Behind The Butter

A Little Vino Can’t Hurt

Wine heals all?

Okay, so wine clearly does not heal all but it sure is fun to have a glass (or two!) and talk to your girlfriends.
Again, thank you all so much for your encouraging comments. Totally turned my day 100% around, no lie. However, running still wasn’t in the cards. I ran a mile and then walked…just wasn’t feelin’ it today and didn’t feel like pushing myself. Instead, I had a snack 🙂

And then some wine!

I actually didn’t end up getting home until 8:00 and (the big perk of living with your parents) my mom had a homemade chicken and cheese enchilada with guacamole waiting for me. Per usual, I ate four pounds of watermelon with my meal

I inhaled it 🙂
Too stuffed for dessert…again! Who am I?!
My bed is calling my name…I didn’t sleep much last night and am exhausted! See you in the morning!

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  • Abbey
    August 6, 2009 at 9:17 pm

    that must have been a pleasant surprise to come home to a homemade enchilada! stay strong girl, we all have faith in you!!! 🙂 and a little wine of course doesn’t hurt, either 😉

  • Natalie (Will Jog for Food)
    August 6, 2009 at 9:25 pm

    Enchiladas are the best! We all have bad days sometimes (I know I do)! If I’m having a really down day, before I go to bed I tell myself that I will wake up SO happy and refreshed, and it usually works 🙂

  • Deva
    August 6, 2009 at 9:25 pm

    Wine definitely doesn’t hurt, and your dinner looks very yummy. You are strong and awesome – remember this, because it’s true.

  • kay (eating machine)
    August 6, 2009 at 9:25 pm

    food is one of the best things about mommies!
    you’ll get through it all, but i know it probably isn’t so great right now… but you’ve got friends, virtual support, and your mom and dad. that, time, and a few more glases of wine can do wonders!

  • kelly
    August 6, 2009 at 9:26 pm

    So glad to hear you are doing better. You’ve been on my mind most of the day. Get a good night’s rest!

  • Laura
    August 6, 2009 at 9:29 pm

    just read your last few posts. truly sorry to read about your separation from your love BUT as weird as this sounds…embrace all that you are feeling right now. Feel glad for what you have been able to experience in your relationship with Ryan and what you will carry onward with you in your life. Most importantly, He is right beside you. Somehow, I feel that you understand this. It is all in His timing and quite often for reasons we never grasp. You can either feel defeated or, usually with difficulty, give it all to Him and live by your faith alone. This is so, so difficult. God has blessed you with MANY talents and you have been able to share these with so many of us whom you will never meet. We are grateful. You have goodness. And kindness. And love for the soul. Thank you for putting yourself ‘out there’ for us on the ‘net. We care.

  • cj
    August 6, 2009 at 9:34 pm

    So sorry you are going through this. Stay strong, and when in doubt…wine cures all!

  • Serena
    August 6, 2009 at 9:38 pm

    That dinner looks so delicious. There’s nothing like comfort food when you’re feeling the blues. Hang in there – it will get better!

  • Pam
    August 6, 2009 at 9:38 pm

    Wine heals but time definitely heals too. I know NO ONE wants to hear that but it’s true. You’ll eventually move on and grow from these events. I really believe you learn something from every good or bad occurrence in your life. Have faith and remember that it’s all part of the bigger picture that maybe you can’t see right now but it’s there.

    Stay strong!

  • Shannon
    August 6, 2009 at 9:44 pm

    awww you look so cute there. 🙂 i hope you get a good night’s sleep. 🙂

  • Chocolate Covered Ka
    August 6, 2009 at 9:44 pm

    Jenna, you are so cute!

  • Still Life in South America
    August 6, 2009 at 9:47 pm

    Wow, those are some puppy dog eyes!

    Sending a big (((HUG))). Good night, sleep tight.

  • Marissa
    August 6, 2009 at 9:49 pm

    Wine def. helps!! 🙂

  • Foodie (Fab and Delicious Food)
    August 6, 2009 at 9:49 pm

    Glad you’re doing a little bit better! Hang in there – we’re all here for you!

  • Elly
    August 6, 2009 at 9:49 pm

    Hi! I’m Elly, I’ve been reading your blog for a couple of weeks now. Just want to say that I so enjoy reading your posts and you just seem like such a fun, amazing girl. Hang in there; all things must pass, and this will too! Stay strong! Keep doing yoga and the things that make you happy, and spend plenty of time with the people you love. =)

  • Daria (Summer of the CSAs)
    August 6, 2009 at 9:52 pm

    Nothing like wine and good food to help perk one up!

  • Rebecca
    August 6, 2009 at 9:55 pm

    Wine definitely helps! I’m glad you have your parents around for support (and food!) Try some lavender tea to get a better nights sleep tonight. Hang in there.

  • Leianna
    August 6, 2009 at 9:59 pm

    Such a sad picture with the wine! But time with girfriends is amazing, all that stress and unhappiness will be gone:)

  • apples are awesome
    August 6, 2009 at 10:00 pm

    Just remember that you can be thankful that you live near your parents, and that your mom is a wonderful cook who can leave you yummy leftovers during such a difficult time 🙂 Not everyone has that luxury, believe me!

    You are doing great. Chin up.

  • TorontoGirloutWest
    August 6, 2009 at 10:01 pm

    I just caught up with your most recent posts and I wanted to say how sorry I am that things didn’t work out. By the same toke, however, I’m proud of you for having the guts to do what is right for you! 🙂

    And remember – God puts people in our lives for a season. Some stay a short while and some stay forever. But we learn something from each of them. God knows they’re the people we need in a particular season of our life.

    Nothing can take away all the wonderful times the two of you shared. Dwell on the happy memories. Give yourself some time to mourn. And then shake yourself off and be the amazing person God meant you to be!!!! 😉

  • Glittearti
    August 6, 2009 at 10:05 pm

    Oh Jenna! I’m so happy you have your fabulous girlfriends (both IRL and in blogland!) and your wonderful family to help you through this tough time. (Not to mention the wine! 😀 ) No words can really take the hurt away, but know that you have all of our support and love as readers. Trust your faith and instincts when it comes to your needs. You’re surrounded by goodness, you are goodness, and you WILL come out of this stronger!

  • Maria
    August 6, 2009 at 10:05 pm

    Wow chicken enchiladas??? I don’t think I even I could eat dessert if I had that delicious meal with sweet watermelon on the side 😉

    I hope you get lots of rest and it’s good to hear that you are feeling better!

  • Meghan
    August 6, 2009 at 10:09 pm

    I was re-reading this morning’s post and I noticed you mentioned something about making an even bigger move on your own. Perhaps moving out of state? California? Even if you weren’t I think a time like this would be a great time to do something you wouldn’t have otherwise because of (boy)friends and family. Take the recent events as an opportunity to treat yourself to something more than wine, food or material objects. Even if you aren’t moving, things like girl chats, reading on a blanket in the park, floating in the ocean or really just doing whatever your heart desires is the most wonderful thing about being able to do whatever you want!

  • Michelle
    August 6, 2009 at 10:10 pm

    Hmmm, looks like you are in a shopping mall enjoying that wine??? Perhaps a little therapy courtesy of anthropologie?! 🙂

    Your Mom’s enchiladas look TDF!

    Sleep well!

  • Joelle (The Pancake Girl))
    August 6, 2009 at 10:14 pm

    Wine does wonders sugar!

  • Michelle
    August 6, 2009 at 10:15 pm

    I’m so sorry, just read your last post (((hugs))) I know it’s hard, but like previous posters said, time will heal. Take time for yourself. And, of course, indulge in wine nights with girlfriends now and then 😉

  • Nicole
    August 6, 2009 at 10:19 pm

    Jenna, you are an amazing and strong person. You have the strength to make it through anything. I know things may seem real bleak right now but I promise you, things will get better. Plus, you have the love and support of your family and friends – the people who matter most and the people who love you the most. I wish you all the best in the world – because you deserve it! Plus, the Healthy Living Summit is only a week away and I can’t wait! Take care of you.

  • Courtney (The Hungry Yogini)
    August 6, 2009 at 10:20 pm

    Glad you had such a nice night. Wine always makes it better =)

    And holy cow – that dinner! Mmmm…my kind of meal!!

    Hope you get lots of rest tonight, my friend!

  • Meredith
    August 6, 2009 at 10:24 pm

    Jenna, so sorry to hear about the end of your relationship. This is no doubt a tough time, but the lows are what make the highs in life so amazing.

    AND, look at you! you are young, beautiful, smart, and have so much living to do, whether on your own or part of a couple. you are a talented writer, an amazing chef, a fabulous friend, and a GOOD person (the type that runs marathons and raises thousands of dollars for charity!). never forget that!

    and keep enjoying the wine, if it doesn’t heal, it definitely speeds healing along…trust me, i’m a doctor, hehe 😉

  • kylie grethen
    August 6, 2009 at 10:24 pm


    just read your posts…and you are one strong cookie! keep on doing what you are doing, being strong, pushing forward with YOUR best life at the forefront of your mind and you cannot fail…and we are all totally here for you, rooting you on 1000000%!!

  • Rika
    August 6, 2009 at 10:25 pm

    dont worry jenna! you’ll definately find someone as beautiful as you are for sure 🙂

  • justrun
    August 6, 2009 at 10:28 pm

    You should be so proud of yourself for knowing what’s right FOR YOU. Knowing yourself and going with those feelings at this point in life will only make the rest of your life that much richer. The best truly is yet to be. Take care, Jenna.

  • Emily
    August 6, 2009 at 10:40 pm

    I so miss my mom’s dinners. I’m a bit jealous! 🙂

  • Michelle
    August 6, 2009 at 10:43 pm

    The dinner looks amazing. Breaking up is so exhausting, but it’s awesome to see that you’re surrounding yourself with amazing friends. Friends are the cure for everything…and I am glad that you’re having some girl time. Enjoy this time and please by all means enjoy the watermelon. We had some watermelon in the grocery store here the other day and I was so excited to finally have something other than apples and oranges to eat 🙂

    Be gentle with yourself.

  • Alison
    August 6, 2009 at 10:45 pm

    My mom has always taught me that there are lifelong relationships and then those people that God puts in your life for “seasons” to help/challenge/change you. That is one of the things I’ve reminded myself every time I’ve felt the pain of losing someone close to me. Also, I’m experienced enough now to know that after the sadness and healing comes an amazing time of excitement and anticipation – what’s next?!?! There’s no limit 🙂

  • Andee (Runtolive)
    August 6, 2009 at 10:48 pm

    I love my mom’s home cooking, you definitely miss it when you move out. Those enchiladas look amazing! Although wine doesn’t cure all, it sure helps a little right? 🙂 Each day will keep getting better

  • Heather
    August 6, 2009 at 10:52 pm

    Hi Jenna,
    I know that we’re just bloggie friends but if you ever need to vent, NEVER hesitate to shoot me an e-mail. You are certainly blessed with so many support systems and a lovely head between your shoulders. You are an angel! Having said that, your break-up actually inspired me (I know, right?!). It got me thinking a lot about my own relationship with my boyfriend and how things have been so rocky and what I want out of life…I’m so confused! But I’m glad I’m confused because this needs to happen. I need to reflect on things. I don’t know where I’m going with this, I’m sorry! Rambling tends to be my thing in situations like these. In short, THANK YOU. Hope to hear from you soon.

  • Molly
    August 6, 2009 at 10:59 pm

    you look so sad…: ( hope it gets better sooner than later, you have no idea how your blog has helped me, in the short time that I have read it.

  • Tay
    August 6, 2009 at 11:03 pm

    How do you like those bars? They offered to send me some products and I’m trying to pick what I want! I can’t decide if I want to try the bars, or stick with a couple cereal & granolas. Are the bars worth it?

  • Louise
    August 6, 2009 at 11:05 pm

    Oh yum, that dinner looks so amazing – cheesy home-made goodness! Makes me miss living at home 🙁 I know you are undoubtedly on an emotional roller coaster right now, but I really hope you start feeling better soon. xxxx

  • Annie
    August 6, 2009 at 11:11 pm

    Jenna, there’s nothing better for healing your soul then getting together with your girlfriends and drinking wine 😉 One day at a time sista and you’ll start to feel better. Hope you sleep better tonight!

  • Kim
    August 6, 2009 at 11:13 pm

    Does wine help? Oh, lord, yes 😉 I find that after a breakup, it is best combined with a little tiramisu and a Sex and the City marathon.

    You look gorgeous even when you’re sad… also gorgeous is that enchilada. OMG. Please let your mom know I am available for dinner anytime.

  • Greta
    August 6, 2009 at 11:21 pm

    A quote I love,

    “If you close the door the night could last forever, leave the wineglass out and drink a toast to never.”

    I don’t know who it’s by, only that everytime I read or say it, I get tingles.

  • Shannon, The Healthy Beach Bum
    August 6, 2009 at 11:30 pm

    Hey girly,
    Guys sure are a pain in the booty aren’t they?? lol My bf of 2 years and I broke up about a week ago.. breakups are no fun!!

    Things somehow work out themselves out in the least that’s what my mom tells me. Stay strong!! We are all here for you!! <3

  • Sheri
    August 6, 2009 at 11:36 pm

    Awww…Jenna hang in there girl! It will get better! A glass a wine is always good for the soul.
    Your dinner looked so yummy…it is one of my favorite meals.

  • Heather @ Health, Happiness, and Hope
    August 6, 2009 at 11:38 pm

    Aww, you look so sad in that picture… but you still look gorgeous (of course!). LOVE that dress!

    Get a good night’s rest. You totally deserve it! 🙂

  • Lainie
    August 6, 2009 at 11:49 pm

    Your mom’s food always looks amazing. And I love watermelon too – this summer it has been spectacular! Hope you get some much-deserved rest tonight 🙂

  • lola
    August 6, 2009 at 11:56 pm

    You look gorgeous in that pic, with sad face and all 😛 that’s definetely your color! haha and you’re right some wine can’t hurt, quite the opposite in fact 🙂 don’t force yourself over anything, life is too damn short. And i had a pound of watermeloon too today 😛

  • Rachel
    August 7, 2009 at 12:25 am


    I don’t know the details behind your break-up but I broke up with a long-term boyfriend to move to a big city and pursue my dreams. I second-guessed myself for a few months but two years later I don’t regret it at all. It was something I had to do for myself. Now, I am happier than ever and in a career I love with a group of friends I adore. You know more than most that life is short and you are young so make the most of it!

  • Liz
    August 7, 2009 at 12:30 am

    Hi Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear about the split, but God does things for a reason, as everyone has been saying. You have hundreds of girlfriends in place of one boyfriend.

    When you are ready, I am sure many of us would love to hear the reasons behind the split, as many of us have gone through, or may go through a similar expirience. I am with my loooong time boyfriend, and have found myself questioning the relationship from time to time….how did you and Ryan make this decision? Or whose decision was it?

  • Jessica
    August 7, 2009 at 12:45 am

    Aw honey you look sooo sad 🙁 I hope you heal fast. With lots of wine and watermelon 🙂
    is that energy bar good?

  • Rebeca
    August 7, 2009 at 1:08 am

    Oh my, that picture of you- you look like a lost puppy and I mean that in the nicest way- too cute!

    I’m glad you got out even if the run didn’t work just moving is good therapy sometimes and when it’s followed by wine and then a mom made dinner- all the better!

    Take care! I hope you sleep/rest well tonight!

  • Morgan
    August 7, 2009 at 1:27 am

    Hi Jenna

    I’m a recent reader of your blog and I have never posted before. I just wanted to tell you that if I was going through what you were, I wouldn’t have had the strength to put on that cute little dress and go out for a drink. You’re already doing great! Your blog picks me up when I’m feeling lazy, so I thought I owed you a comment saying how cute you looked in spite of everything.

  • Michelle T
    August 7, 2009 at 1:27 am

    Very few people look both cute AND elegant while holding a wine glass – in which YOU would come in and show everyone that it CAN be done. 🙂 I’m sure you’ve heard this…or not…but men can be rather over-hyped creatures. Hang in there sweetie…You’re a ROCKIN’ girl and focus on that for…forever? hehee

    Have a wonderful Friday and try not to get too drunk! 🙂
    P.s. I think I got those no-alcohol-but-still-dance-like-a-drunkard skills too!!! hahahah

  • Rachel
    August 7, 2009 at 2:13 am

    Aw man, that little face you’re making – it broke my heart! I haven’t commented yet, but I have been thinking of you. Breakups are so, so hard, but I take some comfort in the fact that it’s a universal experience. Of course no one knows how you feel inside, but everyone can empathize. Let all of this support encircle you and embrace you – everything is going to be okay.

  • lena
    August 7, 2009 at 2:28 am

    take care, give yourself time… don’t rush.. it will all fall into place, can’t go anywhere but up 🙂

  • lora
    August 7, 2009 at 3:19 am

    watermelon or enchiladas sure do help! i know that for sure, tonight. Dont ever hesitate to talk, or chat about anything!


  • Kiki (Run Kiki Run)
    August 7, 2009 at 4:30 am

    hey – i hadnt commented so far cause I didnt wanna burden you with what I thought or what I believed since u were going through some pretty major personal changes. Just remember everything happens for a reason! And while you try to figure out the reason and understand the whys and the ifs, you need to do whatever you can to make yourself feel better! Take care x Kiki

  • Jennie in Wonderland
    August 7, 2009 at 5:08 am

    This reminds me of the SATC movie, when Carrie and Miranda are both sad and out for Valentine’s Day – they get mistaken for a couple and are giggling about it and keep ordering “more Shiraz”. Sometimes, your best girlfriends + wine = all you can do.

    Hope you’ll be ok. Just take it moment by moment. Hugs!!

    BTW those enchis look amazing! I am making a combo of yours and Gina’s this week for the bf – I don’t think we’ll be able to handle the deliciousness!

  • Christie @ Quit Your Diet
    August 7, 2009 at 5:41 am

    Girlfriends + wine = major healing. You are going to come out on the other side of this stronger than ever! You have amazing gifts and I know you will do great things.

  • Jennifer M
    August 7, 2009 at 6:54 am

    “Maybe some women aren’t meant to be tamed. Maybe they just need to run free til they find someone just as wild to run with them”

  • Sandy
    August 7, 2009 at 7:35 am

    Hugs. I am thinking of all of the opportunities that you are now free to pursue. I know that you were willing to step out and think about moving to the other side of the country so if you loved it there maybe this is the time to do something completely new and exciting with your life. You are gorgeous and I can’t wait to hear the next chapter in your story – new life, new guy, friends that are with you wherever you go, you can do anything you want now.

  • Ann
    August 7, 2009 at 7:40 am

    Jenna, you’ve been on my mind for the last few days as I’ve been wishing you healing and serenity. I was at yoga last night and thought about how your yoga experience motivated me to give it a try and I love it. You are very motivating and inspirational. Have you ever considered getting certified as a yoga instructor? I think you would be wonderful!

  • Carolyn (
    August 7, 2009 at 7:43 am

    Hi Jenna,
    I’m pretty new to the blogging world, but i have become hooked on eatliverun. i wanted to let you know i am so sorry to hear about your relationship, but i truly believe this could be looked at as a new opportunity- to go somewhere new, branch out on your own, try something you’ve been meaning to try, whatever you want- take some ‘jenna time’ and do something that is ALL ABOUT YOU. you deserve it girl! just wanted to let you know you’re in my thoughts (and obviously a ton of other peoples’ as well!), and to thank you for such a positive blog.
    – Carolyn

  • amethyst
    August 7, 2009 at 8:09 am

    Hi lovely Jenna, Sorry to see you looking so (uncharacteristically) sad. I know you’ll come through it even stronger and the happy smile will reappear on your face. Great for your parents to have you with them! Cheers, sante, salute for the vino (in moderation!). Virtual hugs, A 🙂

  • Danielle
    August 7, 2009 at 8:36 am

    Aw Jenna, that picture of you broke my heart, you just look so sad!
    I hope you’re having a better day today! Nothing like good friends and wine to help cheer you up!

  • Whitney
    August 7, 2009 at 8:38 am

    I know you are having a hard time right now, but I love that first picture. :). There, I said it.

  • Katrina (gluten free gidget)
    August 7, 2009 at 8:41 am

    Watermelon is definitely the best summer food EVER! You are doing awesome. Mommy food definitely makes everything better.

  • Pam (Highway to Health)
    August 7, 2009 at 8:53 am

    Wine and girlfriends definitely heal all. I hope you got some rest last night!

  • Sarah
    August 7, 2009 at 8:53 am

    Wine + girlfriends is pretty darn close to a cure-all. Hope you were able to get some sleep and that each day gets a little bit easier. Take care of yourself, I know you will 🙂

  • magicanderson
    August 7, 2009 at 8:58 am

    Funny, I ran about 1.5 miles today and then did yoga instead of staying on the treadmill. Exactly-sometimes you just don’t feel it! All I want to do lately is yoga, slow and strong. So, that’s what I’m doing and it feel good instead of pushing myself to do a long run when I’m not enjoying myself. Comfort food from Mom does wonders for the soul!

  • magicanderson
    August 7, 2009 at 9:00 am

    feels good. I meant to say feels! Missed the “s” in that and it drives me nuts when I make a typo!!

  • monica
    August 7, 2009 at 9:05 am

    Hey Jenna,
    I am soooo sorry about the break up. Those are always super hard. I was just thinking about it, and wondering if it would be even a bit more difficult in your position because of the blog.
    I realized that if I broke up with someone, I could avoid them (if I wanted). However, Ryan can read every word on this blog which is sort of like your diary. He can read it when you have moved on, next week, or now while the wounds are still fresh. Will that impact what you post (it would me!)? How so? Just wondering!

    Continue to enjoy the wine, yoga, and girl time! I am sure that will make things soooooooooooo much easier during this challenging time.

  • brandi
    August 7, 2009 at 9:08 am

    a little running is better than nothing, but good for you for just taking care of yourself and not pushing through it if your heart wasn’t in the run.

    Today is a new day!

  • Katie
    August 7, 2009 at 9:42 am

    Hold tight to the knowledge that what you learned from this relationship, will prepare you for the next. God is teaching you something through the relationship and break-up that He couldn’t teach you any other way. So keep your heart open for His wisdome!

  • Ryane
    August 7, 2009 at 9:57 am

    Sometimes when you have a lot on your mind – like sad thoughts – I find it hard to go for a run because then that’s all I think about. BUT fun classes like Spinning or anything high energy with good music and a bouncy instructor always help take my mind off things and get the sweating and endorphins you’re looking for.

  • Jessica
    August 7, 2009 at 10:17 am

    Stay strong – everything happens for a reason. It may not always be clear right away, but it will show itself.

    Also, in your last post, were you going 40 when you took that picture of your dash?? I could not help but giggle when I saw that!!

  • Susan
    August 7, 2009 at 10:21 am

    Your mom’s creations always sound so fabulous! Glad you got your vino in. Sometimes, a snack over exercise makes me feel so much better 😉