly read your blog everyday for over a year and this is my first comment. I love your blog with all of my heart and I can’t believe of such a tragic loss to you and your family. If there is anything you’d like for me to do, please, let me know.

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    Lori
    April 25, 2009 at 4:11 pm

    There are no words to express how sorry I am for you and your family. My thoughts are with you at this very difficult time.

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    Lee
    April 25, 2009 at 4:14 pm

    I’m so sorry.

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    Carrie
    April 25, 2009 at 4:15 pm

    Jenna, I have been thinking about you all day. I am shocked and saddened by this news. We are all here for you and praying for you. Peace be with you.

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    Rebecca
    April 25, 2009 at 4:15 pm

    Jenna,

    I read your blog everyday and think you are a huge inspiration for living a positive, healthy, and fulfilled life. It breaks my heart to read today’s post and I simply cannot imagine what you’re going through. I hope you realize that you are so valued in the blog world and so, so loved. You have a tremendous support system at your disposal and you should feel more than welcome to (virtually) lean on each one of us. One of my favorite things about reading your blog is how cheerful you always are–never lose that. In this terribly tough time, know that John is forever a part of you and forever a part of your spirit. Know that each time you smile, he is smiling with you.

    You and your family are in my thoughts and, as you can see in the previous 600-something comments, in many other’s thoughts as well. Words may not make anything better right now, but I hope you are comforted through our support.

    I am so sorry for your loss.

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    Caitlin
    April 25, 2009 at 4:18 pm

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. The amount of people who have commented with prayers is a testament to your goodness. You now have a very special angel.

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    kathleen
    April 25, 2009 at 4:19 pm

    jenna,

    it is times like this that no words seem appropriate for the powerful emotions surrounding this terrible tragedy. you and your family are in my thoughts and intentions.

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    Aimee
    April 25, 2009 at 4:22 pm

    So sorry to hear about your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. God has a plan and sometimes it’s so hard to understand his plan. But know that he is there for you.

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    Christa
    April 25, 2009 at 4:23 pm

    Jenna,
    Someone once said, “No one is really gone until forgotten,” so remember the great times… you have those forever! God Bless Jenna, you and your family are in my prayers!

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    Cat
    April 25, 2009 at 4:23 pm

    Jenna,
    I am so sorry to hear of your incredible loss. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. Deepest sympathy for your family and a huge hug to help you heal.

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    Kristie
    April 25, 2009 at 4:29 pm

    I’m so so sorry Jenna. My thoughts are with you and your family <3

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    Jenn
    April 25, 2009 at 4:31 pm

    Jenna,

    Long time reader, and comment here and there. I am soo sorry for your loss, and am just shocked at this news. My prayers are with you and your family during this tragedy. Only time will help and heal this pain. We are all here when you need us.

    xxox

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    Samantha
    April 25, 2009 at 4:34 pm

    Oh Jenna…prayers of strength and peace to you and your family. May John rest in peace.

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    Jenni
    April 25, 2009 at 4:34 pm

    you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers, jenna.

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    Lara
    April 25, 2009 at 4:34 pm

    Jenna! I am so sorry about your brother. You are in my thoughts right now for sure. I was just thinking about you yesterday actually. I am so sad to hear the news. Know that you have a friend in Charleston, and if there is anything I can do, please let me know!

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    Annah
    April 25, 2009 at 4:41 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you and your family

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    Shannon @ TheDailyBalance
    April 25, 2009 at 4:44 pm

    It’s crazy that at times when people need to hear them the most, there are no words. I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss and I hope you find some comfort knowing that you and your family are in my (and everyone else’s I’m sure!) thoughts and prayers. Take comfort in knowing that John is in a better place looking down on your with a smile. I pray for everyone who is missing him, though. I am so sorry. God bless.

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    bridget
    April 25, 2009 at 4:48 pm

    wishing you all the strength and comfort in the world. i’m so sorry for your loss and pain and with you and your family the best during this difficult time

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    Courtney
    April 25, 2009 at 4:49 pm

    Jenna, your blog always brightens my day. I am incredibly sorry to hear of your loss. Please remember that God is looking out for you, as are all of us.

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    Becky
    April 25, 2009 at 4:54 pm

    “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38-39

    OH Jenna I am so so sorry for your loss. I know that nothing can take away the pain you are going though. I know you are strong but right now everything feels shattered. Take refuge in knowing that “whoever believes in him, will not perish, but have everlasting life”…there is no one on earth that deserves Heaven but just believing in Jesus as your savior is enough…even the thief on the cross went to Heaven just by believing….Jesus is with your brother right now, just as he is with you and will be with you forever. Let him wrap his loving arms around you. You can take comfort in knowing he is in Heaven. Jenna, you will get to see your brother again and the time between now and then will feel like an eternity. I will keep you in my prayers.

    “Never again will they hunger; never again will they thirst. The sun will not beat down on them, nor any scorching heat. For the Lamb at the center before the throne will be their shepherd; he will lead them to springs of living water. And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes.” -Revelation 7:16-17

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    claire
    April 25, 2009 at 5:01 pm

    Oh, Jenna! I am so saddened and shocked to hear this news. I know that right now no words can really provide much comfort. I will be praying for you and your family. Although, we may never understand exactly why things like this happen and don’t understand how God can allow bad things to occur, you can have confidence that God is sovereign and in control of all things. He will use this for His glory and will give you and your family the peace, strength, and comfort you need. Lean on Him and keep trusting him! Many prayers will be prayed for you.

    In His Grace,
    Claire

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    Katie
    April 25, 2009 at 5:02 pm

    Jenna, I am so sorry to hear about your brother, no words can express the pain that you do not deserve to be feeling right now. I know the “why me?” feeling… it’s so hard to find consolation in loss. Thinking of you and your family..
    (2 Corinthians 12:9-10 reminds us of God’s abounding grace in tough times like this)

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    Meredith
    April 25, 2009 at 5:05 pm

    Praying for you and your family… always read blog with much admiration and respect, yet never posted. I’m so sorry for your loss. God bless.

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    Jesse
    April 25, 2009 at 5:06 pm

    I will pray for you and your family. I’m so sorry for your loss, know that He is with you even in your darkest hour.

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    Donna
    April 25, 2009 at 5:07 pm

    Jenna– I am so sorry that you are going through this time of pain. But yes, he is in the Glory of God now. You and your family are in my prayers.

    “But I would not have you to be ignorant, brethren, concerning them which are asleep, that ye sorrow not, even as others which have no hope. For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so them also which sleep in Jesus will God bring with him. For this we say unto you by the word of the Lord, that we which are alive [and] remain unto the coming of the Lord shall not prevent them which are asleep. For the Lord himself shall descend from heaven with a shout, with the voice of the archangel, and with the trump of God and the dead in Christ shall rise first Then we which are alive [and] remain shall be caught up together with them in the clouds, to meet the Lord in the air and so shall we ever be with the Lord. Wherefore comfort one another with these words.”
    1 Thessalonians 4:13-18

    GOD BLESS

    “For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time [are] not worthy [to be compared] with the glory which shall be revealed in us. ”
    Romans 8:18

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    Diane
    April 25, 2009 at 5:09 pm

    Oh Jenna – I am so sorry to hear about your brother. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family – that you may all have the strength to get through this difficult time. May your brother rest in peace.

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    Cammie
    April 25, 2009 at 5:10 pm

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family!

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    Nicole
    April 25, 2009 at 5:15 pm

    Oh my God. I had to read this post 2 or 3 times because I couldn’t believe it. I’m delurking to tell you how sorry I am for your loss. I read your blog everyday and you seem like such a sweet girl with a great family. I don’t know why awful things like this happen to good people; only God knows the answers. If it’s any comfort, know that your brother is in heaven watching over you and your family. Hold on to your faith, it will get you through this. I’ll pray for you guys and light a candle tomorrow at my church for your brother.

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    Tracy
    April 25, 2009 at 5:20 pm

    Jenna, I know you so well simply because I have been reading your blog forever. I never comment, I don’t know why, but today i want to. The Lord we share has a purpose that you may never know. Trust Him now more than ever. He is with you. In His love, Tracy

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    karyn
    April 25, 2009 at 5:25 pm

    Look how many people love you!! You are going to be okay, I am so sorry!

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    Tara
    April 25, 2009 at 5:29 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss Jenna. You and your family are in my prayers

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    Lindsay
    April 25, 2009 at 5:32 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss, i am praying for you and your family.

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    Meg
    April 25, 2009 at 5:34 pm

    Jenna, I never have commented before, but I am absolutely compelled to tell you how much you influence people’s life in a positive way. Through your words of God’ love in your blog, it shows how strong your faith really is as it spills into all aspects in your life (even a live eat run blog often). We appreciate what you do to display God’s love in your life. I will pray for you and your family during this tough time and I know that your faith will carry you through. All I can say is what my mom used to tell me in tough times : Just hold on, you will make it through.

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    Naji
    April 25, 2009 at 5:36 pm

    So sorry for your loss, you and your family are in my prayers.

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    Donna
    April 25, 2009 at 5:45 pm

    Jenna-
    My heart sunk for you when I read this. I don’t usually comment, but always read and am always inspired by your lovely and positive attitude. I hope that your spirit and strength get you through this extremely difficult time in your life. My prayers go out to you and your family.

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    Laura
    April 25, 2009 at 5:48 pm

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine the pain that you and your family are going through. My thoughts are with you and your family.

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    Christina
    April 25, 2009 at 5:53 pm

    Jenna – I’m so sorry. Thoughts and prayers for you and your whole family.

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    missmolly
    April 25, 2009 at 5:58 pm

    Jenna,
    I am very sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers reach out to you and your family.

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    Amanda
    April 25, 2009 at 6:00 pm

    It seems so meaningless to be typing this out. I have no idea what pain you’re experiencing right now. I am wishing you the best…stay strong. Even from reading your blog for the past several months, I realize that you are indeed very strong . I am very very very sorry for this unimaginable loss.

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    Leigh Ann
    April 25, 2009 at 6:00 pm

    Oh Jenna I’m so so sorry for your loss! I too like others that have posted something do not post much, but am definitely a faithful reader of your blog and check it daily. You are truly an inspiration to me in so many areas of life from running, eating healthy, being a kind person, pushing yourself and trying new things, and wanting to be closer to God. I don’t even know you or your family personally, but by reading your blog I feel like I do a bit, and I was brought to tears reading this post. I will definitely be praying for you and your family!

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    lainb
    April 25, 2009 at 6:04 pm

    I’m so sorry to read of your loss. Wishing you and your family peace and comfort.

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    Megan
    April 25, 2009 at 6:10 pm

    My heart dropped to my stomach when i read this. I am truly sorry for your loss. I don’t comment much but i read your posts as inspiration for my health and physical fitness. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Amber
    April 25, 2009 at 6:12 pm

    I am so shocked and saddened by this post. My thoughts and prayers are with your family. Take time for yourself but know we will all be thinking of you and praying.

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    Runnin4fun
    April 25, 2009 at 6:12 pm

    I am so sorry. I will pray for you and your family.

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    Koko
    April 25, 2009 at 6:17 pm

    I am absolutely shocked and saddened to hear this. I can’t even imagine what you must be going through right now. I hope that you can find solace with the rest of your family and friends by your side.

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    Zoe
    April 25, 2009 at 6:17 pm

    My deepest, heartfelt sympathies. I hope your family finds comfort in this difficult time.

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    Megan
    April 25, 2009 at 6:21 pm

    Jenna,
    I am a long time reader who feels like I know you, even though you have never even met me or talked with me directly. 11 years ago my brother Brian, 21 years old at the time (I was 17) died in a car accident. Though everyone’s experience is different, I think I know what you are going through. I felt numb with disbelief and an inability to even fully realize my feelings. The numbness eventually wears away, but the deep sense of loss will always be there, though it eventually gets easier to bear. I gave up on religion and praying when my brother died, but I will offer up a prayer for you to help you handle this loss.

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    april
    April 25, 2009 at 6:22 pm

    I’m sorry for your loss. I KNOW there IS a better place. I have been there and live to tell about it!

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    magicanderson
    April 25, 2009 at 6:25 pm

    Dear Jenna,
    I am so, so sorry for your loss. I wish there were something I could say to help, but please know you and your family and friends are in my and my husband’s prayers. It is impossible to make sense of things at a time like this. Your faith in God is there, and it will help.
    With sympathy,
    Lisa

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    Ozlen
    April 25, 2009 at 6:28 pm

    I am speechless. I can not imagine your pain. I dont know how this could happen. I have an 8 month old son named John. I will pray for you, your family and for John. God bless. I am sorry.

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    AutumnTao
    April 25, 2009 at 6:36 pm

    You are in my prayers. So sorry for your loss Jenna.

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    Wendy W
    April 25, 2009 at 6:43 pm

    Peace and comfort to you and your family, Jenna.

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    Erin
    April 25, 2009 at 6:58 pm

    You and your family are in my thoughts Jenna. Losing your brother is so unbelievalby unfair and I wish you comfort and peace in the days to come. Trust in your faith.

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    Paige
    April 25, 2009 at 7:00 pm

    I don’t know what to say. I read your blog everyday, and feel like you are a good friend of mine. I am thinking about you and will pray for you and your family.

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    Kari
    April 25, 2009 at 7:00 pm

    Oh Jenna I am so sorry for your loss πŸ™ My thoughts are with you and your family xxxxx

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    blueberrybabe
    April 25, 2009 at 7:02 pm

    I will pray for you.

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    Elina
    April 25, 2009 at 7:03 pm

    Jenna, my heart just sank reading this post. I’m praying for you and your family.

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    Kim
    April 25, 2009 at 7:07 pm

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. I will be praying for you and your family.

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    Adi (oatonomy.com - repaired!)
    April 25, 2009 at 7:09 pm

    I am praying for you and your family Jenna. May you draw on God for comfort, and I pray that you feel his presence like never before. Lean on him…

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    Christie
    April 25, 2009 at 7:12 pm

    Jenna,
    Such devastating news. I will definately keep you and your familiy in my prayers.

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    Heather S (Ohio)
    April 25, 2009 at 7:14 pm

    So sorry for your loss Jenna. Just remember…….. a friend lost is an angel found.

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    Ariel
    April 25, 2009 at 7:25 pm

    Jenna, I am deeply sorry for your loss; I cannot imagine the world of hurt you and your family are experiencing. This is my first time commenting although I have read your blog for a long time. As a therapist-in-training, reading this blog is part of my “self-care,” and I urge you to take care of yourself during this difficult time. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.

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    Marina
    April 25, 2009 at 7:27 pm

    Jenna,
    I read your blog almost everyday, and it truly brings joy and inspires me nearly every day, but today it really brought me to tears. I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts.
    Marina

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    valen
    April 25, 2009 at 7:29 pm

    I’m so sorry Jenna. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I wish there was something I could do or say to help.

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    Lisa
    April 25, 2009 at 7:30 pm

    Jenna-
    I am so sorry to hear about your brother. I can’t imagine the grief that you and your family are feeling right now. I will be praying that God will be with you and your family and give you strength and comfort.

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    Elizabeth
    April 25, 2009 at 7:33 pm

    Jenna,

    I’m so sorry for your loss. I always read your blog but have never commented. Please know that your family is in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Angela
    April 25, 2009 at 7:43 pm

    Jenna, you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Kris
    April 25, 2009 at 7:43 pm

    I am so terribly sorry for your profound loss Jenna.

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    Ashley Suzanne
    April 25, 2009 at 7:47 pm

    I am so sorry to hear of your loss. You have been in my thoughts and prayers today. I wish you and your family well.

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    Elise
    April 25, 2009 at 7:48 pm

    There are no words.
    My thoughts go out to you.

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    Michelle
    April 25, 2009 at 7:50 pm

    Jenna, I read your blog regularly but have never posted before. I am in total shock to hear such devastating news about your brother. You and your family will be in my prayers.

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    Caroline
    April 25, 2009 at 7:54 pm

    Jenna,

    I’ve followed your blog for over a year, but have never made a comment until now. Please accept my deepest sympathy for your loss in this very difficult time.

    Caroline

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    Kelsey
    April 25, 2009 at 7:55 pm

    Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. – Matthew 11:28

    I am so sorry for your loss Jenna and I am praying that you may find some comfort and peace in the coming days.

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    Sarah
    April 25, 2009 at 7:56 pm

    I am so sorry for you and your family’s loss. I will be praying for you.

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    Biz
    April 25, 2009 at 8:00 pm

    Jenna – I am so sorry for your loss – can’t even imagine what you are going through, but I know that your faith will get you through anything!!

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    Jessica
    April 25, 2009 at 8:04 pm

    Jenna, I am so sorry… You and your entire family will be in my thoughts.

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    Bridget
    April 25, 2009 at 8:05 pm

    Jenna I couldn’t even believe what I was reading…I am SO incredibly sorry for your loss. I am glad you were able to be there with your brother when he passed…I was able to do that with my dad and I am so greatful I was there. Take comfort in your family and friends around you and they will help you get through this tough time πŸ™ You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
    ~Bridget

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    Lauren
    April 25, 2009 at 8:09 pm

    I’m so sorry. I don’t usually pray, but tonight all I want to do is pray for you and your family.

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    Miri
    April 25, 2009 at 8:18 pm

    Your brother and your family will be in my prayers. This is the first time I’ve ever commented on a blog and my heart goes out to you.

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    amanda
    April 25, 2009 at 8:20 pm

    Jenna, I am deeply sorry for your loss, you and your family will be in my prayers and thoughts.

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    Kelly
    April 25, 2009 at 8:26 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss.My prayers are with you. Please find peace and know that even if peopledon’t know you personally they can only imagine what it’s like to lose a loved one. Love is with you.

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    Amy
    April 25, 2009 at 8:28 pm

    Jenna, I’m so sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you and your family.

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    Jenna
    April 25, 2009 at 8:36 pm

    Jenna,
    Words cannot express how sorry I am for your loss. I have read your blog religiously every day and I cannot imagine what you must be going through. Thank you for giving so much of yourself to all of us. Please take care of yourself and please know you have the thoughts and prayers of so many with you and your family at this most difficult time. God bless.

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    Still Life in South America
    April 25, 2009 at 8:40 pm

    Jenna,

    I am deeply, deeply sorry to hear about your loss. I pray that your family will summon strength, courage, and happy memories through this difficult time.

    My sincere condolences,
    A @ Stll Life.

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    KB
    April 25, 2009 at 8:42 pm

    Oh my goodness, Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. I will pray to God for you, your brother, and your family.

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    Jenn (eating bender)
    April 25, 2009 at 8:44 pm

    Jenna,

    I am so sorry for your loss. I am thinking of you and your family and keeping all of you in my prayers.

    Much love,
    Jenn

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    ADA
    April 25, 2009 at 8:49 pm

    I am SO sorry! You are in my prayers!

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    Bernadette
    April 25, 2009 at 8:50 pm

    Jenna, I am so sorry for you loss. You and your family are in my thoughts & prayers.

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    Ann
    April 25, 2009 at 8:50 pm

    I am so sorry Jenna. May you have peace.

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    Kath
    April 25, 2009 at 8:54 pm

    praying for you and your family girl.
    keep the faith, God doesn’t make mistakes…and there IS a purpose behind it all!

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    Katherine
    April 25, 2009 at 8:55 pm

    Dear Jenna,

    I love your blog and think you are amazingly talented, inspiring, and a wonderful writer. I am so sad to hear about your loss and am praying for you and your family. Please take care.

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    OrangePop
    April 25, 2009 at 8:56 pm

    Jenna- I am terribly heart-sick to hear this. My deep condolences! I’m glad you have such a great outlook on where he is, & such a great support system. I’m sorry. We don’t expect you around here for a while, so take care & cherish life!

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    Jamie
    April 25, 2009 at 9:00 pm

    Jenna,

    I have only posted once or twice but I read your blog daily. I am so sorry to hear about your brother. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

    Jamie

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    Kelley
    April 25, 2009 at 9:06 pm

    Oh Jenna – Another de-lurker attempting to express the unexpressable. Your posts are always such a bright spot in my day. I didn’t realize how much until reading your post today made me cry. I admire your positivity, your faith and your strength. May all three guide you through this time. I’m truly sorry your family is going through this.

    I’ve said a few prayers today for you. May God bless your family.
    Hugs from Gainesville

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    Helena
    April 25, 2009 at 9:22 pm

    Life can be so unfair. I’m so sorry for your loss.

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    Megan
    April 25, 2009 at 9:25 pm

    Jenna-

    I am so sorry for your loss. Reading this post almost made me cry thinking about what you must be going through. Just know that you have the support of hundreds of us out here and we’re here for you if you need anything. I’ll be praying for you and your family. We love you!

    Megan

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    Bethina
    April 25, 2009 at 9:27 pm

    Jenna, I am so, so sorry to hear of your loss. My thoughts are with you. xoxox

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    melissa
    April 25, 2009 at 9:32 pm

    Just letting you know I’m person #714 thinking of you…

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    Jennifer V.
    April 25, 2009 at 9:40 pm

    Jenna I am so sorry. I read your blog everyday and never comment, but I was so shaken this morning and thought about you and your family all day that I had to come back and comment. You will be in my prayers.

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    Katie
    April 25, 2009 at 9:49 pm

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your loss. I’ll be keeping your family in my prayers. Remember “Footprints” — God will be carrying you and your family in his arms. God bless you all.

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    Kristie Lynn
    April 25, 2009 at 9:49 pm

    Jen, stay strong. You and your family are in my prayers. Que Dios te bendiga.

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    Monica
    April 25, 2009 at 10:00 pm

    Jenna,
    I have also been a faithful reader of your blog but have never posted before. I am deeply saddened to hear of your loss. I want you to know that you and your family is in my thoughts and I hope that you find peace. I feel like I know you and I want you to know that you have truly inspired me. Stay strong and know that your brother is in a better place.

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    Taylor
    April 25, 2009 at 10:04 pm

    God is with you during this time, and you and your family are in my prayers. I never post, but I wanted to let you know this. You can and will get through this.

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    andrea
    April 25, 2009 at 10:07 pm

    Oh Jenna, there are no words. I literally couldnt breathe after reading your post, I can only fathom how you must feel. I am just so sorry. Praying for you and your family, keep the faith.

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    thelongweigh
    April 25, 2009 at 10:21 pm

    I am so sorry for your terrible loss. I cannot imaine what you are going through. I am so glad you have your strong faith to rely on at this impossibly hard time. Know that we are here and thinking of you.

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    Caroline
    April 25, 2009 at 10:26 pm

    Jenna, this news saddens me so much, but you are so right–all you can do is pray that he is in a better place. My thoughts will be with you and your family.

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    Heather
    April 25, 2009 at 10:30 pm

    Jenna, I am so terribly sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Karen
    April 25, 2009 at 10:30 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss. I am thinking about and praying for you and your family.

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    Brooke
    April 25, 2009 at 10:59 pm

    Jenna,
    My heart breaks for you and your family. You are in my thoughts and prayers. My deepest condolences.

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    Stef
    April 25, 2009 at 11:28 pm

    This is the first time I’ve visited your blog, and I wish it was under different circumstances…I saw on yasmine’s blog “It’s a Wrap” that you were dealing with a horrible tragedy. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss, I can’t imagine what you and your family are going through right now…

    Only the best die young, I know it’s no comfort, but I truly believe he is in a better place and also that he KNEW how much you love and care about him. It will get easier and it will get harder and then easier again, but I pray you will have the support of your friends and family to get you through these impossible times.

    I know we don’t know each other at all, but I am thinking of you and will keep your family in my prayers. I know John will rest in peace.

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    martha ann
    April 25, 2009 at 11:33 pm

    jenna, i am deeply sorry. i am on my knees in prayer for you.

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    Dulcie
    April 25, 2009 at 11:36 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my prayers. God is with you<3

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    Rachel A
    April 25, 2009 at 11:39 pm

    My heart goes out to you. I’m praying for you and your family.

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    serendipitiy
    April 25, 2009 at 11:41 pm

    I wish I had the right words. Just know that you and your family will be in my thought and prayers. God bless.

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    Tracey
    April 25, 2009 at 11:43 pm

    So deeply sorry for the loss of your brother. My heart goes out to you all. You will all remain in my prayers.

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    runeatrepeat
    April 25, 2009 at 11:44 pm

    I am so deeply sorry for your loss. God be with you and your family. You are in my prayers.

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    Juli
    April 26, 2009 at 12:11 am

    So much love and many prayers heading to you and your family. Take care of yourself as best you can during all the busy-stuff that will be in the next few weeks. XOXO

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    Laura Brandon
    April 26, 2009 at 12:24 am

    Oh Jenna I am so, so sorry. I can’t even imagine how you must be feeling. All I can say is that yes, John is with our Father now, and while we don’t understand it somethings, His timing is always right. You and your family will be in my prayers.

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    Kelly
    April 26, 2009 at 12:26 am

    Jenna,
    I have never met you before, but feel like I have come to know you through reading your amazing blog over the past 6 months. I am so deeply sorry for your loss. I can’t even imagine the pain and sadness you must be feeling right now. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers during this unspeakably difficult time.

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    Kim
    April 26, 2009 at 12:45 am

    Wow, Jenna I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot begin to imagine your pain. Please know that you and your family are in the thoughts and prayers of hundreds of people around the world. God bless.

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    Katie
    April 26, 2009 at 12:53 am

    Jenna,
    I’ve never commented, but all I can say is that clearly everyone feels so deeply for the sudden loss of your brother. Losing a close family member changes you and your outlook on the world forever; please be comforted by the support of those in the blog world who you support every day.
    Prayers to you and your family.
    Katie

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    Ilene
    April 26, 2009 at 1:00 am

    Jenna, I am so incredibly sorry for your brother and your family. I am keeping you all in my thoughts. God bless you.

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    Meghan
    April 26, 2009 at 1:02 am

    My heart aches and also goes out to you and all of John’s loved ones. This won’t be easy but you are so strong.

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    Bridget
    April 26, 2009 at 2:29 am

    Jenna,

    I’ve stopped by your blog a couple of times, but had yet to comment.

    You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers, as well. Look to the positive side as much as you can, and know that being with him was the best that you could have done.

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    Alicia
    April 26, 2009 at 2:41 am

    Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear of your loss πŸ™

    I will keep your family in my prayers and sure that your brother is in a better place now. Goodness, death is always hard to handle and I feel for your family. Remain strong and trust in the LORD.

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    Elizabeth
    April 26, 2009 at 3:07 am

    I actually cried when I read your story. I am so, so sorry about your tragedy. My thoughts are for you and your mother. Be strong…

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    tami
    April 26, 2009 at 3:26 am

    i lost my brother 15 years ago, i will be thinking of you and i hope that the memories you had with him and with all your family can help you through these very difficult days, weeks and months ahead. much love to you and your family

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    Kelly
    April 26, 2009 at 3:33 am

    I’ve lost someone i love more than anyting – my mom – and it was very fast too… and i know how you feel.
    I just wanted to say that nothing will ever stop your heart from aching over this, but please just dont be angry. we all have our time to live and our time to go (home, as i call) and you got a wonderful gift: you could be there and see him for the last time, and say goodbye. a lot of people didnt have this privilege.

    i hope God can smooth your pain and turn it into someting beautiful. Remember him with all the love you have and love him longer than you were giving the opportunity… love him everyday like you wish…

    Im thoughts are prayers are with you and your family
    =*****

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    Amelia
    April 26, 2009 at 3:57 am

    Jenna, I cannot imagine what you are going through right now. I am keeping you and your family in my thoughts. Please know that we are all here for you.

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    Danielle
    April 26, 2009 at 4:01 am

    God bless you and your loved ones today and always…

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    Lexi
    April 26, 2009 at 4:36 am

    I’m so sorry to hear about your brother. You and your family will be in my prayers.
    Love,
    Lexi

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    MizFit
    April 26, 2009 at 4:59 am

    Im praying for you and your family.
    Im so sorry.

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    amethyst
    April 26, 2009 at 5:06 am

    Jenna, I am so sad and shocked for you. It was only a couple of weeks ago you told us about celebrating his birthday. I’m sure he took great comfort from having you with him, holding his hand and talking to him. I know how strong you are, so wish you continued strength to get over this. Your family are lucky to have you. Love and support to you all. Take care.

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    Z
    April 26, 2009 at 5:11 am

    I am so sorry about your loss. Deepest sympathies.

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    Sarah
    April 26, 2009 at 5:13 am

    Jenna, I’ve never posted before, but follow your blog daily…as obviously do many others. Please allow me to add my heartfelt condolences to those already expressed. May you and your family gather strength and comfort from the community of thoughts and prayers that surround you.

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    kate
    April 26, 2009 at 5:15 am

    jenna, i am so so sorry for your loss.

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    chandra h
    April 26, 2009 at 5:25 am

    I am sending you and your family all of the love and care I can right now. my heart truly goes out to you. god bless you.

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    Lia
    April 26, 2009 at 5:33 am

    I don’t comment much, but have been reading for months. I am so sorry this has happened. My heart goes out to you and your family at this time.

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    MelanieF
    April 26, 2009 at 6:07 am

    I’ve been reading your blog for quite some time now, but I never commented. I’m so sorry for your loss, Jenna. My heart goes out to you and your family.

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    lauren
    April 26, 2009 at 6:12 am

    Jenna,

    You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. We are here for you if you need us.

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    Brooke
    April 26, 2009 at 6:25 am

    Dear Jenna,
    I am so sorry for your loss. I am sending lots of love and support your way. My heart goes out to you and your family at this time of tragedy. Lots of love!!!

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    Red Head, Yellow Dog
    April 26, 2009 at 6:27 am

    You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers, Jenna. I’m just so sorry this is happening.

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    Rebekah
    April 26, 2009 at 6:35 am

    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family Jenna.

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    Katie
    April 26, 2009 at 6:35 am

    Jenna I’m so sorry to hear about your brother, my thoughts are with you and your family

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    Marilyn
    April 26, 2009 at 6:43 am

    I’m so very sorry. You and your family are in my prayers.

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    Ann
    April 26, 2009 at 6:44 am

    I’ll keep your family in my prayers, I’m in tears reading this since I feel I know you from following your blog for so long. Take care of yourself and your family at this time and know that you have so much support from around the world. *hugs*

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    Karen
    April 26, 2009 at 6:46 am

    Jenna, I am so very sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my prayers.

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    shanon
    April 26, 2009 at 6:59 am

    Your family will be in my family’s thoughts and prayers. Keep the faith.

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    Karla
    April 26, 2009 at 7:04 am

    May you and your family feel God’s love and comfort during this time. Cry out to the Lord and know that He hears you, He loves you, and He will never forsake you. God bless you and your family!

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    Hope
    April 26, 2009 at 7:05 am

    Jenna – My thoughts and prayers are with you. Sending much love and compassion to you and your family.

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    anon
    April 26, 2009 at 7:06 am

    I’m so sorry for your loss, be strong.

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    jen
    April 26, 2009 at 7:16 am

    i’m so sorry. this is unimaginable pain, but i’m sitting here crying for you and your family and your brother.

    i ran my first 5k last week, and a 19-year-old boy crossed the finish line…and passed away from heart failure. a total shock to his family and friends. we never know when we’ll take our last breath, even when things seem wonderful.

    little goals for a long time — just breath, don’t think too much, and scream when you need to. you have many people people thinking of you.

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    jen
    April 26, 2009 at 7:17 am

    Footprints in the Sand

    One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
    Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
    In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
    Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
    other times there were one set of footprints.

    This bothered me because I noticed
    that during the low periods of my life,
    when I was suffering from
    anguish, sorrow or defeat,
    I could see only one set of footprints.

    So I said to the Lord,
    “You promised me Lord,
    that if I followed you,
    you would walk with me always.
    But I have noticed that during
    the most trying periods of my life
    there have only been one
    set of footprints in the sand.
    Why, when I needed you most,
    you have not been there for me?”

    The Lord replied,
    “The times when you have
    seen only one set of footprints in the sand,
    is when I carried you.”
    Mary Stevenson

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    Krista
    April 26, 2009 at 7:18 am

    Let John be the sun on your lips and the wind at your back…
    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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    jennk
    April 26, 2009 at 7:29 am

    I’ve come here several times now, trying to think of something to write, but the love and memories of another person cannot be contained in mere words. I am sending hopes and thoughts your way.

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    Angie All The Way
    April 26, 2009 at 7:42 am

    Oh Jenna, I am absolutely from the bottom of my heart so sad to hear this has happened and I am thinking of you and your family. You are the perfect example of a person who lives their life to the fullest. I am so sooo sorry that this has happened to your family. Having faith in God’s plan is the only way to fine peace in something that seems to make no sense to us at this time. You and your family are in my thoughts.

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    Ashley
    April 26, 2009 at 7:56 am

    My heart goes out to you. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

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    jeri
    April 26, 2009 at 8:09 am

    i am so sorry for your, and your family’s, loss. please stay strong. i am keeping all of you in my mind

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    Christine
    April 26, 2009 at 8:09 am

    Jenna, you are an amazing woman and an inspiration to all of us who read your blog. Don’t ever forget that. You and your family will be in my prayers every day. God loves you.

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    Meghann
    April 26, 2009 at 8:15 am

    Jenna,

    My prayers are with you, your family, and John. God is with you and you are stronger than you know.

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    Laura
    April 26, 2009 at 8:20 am

    Jenna,

    I’m so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you & your family during this difficult time.

    <3 Laura

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    Casey
    April 26, 2009 at 8:49 am

    Hi Jenna, I’ve been reading your blog for about a year and have never commented. But, I wanted to tell you that you and your family are in my thoughts. I am so sorry for your loss.

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    Martha W
    April 26, 2009 at 8:53 am

    I’m so sorry to hear of your loss. I pray you all will find comfort in each other at this sad time. My prayers are with you all.

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    thedaintypig
    April 26, 2009 at 9:07 am

    I am so sorry for your loss, Jenna. I am a long-time reader of your blog, and want you to know that I am sending you and your family all my love.

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    Alice
    April 26, 2009 at 9:12 am

    …reading your last posts brought tears to my eyes…I feel words aren’t enough to tell you how sorry I am for your loss…
    May you have lots of strength, you and your family are in my thoughts.

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    Jackie
    April 26, 2009 at 9:21 am

    Jenna –
    I am so sorry to hear about your brother. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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    Kate
    April 26, 2009 at 10:07 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry for your family’s loss and am praying for you at this difficult time.

    Kate

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    Katie
    April 26, 2009 at 11:50 am

    omg jenna i am SO sorry. your post made me start crying, you are such a wonderful person and things just HAPPEN. i’ve been in a similar situation and i had to keep telling myself over and over again that things. just. happen. for no reason at all. i am praying for you.

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    Lauren
    April 26, 2009 at 1:07 pm

    Oh Jenna, my heart breaks for you and your family. I recently lost my father over a year ago and there’s never the right thing to say. But I am truly sorry. My heart aches for all of you. I’m praying God’s sweet peace floods your family and you find comfort with each other.

    with love,
    Lauren

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    emily
    April 26, 2009 at 1:13 pm

    I am so very sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my prayers.

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    Diana
    April 26, 2009 at 1:15 pm

    I’m very sorry for your loss and will definitely keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs, Diana

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    Kristin
    April 26, 2009 at 1:48 pm

    Oh, Jenna I am so sorry for your loss. No one deserves to be ripped away from this world at such a young age. I’ll pray for the strength of you and your family during these hard times, and I am sure he is in a better place. Lots of love to you and your family!

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    marie
    April 26, 2009 at 2:12 pm

    I am so, so sorry. I really don’t know what else to say except that you & your familyare in my prayers.

    ((hugs))

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    Melinda
    April 26, 2009 at 2:48 pm

    Jenna Im am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my prays ((((((((HUGS)))))))) and more ((((((HUGS)))))))) to you and your family. I really dont know what else to say

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    Ashley
    April 26, 2009 at 3:57 pm

    jenna i am so sorry for your loss. im praying and thinking of you and your family. lots of love and know that we are all here to support you

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    amy
    April 26, 2009 at 4:01 pm

    I am sorry for your loss and you and your family are in my prayers.
    God Bless

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    Amandaaa.
    April 26, 2009 at 5:13 pm

    A lot of times, when stuff like this happens, people lose their
    faith and go against God. I admire your strength and trust in God instead.
    Your brother is definitely out of pain now. Sitting on a big cloud looking over you and your family.
    I know I don’t know you, and you don’t know me, but when reading this my heart simply melted for you. I love reading about all of your fun outings with friends and the boyfriend and your family. It’s weird the emotions people feel for someone they’ve never met.
    Hold on to all of the amazing memories-you will always have them in your heart.
    All my love and wishes are being sent down to sunny Florida in hopes they reach you and your family.

    xoxoxo

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    Mysti
    April 26, 2009 at 5:18 pm

    Jenna –

    My thoughts and prayers go out to your entire family. I understand the pain, shock and anger associated with this loss. Please hang tight and while it is probably difficult to stand in your faith, hold it tight and persevere forward.

    I recently found http://www.cindycampo.com/ and began listening to her music. The stories held within the songs left tears streaming down my face and some much needed healing in my heart. If you have the time, look through and listen. There might be a song or two that sends a prolific message to your soul too.

    Blessings in Light.
    Mysti

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    Maggi
    April 26, 2009 at 5:26 pm

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    I don’t know what to say other than I am so very sorry. Please take care of yourself.

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    Gwen
    April 26, 2009 at 5:32 pm

    Jenna,
    I am so very sorry for your loss. I have never commented but I have enjoyed your daily posts and wonderful positive attitude for a long time now. Please know that our thoughts are with you during this difficult time.

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    Shari
    April 26, 2009 at 6:04 pm

    Jenna,

    I am so sorry. You and your family are in my prayers.

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    LK- Healthy Delcious
    April 26, 2009 at 9:18 pm

    I’m so so sorry to hear this. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    Molly
    April 26, 2009 at 9:39 pm

    Jenna-

    I am so, so sorry. Your last few posts have moved me to tears and definitely left a lasting impact. I cherished my family this weekend. Don’t feel like you need to return to food blogging– unless of course it is therapeutic for you. You should consider exploring your feelings through writings on this journal. Even if they stray from the topic of food/healthy living, I think many would benefit from your writing and your obvious strength. The fact that you are together-enough to even write these posts astounds me!

    Your family is in my thoughts & prayers.

    Molly

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    Sara
    April 26, 2009 at 11:59 pm

    praying for u**

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    Louise Emma
    April 27, 2009 at 3:07 am

    Hi Jenna,

    So sorry to hear of the tragic loss your family has suffered – I am praying for you and everyone who will miss your brother’s presence in their lives. I have been following your blog for several months now, and greatly admire your dedication and enthusiasm – I’m sure you will homour your brother’s memory through everything you go on to accomplish,

    Louise x

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    Spiceaholic
    April 27, 2009 at 7:23 am

    Jenna, I am so so sorry for your loss. I’m keeping you and your family in my thoughts through this sad time.

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    Thealogian
    April 27, 2009 at 8:36 am

    Jenna,

    I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts. Eat well, sleep well, and allow yourself to grieve (don’t try to bottle things up or keep too busy to avoid the reality…its very tempting). Remember, God can take your anger and recriminations. It is okay to feel mad and say its unfair because it is unfair.

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    Kelly
    April 27, 2009 at 8:55 am

    Jenna,
    I am so sorry to hear about your brother…what a terrible loss. My prayers are with you.

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    katecooks
    April 27, 2009 at 9:39 am

    i am so sorry to hear about your terrible loss. please remember how strong you are. we are all thinking of you

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    Suzanne
    April 27, 2009 at 10:23 am

    I am so sorry Jenna. As a mother, I can’t imagine losing my child. As a elder sister, I understand the protective nature of our love for our younger sibs. Your brother will live forever in your family’s hearts and minds. Thank-you for sharing this tragedy with all of us so that we may offer you some small comfort.

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    Sarah
    April 27, 2009 at 10:28 am

    Oh, Jenna. I am so, so sorry for your loss. I’m thinking about you and your family.
    Sarah

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    Joanna
    April 27, 2009 at 10:56 am

    Jenna, I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I lost my dad a little over a year ago and I know how horrific and shocking it is, no matter how the person passes. I will be thinking of you and your family for many weeks to come. I know this doesn’t mean much now, but allow yourself the space to grieve. You will be glad you did.

    Joanna

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    Lindsay Y.
    April 27, 2009 at 1:37 pm

    I was shocked and moved to tears when I read about your brother, and you and your family have been on my mind ever since. I’m another reader who keeps quiet, but from following your blog every day I really feel like I know you, and I had to tell you how sorry I am to hear this news. Take care, Jenna.

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    Janice
    April 27, 2009 at 4:40 pm

    I am so sorry to hear of your news. I lost my younger sister a couple of years ago and know the pain of losing a sibling. πŸ™ My prayers are with you and your family.

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    Jess
    April 27, 2009 at 5:01 pm

    I’m SO sorry to hear about your loss. I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason and while it may take us a while to figure out why, in the end we’re stronger.

    Your family is in my thoughts & prayers.

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    Rose
    April 27, 2009 at 5:43 pm

    I just heard the news… I am so sorry to hear this, Jenna. I am saying prayers for you – and putting you and your family on the prayer chain at church.

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    Susan Eitelman
    April 27, 2009 at 6:51 pm

    You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. Take care of each other.

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    lauren
    April 28, 2009 at 8:33 am

    I am so sorry to hear about your brother. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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    michelle
    April 28, 2009 at 3:08 pm

    Jenna love, i am so very sorry for your loss!!

    Be strong my friend!
    I love you!

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    Katy
    April 29, 2009 at 9:22 pm

    I am so sorry.

    I am praying for you and your family.

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    Kristen
    June 25, 2012 at 12:13 pm

    I was being nosey after your comment on my blog post about your brother.
    Oh wow…. my brother passed away but at least we had 2 months of anticipating it. I can’t imagine what you went through when this happened and what you are steal dealing with this many years later.

    I admire your faith even more now. Hugs to you! Wish we weren’t in this club together.

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