I rarely have no word but this is totally one of those moments.

I feel like so often I put on my own personal pity party (why did this happen?! I don’t deserve it! I wish I had….) but forget to look around at all I DO have to be thankful for and y’all are seriously at the top of my list. I mean, how many girls can honestly say they have about 230 great girlfriends supporting them? That alone is staggering. Blogging definitely has its moments of frustration (err server crashing?) but it has made up for itself ten times over. I know I can be gushy and sentimental sometimes, but I honestly consider each of you my good friend and I’m so thankful God has blessed me with your individual doses of positivity. Thank you! πŸ™‚

I’m wearing my running clothes but still haven’t ran. Boo. I took a drive instead and chatted with Polly. Love this girl!


And then I reverted back to my old college ways and had a simple lunch of granola and yogurt (oikos!) with some watermelon


I plan to run soon. I really do. I have to because Sarah is picking me up at 5:15 to go have a glass of wine. I guess she thinks I need to get out of the house?! Truthfully, my single life so far has included crying in my bed with my stuffed rabbit and eating mass amounts of jelly beans. I’m allowed to have my moments though…right?! I need a vacation……good thing BOSTON is next weekend!!!!!!!!!!!

I have no idea where I would be without my friends…..and wine? Just kidding. Well sort of.

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  • Savannah
    August 6, 2009 at 2:31 pm

    The vacation will be great for you! And you are totally allowed to have “moments” – know it will all get better from here!

    As a reader, know that I feel blessed to have you to read, too!

  • Jaya
    August 6, 2009 at 2:32 pm

    Jenna, I am so glad that you’ve found strong arms to help you through this stuff. I really believe that sometimes we need to take a chance and get emotionally naked, and when we do, incredible support finds us. Just feel out the motions..your heart will never lead you astray. Like everyone else has said, you are a remarkable and strong woman, but I admire you most for reaching out for strength from others – that’s how we keep the cycle going!
    A great big hug from Calgary, Canada.
    Jaya πŸ™‚

  • Liz
    August 6, 2009 at 2:33 pm

    You’re thanking us when really we should be thanking you. Thank you so much for being honest in the middle of this. I ended a 4.5 year relationship and though the first few months were hard the sun eventually comes out again. Trust me. And a glass or 2 of wine is sometimes the best therapist. You have a great support network and a healthy attitude. Just keep on runnin’ πŸ™‚

  • Recipes for Creativity
    August 6, 2009 at 2:37 pm

    You’re just so adorable, Jenna! We know you’re hurting, but you truly do have 230 (and probably many more!) girlfriends who only want the best for you! You are SO SO SO allowed to eat as many jelly beans as you need to and cry as much as you need to! We’ve got your back πŸ™‚

    You also have wonderful parents and lots of supportive “real life” friends to take you out and take care of you. Have a great afternoon!

  • Andrea
    August 6, 2009 at 2:38 pm

    Jenna I hate reverting back to the same old saying “everything happens for a reason,” but I promise in relationships it does! As a girl that’s dealt with ending two long term relationships, I promise life will get better! I am glad Sarah is picking you up for some vino! You have all of our support. We love you missy!

  • britt
    August 6, 2009 at 2:40 pm

    enjoy your time out with sarah! being around people who care for you helps tons.

  • Katie
    August 6, 2009 at 2:41 pm

    My last break-up was rough x10! My sister even got a test bumped back b/c she told her teacher my crying kept her from studying. What can I say? I hurt like I had never hurt before. Friends and your Faith are your most valuable tools right now, lean on them both!

  • meghan
    August 6, 2009 at 2:42 pm

    as far as i’m concerned, you’re allowed to do whatever the heck you want, for at least 2 weeks. πŸ™‚

  • kara
    August 6, 2009 at 2:43 pm

    You are so loved and admired. I’m sorry to hear your news, but soon this will all be a memory of, “Remember when I was feeling so down about _? Well, look at my life now!”

  • Amy
    August 6, 2009 at 2:44 pm

    It’s strange because I had wondered for several+ weeks about you and Ryan~ something alittle while back stuck in the back of my head that we would be hearing this news soon.
    I am proud of you for making the difficult decisions and toughing out this uncomfortable time. I sincerely promise that it will not only get better, but you will find the right person for you (and often sooner than you think). When you do meet the man that God has picked for you to marry, it will be amazing. God teaches us things in every relationship, preparing us for the perfect one. I can only imagine what (and who) awaits you in the future!!!! You will one day look back and appreciate the journey (the good and bad).

    The future is wide open~ and that’s exciting!


  • Courtney (The Hungry Yogini)
    August 6, 2009 at 2:48 pm

    Girl, there is a lot of love and support here for you!!! Times will get better!!!

    Call me if you need ANYTHING! And I hope you are still planning on lunch next Monday…I know I’m pumped. It will be a great dose of girl talk!!

  • Rachel
    August 6, 2009 at 2:49 pm

    Make that 231 friends! I didn’t get a chance to comment this morning but I’m very sorry to hear about your break up with Ryan. You two seem to have been through so much together and hopefully you could be friends one day. Some of my best friends are EXs that just didn’t work out for one reason or another. Anyway, have fun eating jelly beans and drinking wine. I went through a break up a month ago and moved out to a place of my own and I’m absolutely in love with living by myself. I have learned so much about myself in the past month and feel so happy that I’m able to make myself happy again. Good things will come, Jenna. Have a good run.

  • Meg
    August 6, 2009 at 2:51 pm

    Wishing the best for you, Jenna. You are one of the most positive and inspirational woman I’ve ever come across. I look to you and your words for advice, comfort, entertainment, and just to smile! Thank you for that! I know God has great things in store for you, and you deserve nothing less. Enjoy your workout, wine and friends!


  • Jennie in Wonderland
    August 6, 2009 at 2:51 pm

    I say massive amounts of jelly beans are in order after a break-up.

    I remember when I first left Canada (a year ago, wow!) and came to the UK with my bf, I was so miserable. All that helped were phone calls home, sleep ins and good glasses of red vino! I tried to be gentle with myself, and you should too. You deserve only the best, bella. We’re ALL rooting for you!!!

  • Samantha
    August 6, 2009 at 2:52 pm

    It’s so funny how the blogging world really does become a source of comfort and friendship (even for those like me that are just readers!) in times of change and hardship. I feel like I’ve gotten to know so many people that I really don’t at all, and sometimes knowing that everyone goes through the same things really helps! Wishing you all the best!

  • Julie
    August 6, 2009 at 2:52 pm

    At least jelly beans are a “low fat” treat, right? πŸ˜‰

    I’m honered to be your “internet friend” as geeky as that is! Let the tears out and the jelly beans (and wine) in. “This too shall pass”.

  • devon
    August 6, 2009 at 2:55 pm

    Yes, do get out of the house. It will make you feel better. And you’re more than entitled to your time crying in bed. Life has its ups and downs, and you have so much going for you!

  • Tess
    August 6, 2009 at 2:55 pm

    Polly is so inspirational and REAL! I think she must have great advice and a great listening ear. You take care of your self and be confident that this too shall pass and the outcome, though unknown to you now, will be exciting, new and refreshing. Every moment is a new begining!

  • kay (eating machine)
    August 6, 2009 at 2:56 pm

    Boston is going to come at the perfect time!
    and friends AND wine are both important in a breakup, no shame!

  • Jenny
    August 6, 2009 at 2:57 pm

    For me, it’s all about the swedish fish and a good cry- recharge that emotional fuel!

    You are AMAZING, and inspire me to be a more positive person and a healthier eater.

    I’m hoping and praying for the best for you lady!

  • Maria
    August 6, 2009 at 2:59 pm

    The blogging community is so wonderful, huh? I just love all the awesome ladies (and gentlemen?) out there supporting one another πŸ™‚

  • Daria (Summer of the CSAs)
    August 6, 2009 at 2:59 pm

    You absolutely get some indulgent moments! The end of a relationship is bound to necessitate a bit of a mourning period. I think lots of crying and sugar help with closure.

    But so do good friends! I’m glad you’re feeling supported and that you’ve got a vacation to look forward to. πŸ™‚

  • Janessa
    August 6, 2009 at 3:00 pm

    Jelly beans and wine in bed… should be every girl’s cure for a breakup.

    Break-ups are so hard; even when we know they’re for the best, and we know we’ll feel better later, that doesn’t make us feel better NOW. Boo.

    So, does that mean that move to California might be in order?

  • Ally
    August 6, 2009 at 3:00 pm

    Enjoy your run–it’s good therapy! I’m so sorry that you and Ryan ended things, but, time heals all and you will have so many wonderful things ahead of you it’s amazing. You are a wonderful person and I know that wonderful things are in store for you. Enjoy your vino tonight!!

  • Jessica
    August 6, 2009 at 3:00 pm

    Woops my comment got stuck on the post below. I hope you still read it πŸ™‚ *hugs*

  • Michelle
    August 6, 2009 at 3:02 pm

    As your last post was titled, “Season for Loss,” I just wanted to remind you that there will surely be MANY “seasons of blessings” to come!!!!! I’m praying for you!

  • Megan (The Runner's Kitchen)
    August 6, 2009 at 3:02 pm

    Getting out of the house is good! If wine is involved, that’s even better! Hope to meet you in Boston next weekend – it will be SO much fun πŸ™‚

  • chandra h
    August 6, 2009 at 3:03 pm

    ♥ ♥ ♥

    I say the whole of you & your life is made up of different parts, all needing to be fulfilled. when each part is fulfilled in ways unique to each individual the whole of you is complimented by each part and is complete. when parts are not fulfilled, there are aching gaps, because no one part is “more important” than the other – although at different times in your life different parts need extra fulfillment.

    eat jelly beans, drink wine, cry. fulfill yourself emotionally & physically and know that you are loved. =)

  • Shannon (The Daily Balance)
    August 6, 2009 at 3:04 pm

    Definitely get out of the house – so nice that you have two good friends down there to take you out and distract you πŸ˜‰


  • Whitney
    August 6, 2009 at 3:04 pm

    Jelly beans, wine and a great verse. Perfect recipe to heal a broken heart. *hugs*

  • Stephanie
    August 6, 2009 at 3:04 pm

    You’ve got the spirit – you see the postive (and the vino!). Have a great day! And, enjoy the wine! I do that…a lot…

  • Jennifer
    August 6, 2009 at 3:08 pm

    DId you get the Jelly Beans at costco? I coworker who knew I loved jelly beans bought me the industrial size container of jelly bellys – it was a blessing and a curse! I killed that thing in an embarrassingly short amount of time.

  • brandi
    August 6, 2009 at 3:08 pm

    have fun with Sarah, talk, laugh, cry if you need to – friends are there to help carry our burden and be the shoulders we need. if you miss a run, no biggie. take care of yourself first – Boston will be great next weekend! I wish I could make it.

  • katecooks
    August 6, 2009 at 3:09 pm

    i just went through a breakup with someone i date for 4 years (i say just and it was january!) and wine and treats happened A LOT. you need it! i promise.

  • Cassie
    August 6, 2009 at 3:10 pm

    It’s ok to eat massive amounts of jelly beans when things get tough…we’ve all done it! ( I know I have consoled myself with a pint of ice cream a few times). But if thats what it takes then thats what you need to do. Hang in there girly, keep your head up…sending lots of love and positive vibes your way!

  • Emily
    August 6, 2009 at 3:10 pm

    Yay I’m so excited for the summit as well – I can’t wait! Things will get better day by day and you’re doing well to surround yourself with friends and yummy drinks. πŸ™‚

    Have a great run and enjoy your outing with Sarah.

  • katie
    August 6, 2009 at 3:11 pm

    cupcakes usually work for me during times like these…but wine is just as good πŸ˜‰ sorry to hear about you and ryan, but as you’ve demonstrated over the past several months, you are amazingly strong and will be back to your positive self soon enough. hope you have a fabulous break from life up in boston!

  • Marianne
    August 6, 2009 at 3:11 pm

    Thinking of you!! You are not alone.

    Thank goodness we have friends to help us through the hard times. And we are definitely entitled to tears and jelly beans during these times…

  • Rebeca
    August 6, 2009 at 3:11 pm

    As a girl in a similar situation I’ve been in my bed with mini cookies, a remote, and my body pillow… I know what you mean… Enjoy your run (it always makes me feel a little better, although I usually end up having to stop and wipe away a few tears- but tears are good sometimes) and your time out with Sarah!

  • Gillian
    August 6, 2009 at 3:13 pm

    My long term relationship just ended 2 Saturdays ago, and it still hurts. Songs I hear that remind me of our times together can make me cry – when I am at work even – its mildly embarassing – haha! But I know that I am a strong woman much like you, and in times like this we need our friends and families to lift our spirits (and jelly beans)! We will move on – it just takes time for the heart mend lost love!

  • haya
    August 6, 2009 at 3:14 pm

    yayyyyyyy boston! and jelly beans!
    hope you’re doing ok. breakups are crappy but eventually things get better. take good care.

  • Angela
    August 6, 2009 at 3:15 pm

    Hmm, how about a little coconut milk ice cream? πŸ˜‰ Hang in there! So much ahead to look foward to!

  • Judy
    August 6, 2009 at 3:15 pm

    I just commented at the previous blog, before this one came through. I won’t repeat myself here, but wanted to let you know you have a belated comment to read if you’d like. πŸ™‚

  • Sheri
    August 6, 2009 at 3:15 pm

    A run and wine is always good treatment I think! I usually like to through a little dark chocolate in with that treatment as well πŸ˜‰
    Hope you have a great rest of the day…(((HUGS))).

  • Amy
    August 6, 2009 at 3:16 pm

    Hi Jenna, just wanted to tell you that it’s totally ok to have lots of jelly beans, lots of wine, and lots of crying time right now. Letting yourself truly grieve the end of your relationship is one of the best and healthiest things you can do. Just take this time to take care of yourself and let yourself truly feel all your feelings. To quote one of my all-time favorite movies, Sound of Music…Maria’s advice to Liesl on surviving a break-up: “You cry a little, and then you wait for the sun to come out. It always does.” We all love and support you so keep on hanging in there!

  • Allie (Live Laugh Eat)
    August 6, 2009 at 3:18 pm

    Your positivity is inspiring, Jenna! I went through a break up, which then threw me for a humongous whirlwind that I am still recovering from (I’m not even going to mention how long it’s been!!). I wish I had the blogging community back then to come to my rescue! I know us, friends, and family can really only do so much but know that it WILL pass.

    I’m such a loser but I used to think about Reese Witherspoon and her break up. I once read something she said in a magazine interview..something along the lines of…every woman has gone through this at one point (if not many points) in their lifetime. I can’t believe I just wrote about Reese in a blog comment πŸ™‚

    I won’t say I hope you feel better because although I do, I know it’ll take more than that. Stay strong and keep your head up!

  • Christie @ Quit Your Diet
    August 6, 2009 at 3:19 pm

    Of course you are allowed to have your moments! If we didn’t have them we’d go insane! Take whatever time you need to heal. I’m glad you have Boston coming up to get you a much needed break.

  • Barista
    August 6, 2009 at 3:19 pm

    I was so sad to read the news this morning. Stay strong, girly! You are too amazing to have a frown on that face, and I know that just from reading.

    And there’s nothing wrong with a little wine-numbing πŸ™‚ Remember – fake it till ya make it!

  • Jerilynne
    August 6, 2009 at 3:19 pm

    Jenna, I love the little Proverbs card you have there in your car.. even when you are having your “moments” (which you are so totally allowed to have whenever you need!) you still manage to be inspirational for those of us reading your blog. You truly are such a great person, there are definitely amazing things in your future and you deserve each and every one of them!!

  • Carrie H
    August 6, 2009 at 3:20 pm

    Jenna —
    I’m sorry to hear about you and Ryan, but like all of your other 230 girlfriends (!!), I too know you are a beautiful soul who will reap the benefits of the positivity you put out into the world in time. In God’s time! Like you’ve taught us — we don’t know his plan, but it is greater than ours for sure. Love to you, Jenna, and know that another girl out there is praying for you!

  • Stepf
    August 6, 2009 at 3:21 pm

    Eat your jelly beans, cry with your rabbit and vent with your girlfriends. Whatever you’re feeling is valid, and you’ve shown great strength and restraint. We are here for you (I’m usually a lurker, but I’ve been reading thrice daily since April!) and can’t wait to read about your next adventure. Seriously, I went through a bad breakup a couple of years back, and after the depression cleared, I realized how lucky I was. I was (am) young, healthy and talented, as are you. You have the world in front of you. Embrace it. I think this is God’s way of telling you to take a new adventure. Grab that brass ring, Jenna, and never let go!

  • Kayla
    August 6, 2009 at 3:21 pm

    Hi Jenna,

    I’ve been stalking your blog for a few months now when I’m bored, and I just wanted to tell you hang in there. Christie and I hung out yesterday and had a little chat about you, and I think its definitely for the best and it just seems like you have really had some amazing experiences lately (like Murphy Goode) that have opened your eyes to what you want in life. So once you get through the initial mini-depression, I think you’ll be super happy this all happened. And I’m not sure if you’ve ever been to Boston but its incredible and I absolutely love it there so it will be such a great vacation!! Love from Vero Beach πŸ˜‰

  • Jessica
    August 6, 2009 at 3:22 pm

    jelly beans, wine, and friends…what else DO you need??? Sorry to hear about your loss. You will soon fill the void in your heart with great and amazing things!

    Now go run…it will make you feel better!

  • Becky
    August 6, 2009 at 3:23 pm

    Of course you deserve your moments and as many as you need. It means what you lost meant something, that it was real, that it was special. And to celebrate and mourn the loss of something it sometimes requires jelly beans and a good cry! In my case maybe hot tamales πŸ™‚ Be blessed!

  • Sarah
    August 6, 2009 at 3:24 pm

    You are SO allowed! I hear ya on the friends thing…and the wine, hehe. Praying for you girl! It will get better.

  • miladybowen
    August 6, 2009 at 3:25 pm

    Psalm 34:18. I love this scripture because it shows that God thinks of us personally and individually, not just as part of the mass of humanity.

    I hope things look up for you soon.

  • Deirdre
    August 6, 2009 at 3:27 pm

    I can’t wait to meet you in Boston!

  • Allie Katie
    August 6, 2009 at 3:27 pm

    I had to laugh because after ending a four year relationship my roommate had to physically stop me from massively ODing on mike n ikes. Surround yourself with friends and family and jellybeans!

  • Lauren
    August 6, 2009 at 3:29 pm

    Keep your head up! You are a wonderful person that has done so much for others! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!
    P.S. I find brownie sundaes work wonders too!

  • Amy
    August 6, 2009 at 3:31 pm

    Hey, short term food abuse is perfectly acceptable. I’ve had my own relationship issues and have been doing the wine with friends (and maybe some alone) for the last two weeks… But I have to say, the friends help more by adding some laughter! *hugs*

  • Danielle
    August 6, 2009 at 3:32 pm

    How true, it’s amazing how supportive this community is and I’m so happy to be a part of it, each time I’m having a rough day someone (or lots of someones) are there to make me smile!
    I’m about to send you an email because I have some questions for you, take your time getting back to me obviously, I know you have a lot going on in your life.
    Enjoy your time with Sarah!

  • Laura
    August 6, 2009 at 3:33 pm

    You are a strong, incredible person! An inspiration to us all.

  • Pam (Highway to Health)
    August 6, 2009 at 3:35 pm

    Yay for Boston next weekend!!! I can’t go to the Summit but I waill be around for some of the unofficial stuff. It will help get your mind off of everything and meet some great people.

  • Jessica
    August 6, 2009 at 3:35 pm

    Hang in there Jenna! I was in a 5 year relationship that ended on a very bad note. I seriously thought there was no hope for me and felt really lost. Two years to the night we ended, I began dating the “real” love of my life and couldn’t be happier. Its funny to look back on the two years of my single life-I thought the sun would never shine. But it did and it does. And besides-you are strong, independent, and will be just fine πŸ˜‰

  • kelly
    August 6, 2009 at 3:35 pm

    usually a lurker, but jumping out of reader to say that you truely DO feel like a friend. I’ve been worried about you the past few days! I’m glad that you feel the support of your blog readers, for it it REAL! Take care, Jenna πŸ™‚

  • Laura W
    August 6, 2009 at 3:36 pm

    I’m glad that you’re staying busy with running, yoga, article-writing, jelly bean eating and wine dates! There will be plenty of time for you to reflect on your relationship, but now seems like the time to spend with your wonderful parents & friends. πŸ™‚

  • Denise (apple hill adventurer)
    August 6, 2009 at 3:40 pm

    aw jenna!

    i am glad we can all be here for you! and i am glad you have such an amazing support network πŸ™‚ i hope to make friends through blogging too! i dont know hardly anyone where i live anymore πŸ™

    i truly hope you are able to get through this period of your life swiftly and with as little pain as possible

    sometimes a girl just needs to cry! better than letting it all bottle up inside.

    have a great run! im sure it will make you feel better, as i am sure the wine after will do the same haha (glad you have friends around town that can be there for you as well)

  • Toni
    August 6, 2009 at 3:45 pm

    Please know you aren’t alone in this because you have the support of so many friends and family.

    “For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else.”
    ~Ralph Waldo Emerson~

  • crystal
    August 6, 2009 at 3:47 pm

    Wine and jelly beans can make a lot of things better πŸ™‚ Enjoy your night out with friends and soon things will start to look better. *hug*

  • KatieMoo
    August 6, 2009 at 3:51 pm

    I think everyone has already said everything that I want to say, so I’m just going to say we all love you and ::hug::

  • Cait (Cait's Plate)
    August 6, 2009 at 3:52 pm

    Hang in there kiddo. Things will definitely look up I promise! Just look forward to all the amazing things that you have going on in your life right now!!

    Have a BLAST in Boston and live it up with your girls! πŸ™‚

  • Joelle (The Pancake Girl))
    August 6, 2009 at 3:55 pm

    Smile my dear- you are surrounded by love and support, and if anything this blog is certainly a testament to that! The fog is always thickest before the sun.

  • lora
    August 6, 2009 at 3:56 pm


    I know you are going through a hard time right now, but just think of all the possibilities that could come soon! I mean, who knows, you might be in Cali, sipping wine and frolicking through a vineyard πŸ™‚ Enjoy that glass of wine with your GF! Just remember, that we are here for you and Boston is around the corner πŸ™‚


  • Stefanie
    August 6, 2009 at 3:59 pm

    we are all routing for ya! Thanks again for your daily updates. You can believe how much we can all relate, and feel more normal by reading your blog!

    Run, girl, run like the wind!

  • Shannon
    August 6, 2009 at 4:01 pm

    The reason you have all these people writing such kind things is because you are the nicest girl and truly deserve good things. πŸ™‚

  • nicole h
    August 6, 2009 at 4:03 pm

    hey girl im really feeling for you! and u have a great gal pal that is taking you out to grab some wine…yummmmm. just remember the good times and now you are going to have more good times bc the sun is going to shine another day. have a great night and jelly beans are AWESOME!

  • Paige
    August 6, 2009 at 4:05 pm

    Hi Jenna, I just got caught up on my GoogleReader and read what happened. I rarely comment, but I just wanted to let you know that I’m so sorry for your pain. You have been through so much in the past few months and I’m constantly amazed at your positive attitude through it all. Please never apologize for not being “upbeat” — if I were in your shoes I’m sure I wouldn’t be half as positive as you are. Reiterating what so many people have already said: this will only make you a stronger person. You WILL get through this and will be a better person for it. It’s terrible and horrible and awful now, but in time it will all make sense.

    I wish the best for you and I’m very excited to meet you at the Summit!

  • Kim
    August 6, 2009 at 4:05 pm

    Jenna…you will make it through this, though I know it seems tough right now. Hang in there. You are a beautiful person with a great head on your shoulder & lots to offer. Concentrate on you…make Jenna happy. You deserve the best.

    ((HUGS)) I will have a glass of wine with you tonight here in Ohio!


  • Dana (
    August 6, 2009 at 4:06 pm

    Of course you are allowed to have your moments! Break-ups are never easy. Boston will be a good get a way for you, good times with good people I am sure. Keep your head up girly!

  • Vaala
    August 6, 2009 at 4:06 pm

    Oh girl I just read your previous post…know where you’re coming from and totally feel for you. I broke up with my boyfriend about 2 months ago now and it’s made me realise just how awesome my friends are. Be kind to yourself. That’s the best advice I can give. Thinking of you…

  • Traci
    August 6, 2009 at 4:11 pm

    As a Bostonian I can tell you your trip here to Boston will absolutely be a pick-me-up for you! Our great city has so much energy! And you have put so much planning into the event that it will be awesome to see it come together. Enjoy your glass of wine (or two!) tonight. Stay well.

  • Meghan
    August 6, 2009 at 4:15 pm

    Jenna, I am so happy you are finding comfort in this community because if anyone deserves it…you do. You are beautiful, vivacious and strong…certainly you are destined for greatness. This too shall pass…and jelly beans don’t hurt either;-) no one can feel your pain but you, of course, but know that I’m thinking of you and you are such a wonderful inspiration!

  • Brooke
    August 6, 2009 at 4:15 pm

    Jenna…hang in there. I didn’t comment this morning, but you’ve got well over 230 friends to support you! While things are rough right now, they are not going to be forever. You are right. God has big and bold plans for your life. Through all of the bumps in life, you’ve also had some fab opportunities. You are beautiful, smart, sweet, caring, warm and totally amazing! My thoughts are with you!
    Take care of yourself…and yes, that includes wine and jelly beans!

  • Danielle
    August 6, 2009 at 4:16 pm

    Oh darling, you’re incredibly blessed and purposefully so. You are such a beautiful and amazing young woman and inspiration to us all. Whatever you spend the rest of your life doing, with whomever you chose to do it with, we will always be here to support you :). Lots of bloggie love sweetheart!

  • greenbean
    August 6, 2009 at 4:20 pm

    ***HUGS*** This is just another thing to show how we are all more alike than we think, even with all our differences. Break-ups are tough on us all. And yes, you deserve time to be relax and eat jelly beans. You’re strong, but this down time will make you stronger. Life moves in and out of seasons and with this season of loss, you will have an even bigger season of blessings and opportunity. xoxo, Jenna!

  • Michele | aka Raw Juice Girl
    August 6, 2009 at 4:24 pm

    Jenna, I don’t always comment but I just want to say that I absolutely have to read your blog every single day! I love your positive attitude, your zest for a healthy lifestyle, and that you just present yourself as a real gal trying to make it in this world–and stay positive while you’re at it!!

    You truly rock!! πŸ˜‰

    And I totally believe that when a door closes, a window of opportunity opens. I believe that with ALL my heart. Although endings are sad and change is hard to embrace a lot of times, beginnings can be even better, ya know?


  • Michele | aka Raw Juice Girl
    August 6, 2009 at 4:25 pm

    P.S. And, no, we are blessed to have YOU!!!! πŸ™‚

  • Cathy P
    August 6, 2009 at 4:25 pm

    Hi Jenna- I just read about your situation this week and I am so sorry! Whatever happened, your readers are always with you! You have lots of anonymous friends who believe in you and know you are going great places whether you venture on your own or not. I wish you the best and I hope your heart heals quickly! -Cat

  • Amy
    August 6, 2009 at 4:31 pm

    Add one more to that 230. πŸ™‚ As a devoted reader, my heart sunk for you when I read your earlier post. Times like these (and I’m in my own ‘times like these’), I just repeat the simplest verses to myself. God’s ways are not our own — so so so very true. Virtual hug!!

  • Joy
    August 6, 2009 at 4:36 pm

    Hey Jenna I didn’t get a chance to comment on your last entry but I’m really sorry, it’s one of those really really hard things we have to go through, it’s really like someone died. BUT you honestly will get over it, you just need to take your time and surround yourself with your friends and family.. and Dexter πŸ™‚ We all are here for you and just remember you will move on and bigger and better things will come along to you soon (guys AND other things). Enjoy being single for awhile and focus on YOU! <3

  • Amelia
    August 6, 2009 at 4:48 pm

    Like an earlier commenter said, there will be plenty of time to think things through later. Right now is the time for taking care of you. Go for that run, but enjoy the wine as well! A little indulgence certainly never hurt anyone and it can help a lot when you’re feeling down. It sounds like you have a good family, good friends, and many good blog friends to get you through this crappy time. Can’t wait to meet you in person in Boston!

  • Juicy Jessy
    August 6, 2009 at 4:50 pm

    sweety i just read the news… i really understand what it’s like; i’ve been through exactly the same over a year ago. i hope everything works out ok, very very very big hug!!!

  • WholeBodyLove
    August 6, 2009 at 4:50 pm

    We gain so much awareness and strength through times like this. You certainly have a large support base:) I think all of us appreciate your honesty and your strength.

  • AmyJoGo
    August 6, 2009 at 4:59 pm

    Not that you HAVE to share the dark times in your life with your readers, but the fact that you DO is what endears you to us.

    Now…go run!! You’ll feel so much better just accomplishing that one task for yourself.

  • Niki
    August 6, 2009 at 5:01 pm

    Keep your head up, Jenna! As cliche as it sounds, all these things happen for a reason. I’m sure you will make it through this hard time and emerge stronger, wiser, and happier! Life is funny that way…

  • Jessica
    August 6, 2009 at 5:05 pm

    You are such an inspiration to me! I am so glad that you have come into my life. I truly can’t wait to get to know you better. I know this is such a hard time for and I admire that you can be honest through it all. Just keep hanging in there girl!

  • Low
    August 6, 2009 at 5:07 pm

    I just read your last two posts and the comments on this post and my eyes are filled with tears. Both because I am hurting for you and because I’m so touched by this community. I am just coming out of the tunnel from a past heartbreak and I wish I had been blogging during the dark times. It is so nice to see such a supporting, loving community come together for so many different things – loss, love, celebrations.

    You will be in my thoughts and prayer and I hope the wine, running, and jelly beans help somewhat.

  • Sara
    August 6, 2009 at 5:08 pm

    What’s going on with your wine jobs? Are you maybe moving to Cali to worrrrrk!?

  • Rebecca
    August 6, 2009 at 5:09 pm

    You’ll get through it I promise!! And sometimes it’s good to just cry and eat jelly beans! Time heals all wounds (<–cliche)

  • peabody
    August 6, 2009 at 5:10 pm

    Hang in there Jenna. (((HUGS)))

  • Andee (Runtolive)
    August 6, 2009 at 5:13 pm

    You’ll get through it! Just leave it all out on the pavement when you’re running

  • hk
    August 6, 2009 at 5:16 pm

    you deserve nothing but happiness and love- good for you for following your heart- we’re all behind you xoxox lots of love and endless hugs!!!


  • K
    August 6, 2009 at 5:22 pm

    Hang in there Jenna! Being single does have it’s perks – I promise things will turn around soon πŸ™‚

  • Emily L.
    August 6, 2009 at 5:27 pm

    Oh Jenna,
    I’m so sorry to hear you and Ryan broke up. Breaking up SUCKS. It has been such a difficult year for you and you are so brave to share all of your trials and tribulations with us in the unknown. I’m not sure it is much comfort but know that your words and blog are such an inspiration to readers like me. I wake up in the morning looking forward to your blog.You seem to even do loss with grace. Keep fighting the good fight. As my mother says: this too shall pass. You’ll be stronger for it, and we’ll cheer you on all the way.

  • Carly
    August 6, 2009 at 5:30 pm

    Hi Jenna,

    I’m so sorry to hear about the break up. I too broke up with my boyfriend of two years three months ago…it isn’t easy but it. does. get. better. You’re incredibly strong and an inspiration to all of your readers. Just remember, ‘this too, will pass…’ πŸ™‚

  • angieinatlanta
    August 6, 2009 at 5:30 pm

    I’m sorry your relationship ended. Don’t get down on yourself for the jelly beans and tears. I think that sometimes we feel pressure to “tough it out” but a break-up is a loss and deserving of a mourning period.

    Take care of you,

  • KZ
    August 6, 2009 at 5:33 pm

    Hi Jenna-I’m sorry things are rough right now; just keep faith in knowing that better, brighter, and bigger things are on the horizon πŸ™‚ Take care

  • emily
    August 6, 2009 at 5:34 pm

    You are so good at finding the positive in things, it is a really great quality! I know in my life (most of) the things that seemed really crappy ended up being huge blessings in disguise. Whether God, or wishes, or fate it does seem that there is ultimatly purpose and reason to everything.

  • Megan
    August 6, 2009 at 5:35 pm

    You are totally allowed to eat loads of jellybeans and just BE! Jellybeans bring happiness πŸ™‚
    I hope you enjoy the rest of your day, love!

  • Errign
    August 6, 2009 at 5:38 pm

    I don’t think you need to be thanking us–you are such a strong, inspirational woman and we are all blessed to have your blog and your influence in our lives.

    (& nothin’ wrong with jelly beans and wine, sister. Keep your head up, it WILL be fine.)

  • Erin
    August 6, 2009 at 5:47 pm

    Listen to Patty Griffin, “It Don’t Come Easy”. This song makes me open up the floodgates in a good releasing way…. I get goosebumps every time.

    Hang in there… I just went through something like this….. Stay strong. You are a strong girl and will get through it….

  • Greta
    August 6, 2009 at 6:08 pm

    Dear Jenna,
    Life is defined by those moments, the pity parties, and the unexpected twists and turns. Stay strong, and most importantly, stay true to yourself. XO!

  • Nina
    August 6, 2009 at 6:12 pm

    hugs galore from boston! can’t wait to finally meet you! the healthy living summit will be good for you; and i’m glad you’re doing ok. πŸ™‚

  • Sara
    August 6, 2009 at 6:12 pm


    I read your posts earlier, but I wasn’t able to comment while I was at work. I’m so sorry that you’re going through this difficult time. Ending any sort of relationship (romantic, friendship, etc.) is always traumatic. Change, good or bad, is always hard. I hope that you’ll find peace in your life and the good in this change.


  • christina mindful living
    August 6, 2009 at 6:14 pm

    No worries…you are totally allowed to cry in your bed with your rabbit and jelly beans. sounds corny and clique but everything really does happen for a reason. you never know- when its all said and done it may just work out. but if it doesnt- you will find happiness elsewhere. jenna- you are an amazing girl- absolutely beautiful, smart, nice, you name it. you deserve to be happy and will be. just have faith and keep forging forwards
    wishing the best,

  • She-Fit
    August 6, 2009 at 6:21 pm

    Enjoy the wine . . . have one for me πŸ™‚

  • Marisa
    August 6, 2009 at 6:38 pm


    I just wanted to say that you have inspired this Ottawa (Canada0 girl so much! Your love of good, wholesome food, Paris and Literature are parallels I can draw with my own personality. I spent days going back in your posts reading about your adventures, and just think this is just an other chapter in your life. You are right there are so many amazing things out there coming your way you don’t even know the half of it!

  • Brit
    August 6, 2009 at 6:49 pm

    Jenna – you’re in my thoughts. Break-ups are tough, but I know you can make it through with all of your readers’ (and my) support. You have a bright future ahead of you…. don’t ever lose sight of that! You deserve the best, girl! =) *Hugs*

  • Susan
    August 6, 2009 at 6:52 pm

    Well you made it farther than me, I never even got into my biking clothes πŸ˜› Don’t worry about taking your time to grieve. Enjoy that wine and take comfort in your friends πŸ™‚

  • Michelle
    August 6, 2009 at 6:57 pm


    Psssshhhh, jelly beans?! You’re taking the “healthy” route as far as I’m concerned. My breakups have usually included a menage a trois with my two favorite men…Ben & Jerry. And lots of them!!!! πŸ™‚ So you eat your jelly beans if you need to.

    You receive support here because you have a way of writing/blogging that makes your reader feel connected to you. It’s a gift, honestly. I felt like a dork a few weeks ago because I said I had a friend applying for a job at a winery and I was thinking good thoughts for you. And I’ve never met ya! So I think many of us readers who don’t know you IRL consider you our friend too!

    Hang in there!!!!!

  • Kathy (Moving Beyond Perfection)
    August 6, 2009 at 7:02 pm

    *HUGS* I’m so sorry about the rough time you are going through. I know that only time will heal, but know that you’ll always have the support of your readers and friends/family! I could not live without my stuffed animals as well.. I’m glad you still have some to keep you company!

  • Simone
    August 6, 2009 at 7:07 pm

    Why do stuffed animals and candy make everything better?! πŸ˜‰ You are amazing to and just as much as you are thankful for all of us bloggies, we are more than thankful for you too!

  • Angela
    August 6, 2009 at 7:08 pm

    You are such a beautiful spirit Jenna…thanks for keeping it real πŸ™‚ I think that is why many of us readers feel that YOU are a friend of OURS!

  • FitFoodie
    August 6, 2009 at 7:11 pm

    Wine & Friends are the 2 most important things πŸ˜‰

  • Debbie (Green Apple A Day)
    August 6, 2009 at 7:13 pm

    Thinking of you! You are the best, Jenna πŸ™‚

  • Help Meghan Run
    August 6, 2009 at 7:14 pm

    I am SO giving you a big hug when we meet in Boston next weekend. πŸ™‚ Hang in there, girlie. The ups and downs of life are inevitable and just remember…”this, too, shall pass.” We all love ya.

  • Meggilizz--Meggie's Munchies
    August 6, 2009 at 7:18 pm

    Oh Jenna ((((HUGS)))) Take your time, have as many moments as you need!! Then buck up and get ready to have a great time in Boston!!! πŸ˜€

  • Heather @ Health, Happiness, and Hope
    August 6, 2009 at 7:19 pm

    Glad to you sounding a bit more positive about things… you know we all are hear for you and support you!

    Perfect summer lunch! Enjoy the run!

  • Louise
    August 6, 2009 at 7:27 pm

    Jenna – I’m a little late commenting on this, but I just wanted to say I am so sorry that you have to go through this – even when it is for the best, it is still so utterly heart wrenching to end a relationship. You are in my thoughts and prayers girl! Take all the time you need, eat as many jellybeans as you want, heck go eat a whole cheesecake if you want to! Enjoy your wine, and I can’t wait to read all about Boston! *BIG HUGS*

  • KatieF
    August 6, 2009 at 7:37 pm

    Your situation right now made me think of an excerpt from Dean Karnazes that I read a couple months back when I happened to be dealing with a sudden and major life disappointment. I printed it out, and it’s actually still hanging on the wall in my office at work. I thought you might like it:

    “One minute, things were peachy, the next, utter chaos erupted. For me, it wasn’t a sputtering financial system that brought me down, rather a full-fledged physical meltdown. Standing on the trailside at mile 80, projectile vomit shooting from my parched mouth, things appeared pretty bleak. Wiping the viscous remnants from my chin with the back of my hand, I turned to my pacerβ€”a dear friend of mine by the name of Martin Franklinβ€”and asked, β€œWhat do I do?”

    Martin thought for a second, then spoke. β€œLet’s see, you essentially have two options,” he said. “You can either stop, or you can keep going.”

    Put in those terms, the choice was quite simple. I shook my arms a few times, swung my head to and fro in an attempt to pull my ebbing faculties together, and began putting one foot numbly in front of the other, slowly resuming progress.”

    You’ll be OK. Take some time to lay in bed, drink wine, and eat jelly beans. Then just keep moving forward. God will take care of the rest. And if you need anything, just remember that there are 230+ friends out there who are willing to give you a hand.

  • JB
    August 6, 2009 at 7:42 pm

    of course you’re allowed to have your moments! everyone does. and just so you know, i love your blog and i think you’re so pretty and inspirational. you’re great no matter what. even when you’re crying in bed with jelly beans, a glass of wine, and a stuffed animal…you’re still an amazing girl! i hope you enjoy going out with your friend sarah tonight, and i’m sorry that you’re having a hard time! things will pick back up eventually. πŸ™‚

  • amanda
    August 6, 2009 at 7:49 pm

    Jenna, right now a million men are thanking their lucky stars! Now they can make their move! hehe work it girl!

  • Kelly
    August 6, 2009 at 7:50 pm

    Aww- Jenna! I am really sorry, but I’m glad you know things happen for a reason πŸ™‚

  • Molly
    August 6, 2009 at 8:03 pm

    I believe, with all my heart, that a break up is one of the hardest things most people go through. but that’s just it, so many people have seen that daunting hill, and those people have now reached the other side. And even if it looks like things cant get any worse, even if the other side of that hill seems like it’s too hard to get to, or not even there- it is.
    And you are right, in so many ways, there are bigger and better things out there that you can not even fathom.
    Until trust in yourself, in your friends and everything beautiful that still remains. Because after all, there is so much πŸ™‚

    * & keep Washed By The Water by Needtobreathe on repeat. It’ll lift you out of your sorrows, even if just for a while*

    “And yet, I found I could survive. I was alert, I felt the pain – the aching loss that radiated out from my chest, sending wracking waves of hurt through my limbs and head – but it was manageable. I could live through t. It didn’t feel like the pain had weakened over time, rather that I’d grown strong enough to bear it.”

  • taybero
    August 6, 2009 at 8:21 pm

    Jenna, you are such an amazing girl. I recently found your blog and I already consider you a great role model. I look forward to reading your blog every day. You have a great support system and are a strong woman. I am glad you are getting out of the house, because you can only eat so many jelly beans in bed! πŸ˜‰

  • Mar
    August 6, 2009 at 8:40 pm

    Jenna I’ve been reading for a while and hardly ever comment but just wanted to let you know that I admire you so much. You have been through so much and are just so positive. You have really inspired me and I know great things will happen for you. Keep chuggin’ and it means a lot that you are able to share so much with us. I really do look forward to reading your posts when I get to work and then throughout the day!

  • Liz
    August 6, 2009 at 8:55 pm

    Sorry to hear you are down. Take care of yourself. Everyone is right, one day you will look back and understand why things happened the way they did…God has a plan, just have faith!

  • brookie
    August 6, 2009 at 8:57 pm


    i started reading your blog a year ago. i rarely comment but i feel so inspired to after today’s post. anyways…my boyfriend and i of 4.5 years broke up two months ago. people always say it will get easier…and (like any normal person) I didn’t believe them because it feels like it will never get easier. but it does. firstly….YOUR AMAZING….thats all you need to know to keep goin. that’s it. live your life and the answers will come before you know it. but for now, hang out with girls, drink wine, eat butter and ROCK YOUR LIFE.
    this coming from the girl who thought she had lost her happiness.,.until randomly last week she was singing to cheech and chong ‘low rider’ in the car and realizing…no matter who you are with they enhance your life (hopefully) but they are never your entire life…YOU ARE YOUR LIFE. color your own world πŸ˜‰ seriously though…red wine is amazing


  • kt
    August 6, 2009 at 9:01 pm

    You have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find your prince, even when you may have thought you did, something else was in the stars saying it wasn’t so, there is something else out there for you. We’ve all been through it, doesn’t make it any easier, but we all can relate to what you’re going through. The sun will shine again, I promise, in the meantime, keep up that terrific spirit of yours and take time for yourself. πŸ™‚

  • Courtney
    August 6, 2009 at 9:16 pm

    Hi Jenna,

    I just wanted to join everyone else in supporting you during this difficult time and share a quote that I repeated to myself over and over when I was recently going through a break up: “Have patience for the small sorrows and courage for the great ones, and when you have laboriously accomplished this daily task, go to sleep in peace. God is awake.” — Victor Hugo

    I know all these quotes and words of wisdom probably don’t help right now – but just know you have so many people out there thinking of you!

  • Kelsey
    August 6, 2009 at 9:22 pm

    jelly beans always make me feel better too ;]
    hope you have some good girl time tonight. you totally deserve some pampering.

  • Annie D.
    August 6, 2009 at 9:33 pm

    Ahhh vacations- I LOVE THOSE!!

  • Cyndi
    August 6, 2009 at 9:52 pm

    Everyone has already said it all … but my ditto is truly heartfelt.

    You need some rest. From everything.

    You’ll be back when you’re ready.

  • Lainie
    August 6, 2009 at 11:51 pm

    Jenna, you are so strong. I’ve had my fair share of loss and I think I could learn a thing or two from you. Enjoy your jelly beans…you certainly deserve them!

  • sheeva
    August 7, 2009 at 1:13 am

    first-time poster, long-time reader … sorry to hear you are having a rough time. i admire your strength. take care.

  • Amy L
    August 7, 2009 at 2:31 am

    I feel your pain. ((HUGS)) Enjoy the wine and the company of good friends.

  • prinny
    August 7, 2009 at 3:29 am

    Just read about your situation now, I am so sorry.
    As many have commented before, I also believe that things happen for a reason and whenever one door closes, another one opens up.
    For now, enjoy all the jelly beans, wine, bubble baths and whatever makes you feel better.
    PS: Sorry to be so blunt – but what happens with that cute cat of yours?

  • Emily
    August 7, 2009 at 11:09 am

    Yay! I can’t wait to see the movie either – let me know how it is…but not too much about it! πŸ™‚

  • Jess
    August 7, 2009 at 10:43 pm

    To the lovely Miss Jenna,
    Keep your head high. I know this is a rough time for you right now and was a shock to me (I’ve been behind on my reader this week since I’m in mid move myself) but you are an amazingly talented woman who is an inspiration to myself and many others daily. And enjoy that glass of wine, lord knows you deserve it! πŸ™‚ <3