Breakfast

A Season of Loss

Good morning!

Thank you all again for your sweet comments and emails…it sort of seems like now I’m only kidding myself since most of you have managed to figure out what happened (its not hard to figure out I guess). I wasn’t ready to address it on the blog until now because, well, writing it sort of makes it “real”. But…well…..Ryan and I have ended our relationship. I’m obviously not getting into details because this is a very hard time for me, but in short, I’m living at my parent’s house right now but hope to be making a bigger move soon on my own. Right now I’m just focusing on myself and letting God take me where He wishes. Its truly been a season of loss over the past few months but I know without a doubt that God has a larger plan in mind and its way more awesome than I could even begin to fathom.

Whew! Glad that is said and done. Also, I didn’t make it outside on my run this morning because I was up until 12:45 doing blog-server related stuff. ELR will be moving servers again this week because, well, right now I am on Adam’s personal one and I really don’t want to kick his clients off for being too popular. πŸ˜‰ My big plan is to go to the gym later this morning, run on the treadmill and then take a long steam. Hehe

I wanted something different for breakfast this morning so I had a two egg omelet, Parisian style. And when I say Parisian style, I mean I cooked the egg in butter (gasp!!) and seasoned it only with a little salt. Rarely do the French put things like cheese in their omelets….simple is usually better!

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Plus Ezekiel toast with aprictot preserves and a juicy Costco plum! I swear the fruit at Costco is among the best fruit I’ve ever had….and so cheap! πŸ˜‰
See you in a bit!

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  • Holly
    August 6, 2009 at 7:50 am

    Aw, Jenna. My heart goes out to you. No matter the reason, of courses your heart hurts but like all things, with time it will heal and you will be stronger than ever before. You are such a beautiful woman who is rich beyond her years in life, love, and knowledge. You have an army of support behind you :o)

  • Emily @ The Experimentarian
    August 6, 2009 at 7:50 am

    Hugs to you Jenna! xoxo

  • Jennie in Wonderland
    August 6, 2009 at 7:51 am

    I hadn’t guessed, but I did wonder at the lack of news about Ryan. I’m so sad for you, Jenna, in the sense that you’ve been through SO MUCH already … but it almost seems like you’ve come through the fire and you’ll be ready for *anything*.

    I hope you’ll be ok; be gentle with yourself, eat what you want (not that you don’t already!) surround yourself with caring people, and remember there are blog readers all over the world that are supporting and encouraging you through everything. Like a big cheerleading troupe!!! πŸ˜‰

    Hugs, bella.
    xoxox

  • RunToFinish
    August 6, 2009 at 7:53 am

    I am really sorry to hear about you and ryan, those things are always tough…but you are an amazing woman who will find someone that better suits you and resilient enough to already have plans!

  • Sara
    August 6, 2009 at 7:55 am

    You can do it! Stay strong and know that there’s a bigger scheme of things: I once took a religion class that taught the “tapestry” concept — things may seem a mess on the ‘back,’ (our worldly side), but they’re perfect on His.

  • M
    August 6, 2009 at 7:56 am

    I’m so sorry, Jenna. πŸ™
    It will all work out for the best (so easy to say, isn’t it?), and whatever is meant to be will be. Hugs to you.

  • Simone
    August 6, 2009 at 7:57 am

    When it rains it pours! You are not alone in having a season of loss (actually for me it’s more like 3 years of loss but that’s another story). We all love you so dearly and you are right, God has something bigger and better planned for you and while right now it might seem as if life sucks, eventually after some time you will look back at the “big picture” and see that everything DID happen for a reason and be blessed to have experienced all that has made you the wonderful person you are today. I wish I could hug you in person but an air hug will just have to do. Remember: what goes around comes around. You are an awesome and caring woman and in time you are sure to be rewarded!

  • Laura's year in pictures
    August 6, 2009 at 7:58 am

    I am so sorry for all that you are going through. Even if it is for the best, the end of a relationship always sucks. There’s no better word for it. It just sucks. I hope that through the pain you can learn and grow and come out of this year filled with grace and peace. I wish you all the best and may God be with you during this time of hardship.

  • Jess
    August 6, 2009 at 7:58 am

    I hadn’t guessed but I noticed you weren’t talking about him very much. I hope you’re okay and that you just keep in mind everything will be okay! You’ll get through this because you’re strong and time heals all things! Hugs to you!

    That omelet looks amazing though – yum!

  • jessinnyc
    August 6, 2009 at 8:02 am

    Going through a big break up is no fun, especially when you have to announce it to the world. Stay strong and know that change is good, even if it hurts at first.

  • MarathonVal
    August 6, 2009 at 8:02 am

    I’m so sorry that you are going through this Jenna. We will all be here for you to support you, and I know you will triumph through this because you are a strong woman of character and in the end you will be just fine. But in the meantime, we will all be thinking of you!

  • Chaley
    August 6, 2009 at 8:02 am

    Sorry for all you are going through this year, but you are right…better things will be right around the corner. Hang in there. You are stronger than you think!

  • Katie
    August 6, 2009 at 8:04 am

    I’m so sorry for your loss! I know how it is when you are in denial about a relationship and keep putting on the bright face but it really isn’t working. The relief doesn’t make the loss any easier.
    *hugs*

  • Lara
    August 6, 2009 at 8:05 am

    Sorry about the break up. I had a hunch that is what your funk was about. Things happen for a reason, so cliche but true. You seem like a very strong person and way mature for your age so I know you will bounce back even stronger.

  • Errign
    August 6, 2009 at 8:05 am

    Hugs! The end of relationships are always tough, but you’re a strong woman and you will be fine :]

  • Juana
    August 6, 2009 at 8:06 am

    Jenna, Keep your head up. You can make it through anything with God. Plus, a season of loss has to be followed by a season of good things coming into your life, right?

  • Abby
    August 6, 2009 at 8:07 am

    Hi Jenna,
    I haven’t stopped in the blog for awhile, so I was unaware of the lack of Ryan info and had no idea. Even though you know it and even though everyone will tell you–it gets better.
    What feels like the end of the world (or just super crappy) eventually gets better. It might not go away, but new and wonderful things will come in and present themselves that may have otherwise stayed hidden.

    Chin up! Eat up! πŸ™‚

  • Lisa
    August 6, 2009 at 8:08 am

    Jenna,
    You are a strong beautiful woman! I am so sorry for the hard times you are going through. You show such grace and strenghth in handling life’s curve balls. You are an inspiration. All the best!

  • Julie
    August 6, 2009 at 8:08 am

    Jenna, I had a bad feeling that this is what was bothering you. I am so sorry. Ending a relationship is always tough, but sometimes it’s for the best. Whatever is meant to be will be and everything will be okay. Right now it sucks, but it will get better.

  • Courtney (The Hungry Yogini)
    August 6, 2009 at 8:09 am

    You are on the right path, my friend!!! Big things ahead, I know it =)

    Have a great Thursday!

  • Sarah
    August 6, 2009 at 8:11 am

    I am sorry for your loss. There are so many cliches people say when they hear about a break-up, none which provide any comfort. Be kind to yourself and allow yourself to feel all the emotions.

    The only way out is through.

  • tami
    August 6, 2009 at 8:12 am

    I am sorry you are having such heart ache this year, it hasn’t been a good year for many of my friends and relations. I hope that you can turn it all around and find what is best for you right now.

  • Vanessa (Last Night's Leftovers)
    August 6, 2009 at 8:12 am

    I am sorry to hear that your relationship has ended. Big *hugs* to you! You’re a fantastic, strong woman and I know you’ll get through this. It can only get better, right?

  • Megan (Runner's Kitchen)
    August 6, 2009 at 8:14 am

    I feel for you girl. My boyfriend is going to law school in another city (in 2 weeks) and we aren’t going to stay together. It’s very hard, but I guess the thing to remember is: every day it will get a little bit easier. Take the time to do things that make YOU happy: a glass of wine, dinner with your parents, yoga class, walk with a friend, cuddling with a furry animal. One day at a time πŸ™‚

  • Tammy (Defining Wellness)
    August 6, 2009 at 8:16 am

    Hi Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear about you and Ryan. I completely understand how difficult a break-up can be. Carter and I actually broke up several times before we ended up married . . . just food for thought. You never know where life is going to lead you. I understand the turmoil and the mixed emotions you are feeling, because after all, you did love this person for years. I hope your heart heals quickly. Thinking of you.

  • Recipes for Creativity
    August 6, 2009 at 8:16 am

    So sorry to hear this, Jenna, and my heart goes out to you like everyone’s does! That feeling of ending something that has meant so much to you is so heart-wrenching, but you are such an inspiration to us all and like you’ve said, God has a plan for you and you’re taking all the steps you need to. Hugs, sweetie.

  • Coco
    August 6, 2009 at 8:20 am

    Jenna I am so sorry to hear about your loss. You are a powerful, strong, beautiful woman and I know that everything will bounce back and life will lead you on an amazing new life adventure filled with love and new experiences. I wish you all the best and I know that great things are in store for you!!!
    PS: props for whippin out some real buttah!!!! Love and indulge in life!

  • Alison
    August 6, 2009 at 8:21 am

    Hi Jenna, I’m so sorry about your break-up. I know it isn’t easy but I also know that only good things will come your way!!

  • Daria (Summer of the CSAs)
    August 6, 2009 at 8:23 am

    I’m so sorry Jenna; breakups are a tough thing to go through. Be kind to yourself and take care!

  • Quinn
    August 6, 2009 at 8:24 am

    Ending relationships – especially long term ones – are never fun, but there is a lot of self-discovery that comes out of it, and I can’t help but think that there are a LOT of exciting things on the horizon for you my dear. Focus on you! And as a family member once told me after a bad breakup, “Men are like buses; there’s always another one coming.”

  • sirenjess
    August 6, 2009 at 8:25 am

    I’m so sorry Jenna. Take care of yourself. Breakups are hard but you’ll get through it. Everything happens for a reason. Stay strong and take care.

  • Kellie
    August 6, 2009 at 8:25 am

    “For I know the plans I have for you delcares the Lord…” Jeremiah 29:11
    Jenna, I’m a reader (not a commenter :0), but just wanted to encourage you.

  • Colleen
    August 6, 2009 at 8:26 am

    I’m so sorry about your break up! πŸ™ *Lots of love and hugs to you sweet Jenna!*

  • Little Black Dress
    August 6, 2009 at 8:27 am

    Lady,
    Honestly, I didn’t guess. I noticed he hadn’t been featured on the blog in a while but I figured things were just busy. WOW. I am so so so incredibly sorry for your loss. My god, you have been through so much in the past couple of months and I admire you so much for your strength and positivity. I know KNOW KNOW that God has something much more meaningful for you in the future. You are on the right path- I know times are so tough right now, but you have hundreds of women cheering you on and backing you up.

    Also, I am the queen of dealing with breakups, so if you EVER want to talk, please let me know. You know where to find me.

    Much love and support,
    Anna

  • runjen
    August 6, 2009 at 8:27 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry. That is so hard. You are such a strong, smart woman and will get through this. Big Hugs.

  • yali
    August 6, 2009 at 8:27 am

    Hopefully an exciting job in California awaits you!!!!

  • Meghan
    August 6, 2009 at 8:28 am

    Take your losses as an opportunity to be thankful for the great times you were able to experience (with your brother and Ryan) and surround yourself with friends and family while you heal. Also take this as an opportunity to do things you may not have done otherwise!

  • Mary (Food & Fun)
    August 6, 2009 at 8:29 am

    Jenna,
    I’m sorry to hear about you and Ryan. Stay strong and keep looking up! It can only get better from here. πŸ™‚

  • Justy2003
    August 6, 2009 at 8:29 am

    Sorry to hear about you and Ryan…I’m sure it’s tough, but you’re a strong woman and you’ll get through it. And the bigger move on your own…could this possibly be out to Cali?! Either way, I’m sure big things are in your future!

  • Lori
    August 6, 2009 at 8:30 am

    Sorry to hear about that. Ending relationships is hard, even when it is what has to happen.

  • Christie @ Quit Your Diet
    August 6, 2009 at 8:30 am

    I’m sorry you are having to go through so much. You are a bright, shining example of strong women and you will make it through this and come out even better on the other side. We are all rooting for you!

  • Mel
    August 6, 2009 at 8:32 am

    Hugs to you Jenna, breakups are super tough! But you’re a very strong woman and I’m sure that nothing but good will come from this.

  • Runeatrepeat
    August 6, 2009 at 8:33 am

    I am super sorry about the breakup. I know how hard it is and wouldn’t wish that on anyone. Hang in there. Keep praying.

  • Sarah
    August 6, 2009 at 8:34 am

    That’s what I was thinking it was too. But girl, you are so strong! We have seen you go through so much this year and here you are with confidence that things are going to get better. And they will!!

    God is with you always my dear and I will pray for you as you enter another chapter of your life πŸ™‚ Much love!

  • Emily (Healthy Fit Mama)
    August 6, 2009 at 8:34 am

    Hang in there! You’ll get through this. Perhaps this is just part of a bigger plan for you. πŸ™‚

  • Tania
    August 6, 2009 at 8:34 am

    Jenna, you’re a beautiful, beautiful girl, inside and out. You have a world of people wishing you the best. Just continue to follow your heart and you’ll see that it will lead you to a greater purpose. Listen to yourself and those instincts of yours!

  • katie
    August 6, 2009 at 8:42 am

    Jenna- I’m so sorry to hear that. I had no idea and for some reason assumed your funk had to do with a wine job in California…I wish it was that simple πŸ™‚ You still have managed to put on an upbeat face to the blog world which is admirable, but don’t be afraid to fall apart in private when you need to. Your readers sure do love and support you and will help you get through it, as will your reading, writing, running, and wonderful parents and real life friends. Best of luck to you πŸ™‚

  • Flan
    August 6, 2009 at 8:42 am

    Jenna, so sorry to hear about your break up. I know it is tough now but you are doing the right thing. Big things are headed your way, sometimes they just take time to reveal themselves. Stay strong!

  • Christin
    August 6, 2009 at 8:44 am

    My heart hurts for you, Jenna. I know this must be so hard. Just keep looking to Him. I will be praying for you. πŸ™‚

  • Nicole
    August 6, 2009 at 8:45 am

    Hang in there, Jenna! I’m sorry about all the losses you’ve faced these past couple months. I have no doubts that you will overcome all this and come out even stronger than before.

    <3

  • Catherine
    August 6, 2009 at 8:45 am

    I’m so sorry to hear about the breakup! You’re such a strong person, and you have the right attitude in focusing on yourself & following God’s plan. Hugs!

  • nicole h
    August 6, 2009 at 8:49 am

    im so sorry jenna, its always hard to end long term relashionship(sp) but you are such an amazing person so i know life has so much in store for you. just keep looking up.

  • Jenna
    August 6, 2009 at 8:49 am

    Sending lots of hugs your way.

  • blueberrybabe
    August 6, 2009 at 8:49 am

    in november i split with my boyfriend of seven years… if you need someone to talk to please email me. i know exactly how you feel- you are not alone. xo.

  • monica
    August 6, 2009 at 8:50 am

    “Its truly been a season of loss over the past few months but I know without a doubt that God has a larger plan in mind and its way more awesome than I could even begin to fathom.”

    You are an eloquent woman who has even found the β€˜right’ way to capture this. I am going to type this statement up and carry it with me. Sometimes it is really important to focus on the big picture, but so hard to do when you keep getting hit with rotten stuff. I know big things are coming your way! You are in our thoughts and prayers during this rocky time.

  • Alexandra
    August 6, 2009 at 8:50 am

    Jenna,
    I am just going through the same thing- ending a relationship after 4 years. It helps to know that other people are struggling and going through the same things. We have to be strong and trust that its the right thing. Know that your not alone in what your going through and that it will get better! P.S. I love reading your blog you are a huge inspiration.

  • Hannah Hawley
    August 6, 2009 at 8:51 am

    My heart goes out to you. I am sending lots of healing energy your way.

  • Tami
    August 6, 2009 at 8:54 am

    Jenna,

    Sorry to hear about the pain in your heart about this chapter in your life. My good thoughts and prayers go to you. You are an amazing woman with an amazing family and I know that you will find peace in your heart. Thanks for continuing to be an inspiration with your wisdom and your maturity…to someone almost 15 years older than you! πŸ˜‰

    Sending all my good vibes your way!

  • Lara (Thinspired)
    August 6, 2009 at 8:58 am

    Hugs to you, Jenna. This time will pass. There are big things ahead for you <3

  • earthybrit.wordpress.com
    August 6, 2009 at 8:59 am

    You been on this road for awhile, it had it’s bumps along the way, but it will come to a smoothe stretch. You are beautiful, smart, talented, and strong. I look up to you and wish one day to have such a insightful way of looking at life like you. I am truly sorry and I send you a giant hug with some murphygoode wine and chocolate. Keep your pretty face up and we all love and support you, you have big things instored for you, lovely things. xoxo b

  • Samantha
    August 6, 2009 at 8:59 am

    I agree with Quinn #30. Loss, especially big losses are sooo hard but they can come with a great chance to change things up and learn something new about yourself. You’re an incredible person and have a great support system in your blog. We all adore you and are here to listen if you need it. Take time to heal, don’t feel obligated. *hugs!*

  • Sue
    August 6, 2009 at 9:01 am

    i’m sorry to hear about you and ryan. everything happens for a reason and no matter how much it hurts you will be fine. i know you’re headed for bigger and better things, girl! keep doing what you’re doing. you’re an inspiration to a lot of us that read your blog, including me!

  • karla
    August 6, 2009 at 9:01 am

    wow, i never comment but i thought i should today…im so sorry.
    i just went through (or i am going through a break up)…my boyfriend and i lived together for 2 years and spent 6 months travelling around the world together and then he broke up with me.
    So…i dont know if that helps….but its been a month and i feel a thousand times better- im actually happy and excited about the future.
    You have been so strong with everything so im sure you will be okay, but let yourself be in pain and sad…its a part of human nature, a necessary emotion.
    I believe we loose a little piece of our heart with every person we date…but we gain so much that its hard not to let yourself fall in love again.
    big loving hug
    karla

  • Whitney
    August 6, 2009 at 9:02 am

    I’m so sorry Jenna. These things are never easy. My heart just hurts for you. I wish I could take some of it away, but I know it will take time. Have a good workout today!

  • Life's Too Short to Eat Fat Free Cheese
    August 6, 2009 at 9:02 am

    I’m so sorry to hear about you and Ryan. It’s definitely tough. My ex and I split after 2.5 years last fall, so I know how hard it must be. Hang in there!

  • Katrina (gluten free gidget)
    August 6, 2009 at 9:04 am

    Oh my gosh, you poor thing. Let me know if I can do anything. I make a mean pan of caramel brownies!

  • Shannon (The Daily Balance)
    August 6, 2009 at 9:04 am

    HUGS.

    As crazy as it may sound (and cliche!) just remember everything happens for a reason πŸ˜‰ Like you said, it’s in God’s hands, and I’m sure amazing things are planned for you, Jenna πŸ˜‰

  • Emily (A Nutritionist Eats)
    August 6, 2009 at 9:05 am

    Jenna, so sorry to hear about that. It sounds like you have such a great outlook on life in general which is so great to hear. Hugs to you πŸ™‚

  • Kim
    August 6, 2009 at 9:06 am

    Oh, honey… I know how hard it is, but it is SO AMAZING that, at your young age, you are already strong enough to recognize God’s bigger plan and do what is right for you (even if it means pain in the short-term.) Like you said, when the universe closes a door, it opens up a window, and I think we’re all just waiting for our fabulous Miss Jenna to take over the world πŸ˜‰

  • brandi
    August 6, 2009 at 9:07 am

    You’re right that there are seasons of everything, and it often feels like everything comes at the same time. The end of any relationship or period in your life is always tough, there is reason for everything and God does have plans that stretch far beyond what we can see in each moment. (((hugs)))

  • Sarah
    August 6, 2009 at 9:10 am

    I have no eloquent words to share, but I am sorry. It must be very hard for you. Especially because you chose to share it with all of us.

  • Paige
    August 6, 2009 at 9:11 am

    I’m sorry it didn’t work out with Ryan. Even if it’s for the better, the heart always hurts after ending a relationship or losing someone. *hugs* Focus on healing!

    On a lighter note, your breakfast looks mighty tasty.

  • Annie
    August 6, 2009 at 9:12 am

    Jenna,
    I’m really sorry to hear about you and Ryan. Whatever the reason for your break-up, it’s never easy. Time heals all wounds so you just have to ride it out. I’ll be sending positive energy your way!
    Annie

  • Foodie (Fab and Delicious Food)
    August 6, 2009 at 9:13 am

    Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear this. Please take care of yourself, and know that we are all here for you!

  • Lola
    August 6, 2009 at 9:13 am

    Man oh man, Jenna. What a turbulent few months you’ve had! Both good and bad. Here’s a favorite cliche: with crisis brings opportunity. You’re doing an incredible job keeping it together – still writing on the blog, eating normally, talking with friends and family, exercising, practicing your faith. I think it would be far too easy for me to just drop everything and endulge myself in my own self-pity fest. Just by continuing these seemingly small, simple things, you’re showing how strong and level-headed you are. You have an amazingly strong foundation and you haven’t let these rocky waters knock you down or uproot you and take with them down a destructive path. You’re an incredible woman and I feel happy to “know” you through the blog.

  • Karla
    August 6, 2009 at 9:16 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry to learn about you and Ryan breaking up. However, I know everything happens for a reason, and I am certain that there are nothing but wonderful things in your future. You are such an amazing person, and I get so much enjoyment (and have learned so much) reading your blog. Your updates are the highlights to my otherwise mundane work days. Take care of yourself!
    -Karla

  • Stepf
    August 6, 2009 at 9:17 am

    Jenna,
    I’m so sorry. I’ve been there, and it’s hard. You will get through it. You’re strong and capable. You’re also quite young, with endless opportunities ahead of you. Focus on your bright, bright future!
    xoxo
    Stepfanie

  • sarah
    August 6, 2009 at 9:18 am

    You definitely have the right outlook, but ending a relationship is never easy. Take care of yourself…sending good thoughts your way!

  • Clara
    August 6, 2009 at 9:18 am

    Dear Jenna,
    Even though a breakup may end up the best for both involved in the end longterm,a relationship ending involves a grieving period for sure.Thinking of you as you go through this,through both the sad gut wrenching moments of memories and to the highs and excitement of new chapters and paths that will open up to you.
    Wishingboth you and ryan the very best in your lives ,hope somehow it’s possible not to harbour to much pain between you both.
    I remember reading about Ryan being there all night for you and your brother when John passed. You both seem like wonderful people,and sometimes things are not meant to be but are still meant to have been part of our life’s paths and experiences.
    In the end, none of this is any of our business,but because you are part of our daily lives we feel a connection and a caring to you,your family and pets,and Ryan.
    We wish you all the most joyous of lives ahead.

  • Emily
    August 6, 2009 at 9:21 am

    Hi Jenna! I’m so sorry to hear about your relationship with Ryan but know that you need to follow your heart and take the time to heal. I know its strange because we’ve never met before, but I feel like I’m going to want to give you a big hug when we meet at the summit. Be ready for a squeeze. πŸ™‚

  • Nicole
    August 6, 2009 at 9:22 am

    You have such a wonderful attitude, I know you’ll come out ahead. The hardest part that I always felt about breaking up was that you know you’ll get over them someday, it’s just waiting for that day that seems so hard. Keep your head up. You’re beautiful and an inspiration!

  • Mara @ What's For Dinner?
    August 6, 2009 at 9:22 am

    hugs to you my dear… i know this is hard, but you’re right, everything happens for a reason, whether or not you know what that reason is right now

  • Allison
    August 6, 2009 at 9:23 am

    You are one tough cookie, and an inspiration to the 1000’s of women who read your blog. I am a true believer that everything happens for a reason, and that GREAT things are coming your way. **hugs**

  • kay (eating machine)
    August 6, 2009 at 9:23 am

    aww, i’m sorry Jenna! Sometimes it’s hard to see what exactly God is planning for us, as we’ve just got to trust that it really will work out, even when we don’t quite know how or why.
    On a happy note-omelets as a non breakfast food were one of my favorite discoveries when I went to France! An omelet with salad or frites for lunch was my go-to meal. Filling, and way more delicious than I expected.

  • Michelle @ Find Your Balance
    August 6, 2009 at 9:24 am

    Best of luck moving forward. When one door closes another one always opens!

  • Heather
    August 6, 2009 at 9:25 am

    God must have some BIG plans for you, Jenna! πŸ˜‰ Thinking of you!

  • Kristin @ Iowa Girl Eats
    August 6, 2009 at 9:25 am

    Ugh, I’m sorry Jenna. Breaking up is NEVER easy. You’re right though. He has a plan for you and would never give you more than you can bear. Things can only go up from here!

  • Pam (Highway to Health)
    August 6, 2009 at 9:28 am

    I’m so sorry.. What a tough time in your life. I’m thinking of you!!

  • Ashley
    August 6, 2009 at 9:28 am

    You know what they say and these may be my favorite words to live by.

    “Every end is a new beginning.”

    Keep your chin up girl. Your a fantastic person!

  • Allie
    August 6, 2009 at 9:30 am

    Jenna- you have so much support all around you from people who know you in person and in spirit. you are an admirable, strong woman with so much ahead of her, and it takes a lot of tears to find our way sometimes. we grow everyday, and sometimes we just can’t find the same direction to grow with a person we love, no matter how good they are. and that’s okay. take care of yourself.

  • Allie Katie
    August 6, 2009 at 9:30 am

    I am so sorry, Jenna. My prayers have been with you for the last few months, and I’m continuing to send them your way. Like I said in my email, just PROMISE us you won’t stop yoga-ing. It seems to make you so happy. If you stop yoga-ing you have a blog full of readers to answer to, and we will send the wrath :).
    xoxo

  • leslie
    August 6, 2009 at 9:33 am

    jenna, i am so sorry to read this, but i know that you are such a strong, fiery, and independent woman that you will get past this, and there will be many wonderful people and places in your future. i spent last weekend with my best fried, whose boyfriend of two and a half years ended their relationship. and the entire time, i told her, “you’re more than your relationship with him. you were you before him, and you are still you now.” independence can be scary, but challenges are good. you have your life and so much opportunity ahead of you, and eventually things will fall into their places. sending lots of hugs your way!

  • Leila
    August 6, 2009 at 9:34 am

    easy to say, hard to live, but I like to believe things do happen for a reason, including the terrible and hard to deal with. I think that once again, you’ve shown a strength and also the fact that someone can’t always be “the strong one.” Continue to believe Jenna and remember to rely on those who love you.

  • Katalina
    August 6, 2009 at 9:34 am

    My heart and my pry is for you today!!!
    When God close a door look around may be he left a lot of windows opened,for you to fly,to enjoy the freedom and to make better choices!

  • Clare
    August 6, 2009 at 9:35 am

    I am SO sorry, Jenna. Breakups can be devastating. One day at a time. I broke up with a boyfriend of 4 years in March, and I’ll be honest, it still sucks sometimes. Your girlfriends and family and blog world will get you through it though!

  • Megan
    August 6, 2009 at 9:36 am

    Jenna, I am so sorry to read this. But you will definitely get through it. You are such a strong woman. Know that everyone out here is pulling for you.
    Hugs. .

  • Angelea (Cabin Fever Feast)
    August 6, 2009 at 9:37 am

    Hugs, Jenna.

    The winds of change are definitely blowing in for you. It may feel like a hurricane right now, but I see wonderful things ahead for you. You can weather this storm!

  • Shelly
    August 6, 2009 at 9:39 am

    Oh, Jenna, I am so sorry for your pain. I hope it passes quickly and that there are many wonderful things waiting for you down the road. You’ve gone through so much and have been so incredibly strong- it’s amazing. I’ve been through some tough relationship stuff (that actually came on the heels of tough life stuff and tough job stuff b/c apparently my life decided I needed to build character all at once) in the past myself and I can tell you that if you use this as a springboard on to better things, your life will become wonderful in ways you couldn’t even have imagined. Good luck on this next step in your journey!

  • andmarie
    August 6, 2009 at 9:42 am

    I’m so sorry! Breakups suck! Sending good thoughts your way!

  • Still Life in South America
    August 6, 2009 at 9:46 am

    I’m sorry to hear about your break up, Jenna. I am amazed that you have so much going on with the Summit, returning from Cali, staying with your folks, exercising, business, and keeping up with the blog. You are a wonder, girl. Keep busy and surround yourself with friends. πŸ™‚

  • *Andrea*
    August 6, 2009 at 9:46 am

    so sorry jenna! breakups are hard πŸ™ glad that you have time to yourself though and can focus on YOUR needs and aspirations! you are AMAZING

  • Kristin
    August 6, 2009 at 9:49 am

    Oh my goodness I am so sorry to hear this! I know you guys just moved in together so this cannot be easy on you. I am sending good thoughts your way.

    Although I don’t know you personally, I know you have tons of great things going for you in your life right now. It is my firm belief that everything happens for a reason, and when one door closes another will surely open up for you!

  • Madelin @ What is for breakfast?
    August 6, 2009 at 9:49 am

    Hi Jenna
    What a tough year you have had. I have been reading your blog since early this year and am constantly amazed at your strength since your brother passed and now in dealing with the end of your relationship. As one reader said above, most of us would crumble into self pity but you are keeping up with your exercise and healthy eating and your positive attitude shines through to us. You are inspiring. Be sure to take more “breathers” when you need them and good luck for the future!

  • Kelsey
    August 6, 2009 at 9:50 am

    i’m so sorry jenna! i think everything happens for a reason, and with your strong faith in God, i know you will pull through this tough event and become stronger [even more than you already are!]. hang in there and know your blog friends are always there for you when you need a ‘shoulder’ to cry on!

  • Michelle
    August 6, 2009 at 9:50 am

    This is such a sad thing, and I’m sure it’s devastating to you. You are a strong, confident, talented, and beautiful woman, and you will find your path in life soon. GOOD LUCK Jenna, you can do this!! πŸ™‚

  • Newlywed Wife
    August 6, 2009 at 9:51 am

    Jenna,
    Hang in there – everything always seems the darkest just before the light comes! You have a wonderful outlook, and I’m sure great things will come!

  • Meredith (Pursuing Balance)
    August 6, 2009 at 9:53 am

    Hang in there! Everything happens for a reason, even if we can’t immediately see the purpose in it. You’re a strong woman, and I am sure that wonderful things in life await you! :hugs:

  • Deva
    August 6, 2009 at 9:53 am

    I hadn’t guessed, I’m sorry to hear this – you must be reeling from everything. You are a strong woman and you will get through this.

  • Chocolate Shoestrings
    August 6, 2009 at 9:54 am

    You are a brave woman Jenna. I admire your strength. Believe it or not, I am in a very similar situation, and do not have half the courage and grace you possess. I know bigger and better things are just around the corner. Focus on yourself now girl, and I promise life will take you to the most unpleasant of places before they take you to the most wonderful. Hang in there! I really admire your outlook!

  • AmyJoGo
    August 6, 2009 at 9:55 am

    I know it’s hard in every way imagineable.

    I’m praying for you now, that your heart will begin to mend, opportunities will begin to surface, you’ll have clarity of mind to make the decisions that need to be made, the finances to make ends meet, and that you’ll find peace knowing that God loves you, is looking out for you and won’t abandon you.

    *hugs*
    ~amy

  • Paige
    August 6, 2009 at 9:56 am

    Jenna,

    My heart breaks for you, as I went through a tough breakup at your age. I was totally devastated at the time, but God turned that season of loss into a time of reflection on HIM and I was stronger and better when i came out of it. (oh, and when the timing was perfect, I met the love of my life).

    Praying for you in Alabama!

  • Brittany
    August 6, 2009 at 9:56 am

    break ups suck.

  • Abbie
    August 6, 2009 at 9:58 am

    Hang in there sweetie! You are stronger than anyone I know and you will get through this hard time as well. Hugs to you!

  • misslabella
    August 6, 2009 at 10:00 am

    Jenna, I`m so sorry for you! But you are a strong woman and you come through it. Where a way ends, a new way also begins πŸ˜‰

  • Meggilizz--Meggie's Munchies
    August 6, 2009 at 10:00 am

    BIG HUGS to you Jenna!!!!!!!!! There’s a better plan for you in the works πŸ˜€

  • Heather @ Health, Happiness, and Hope
    August 6, 2009 at 10:01 am

    I’m so sorry to hear about all the stress you’ve been going through lately. You are such a strong woman, and I know you’ll make it through this difficult time and come to see the silver lining. Hope you have a great day! πŸ™‚

  • Danielle C.
    August 6, 2009 at 10:01 am

    Aww Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear this. I’m glad you have such a positive attitude and know that everything happens for a reason and that you will come out of this stronger than ever. Take it easy lady, we’re all out here for you if you need a kind ear.

  • Eve
    August 6, 2009 at 10:03 am

    I’m so sorry to hear about your breakup. Sometimes new beginnings are important, it sounds like you are doing what’s best for you right now. Make sure to take some time to do what makes you most happy right now.

  • Theresa
    August 6, 2009 at 10:04 am

    Hey Jenna, I read your blog every day, but rarely comment (but not for any particular reason!) and when you said yesterday “sometimes even when you know you made the right decision, the acceptance of it can be even more difficult than if you were wrong” I really felt this had something to do with your relationship…I knew JUST WHAT YOU MEANT!! I lived with my boyfriend for 4.5 years, with the plan being one day we would get married. We broke up 3 months ago, and it was very hard to have to pack up my life and move out, back to my parents, and find a new life for myself. As there was not one huge reason I left the relationship, it made it harder for me not to question it. However, I KNOW. Somewhere, deep in my heart and soul, I KNOW. Even if my brain doesn’t want to believe it. And, believe me, my brain and my heart have fought me. But I have had so much fun finding my way through these last few months!! Ups and downs, of course, but I truly believe you are a surviver and will get through anything. Especially when you have such a support system all around you! I’ll be checking in everyday and sending good thoughts your way!

  • Kristin P.
    August 6, 2009 at 10:04 am

    Hi Jenna,
    This is my first time commenting but I love your blog. I had a feeling that this was what you were referring to. I’m so sorry and all I can say is that at times I can’t see the bigger plan but I know that it is always greater than what I had planned for myself. Be gentle with yourself. Maybe you are starting a cycle of change. Best wishes πŸ™‚

  • Kelly
    August 6, 2009 at 10:04 am

    Jenna- I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason – you are strong, and you will get through this!

  • Amelia
    August 6, 2009 at 10:05 am

    I’m so sorry Jenna! I hope things will turn around for you soon. In the meantime all your readers are here for support.

  • Danielle
    August 6, 2009 at 10:06 am

    So sorry Jenna!
    It will get easier with time. You are such a strong positive inspriational woman!

  • Andee (Runtolive)
    August 6, 2009 at 10:07 am

    I’m so sorry about your breakup. Although cliche, time really does heal, I’ve learned many times from past relationships. You will come out stronger than you ever know. Hang in there

  • Brea
    August 6, 2009 at 10:09 am

    I can relate to the pain and heartache of loss in many different ways. Allow yourself to feel every emotion, that seems to work for me. My thoughts and prayers are with you!

  • Therese
    August 6, 2009 at 10:10 am

    Ugh girl I’m sorry this must be so hard. Sometimes life just pulls people in different directions. Better that you discover it now before you let a relationship that isn’t working hold you back from your dreams.

    I can’t imagine how hard it is having so many people privy to your personal life…you are such a strong lady!

    Hang in there. Like you said God has a plan for your you.
    “When you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans” πŸ™‚

  • HeatherBakes
    August 6, 2009 at 10:12 am

    Oh Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear about the breakup. But as so many of the comments have said (you have smart readers!), you are such a strong person and everything truly happens for a reason- though I know it still sucks at the time. I’ll be thinking of you!

  • Meg
    August 6, 2009 at 10:14 am

    Hugs to you! It has been a season of loss for you, but I truly believe that your faith has kept you strong! I totally respect your belief that God has a plan for you! There is a reason for everything…right?

  • Rose
    August 6, 2009 at 10:14 am

    My goodness… I’m really, really sorry to hear of this news. I will be keeping you in my thoughts – for sure.

    If there is anything I can ever do, please let me know. You’ve been going through such a rough time of it lately… I just wish I could help somehow…

  • Mary
    August 6, 2009 at 10:16 am

    I’m sorry to hear about your break up. You are always so positive (even on your off days). Sometimes, God has a plan for us and he just forgets to inform us:)

    Keep smiling!

  • Jessica
    August 6, 2009 at 10:16 am

    Wow Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear about your break up. I am once again amazed at your strength and courage in the face of loss. You really are an inspiration. In fact, you said this a while back on the blog and I kept it. At the time, it was just something that I thought was incredibly true and I wanted to remember it. Then, about 3 weeks ago I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years and I found this quote you said. I printed it and gosh, probably read it many many times a day that first week and I can’t even express to you how much it helped me and how much it encouraged me. You said – “There is no such thing as bad timing because God’s timing is always perfect. If you feel completely overwhelmed and wonder why all of this is on your shoulders and you can’t possibly go on, remember that God’s hand is always at work. There will often be a crisis that God uses to change our direction for what He has planned for us. And, I promise, what He has planned for us is always better than what WE have planned for us.” I keep telling myself that it is God’s will and there is a plan that he has for us that we can’t see and sometimes we can’t understand why we have to go through stuff, but one day it will all be clear, or not, but there is a reason for everything. I don’t know what happened between you and Ryan but I do know that you are a smart and strong woman and you will get through it. I look back on my life now and all of the big things that have happened, good or bad, really have happened for a reason and I would not be who I am today without them. I know that you will come out of this even stronger than you are now. I also really do believe that God has great and amazing things in store for you. Look to the future and all of the possibilities it holds – you can do ANYTHING! And even though most of us who read your blog have never met you or each other, we are all behind you 110%. And I know that no matter what anyone says to you, the hurt only gets better with time. The relationship I was in was not good for me but I was too in love, or atleast what I thought was love, to realize it and to get out. I know that it was only through God that I was able to finally end it. And these 3 weeks have been the hardest but the best weeks of my life. For the first time in a long time, I can focus on me and do what makes myself happy for a while. That may sound selfish to some people but everyone needs a little me time now and then. It still hurts and I still have my bad days but on most days, i’m just excited about what the future holds. I wish you the best!
    -Jessica

  • MMiller
    August 6, 2009 at 10:17 am

    Wow, Jenna, sorry you had to go through this, but you are right! When something is taken away it is preparing you to be available for something bigger! Glad you can begin talk about it! We are all here for you!

  • southern graces
    August 6, 2009 at 10:17 am

    Oh Jenna, I am sending hugs and prayers your way. I know how it feels to end a long term relationship. But, keep praying because God definitely has good things to come and it does all work out!
    You are such a bright girl and I know you will pop right out of this!
    I am loving that breakfast…simple egg omelet. Perfect, i bet?
    Happy Thursday!!!!

  • Traci
    August 6, 2009 at 10:19 am

    Jenna – Sorry these past few months have been so difficult for you. You are such an amazing, strong, talented, smart person who has so many great things ahead. I think of life as chapters in a book. You just finshed one chapter and the next will be even better! Try to fill your mind with thoughts of peace, courage, health and hope. It’s an exciting time for you to see whats next! All the best to you and hope you find your smile soon.

    AND as always I love reading your blog. You should be very proud of what you have created here!

  • Beth
    August 6, 2009 at 10:22 am

    I subscribe to your blog via my Google Reader, so I don’t often come over to comment, but I just want to say that I am sorry to hear about the end of your relationship. However, things do get easier..after my last breakup, I finally moved out on my own and discovered that living alone was a breath of fresh air. And while I was enjoying my own company I met the man who I’m now getting married to. So sometimes the best things happen when you make a big leap like this. Head up, things will get better :o)

  • meghan
    August 6, 2009 at 10:24 am

    thinking of you…i hope the tears and sadness will lead the way to happiness and knowing that everything happens for a reason.

  • Kate
    August 6, 2009 at 10:25 am

    Hi Jenna,

    Keep your head up — it is obvious that you are an extremely strong person. Break-ups are so hard……they say that people come into our lives for a reason and a season..and once we’ve learned all we can from these people, it is time for the relationship to end….and for us to move on …..opening ourselves up to the possibility of a new relationship with someone who has much to offer and teach us. This journey is never easy, but I can tell that you know that you will be where you’re supposed to be when all is said and done. Hugs, Kate:)

  • Deirdre
    August 6, 2009 at 10:27 am

    I’m so sorry Jenna. You are so brave to share this part of your life with us. I’m sure this is a horrible time for you but I’m sure it will get better.

  • MPP
    August 6, 2009 at 10:30 am

    Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear about this sad news. I will say an extra prayer for you today. It’s hard but you’ll get through it!

  • Rebekah
    August 6, 2009 at 10:32 am

    Just from reading your bog, Jenna, I think you are an amazing person. I think it must be hard because you have such a public life on the internet. It is great that you are so open though, when I was having troubles with my husband (boyfriend at the time) no one even knew because I couldn’t bring myself to talk to anyone about it. I hope everything works out as you wish.
    Take care,
    Rebekah

  • ~carolyn~
    August 6, 2009 at 10:32 am

    It must be hard to have to share so much with all of us. I do hope that in a way it is a little bit therapeutic for you. Take care of yourself and focus on that half marathon in San Francisco. It looks like I will be running it as well…any blog reader meet ups planned?

  • Denise (apple hill adventurer)
    August 6, 2009 at 10:33 am

    i am sorry to hear about your break up, if you ever need anyone to rant at, im here for you! feel free to shoot me an email anytime, even if its just to blow off some steam :p

    exercise helps with stress too, i am sure you are well aware πŸ™‚

    if you think costco has some of the best fruit ever, clearly you have never been to Apple Hill :p

    Have a great day jenna !
    ps – you deserve some butter every now and then :p

  • Jennifer
    August 6, 2009 at 10:35 am

    Sending good thoughts your way, life is never meant to be easy and we learn from our experiences and GROW! Now is your time to grow and I look forward to see what the future holds for you! Stay strong Jenna!

  • Kristilyn
    August 6, 2009 at 10:36 am

    Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear about you and Ryan. I never guessed that’s what was up and I know it must’ve been hard to share that with the blogging world. God always has a plan and I know He’ll be with you every step of the way. *HUGS* K

  • Ashley
    August 6, 2009 at 10:37 am

    Breakups are tough! And suck! I’m Sorry this happend. I have been there and I am sure a bunch of the ladies on here have too. I just cant imagine having the energy to blog while dealing with it. To me, you seem to know youself so well and know what you want and know you are going to get it someday. I am envious. There is something better out there for ya which is why this happend. Whether its another man or a fab job, I have no doubt that you will come out one top.
    Hang in there Jenna…..It just takes a little while to see the light.
    =)
    Ashley

  • katey
    August 6, 2009 at 10:38 am

    i am so sorry to hear about that. Stay strong girl & youll make it through

  • chandra h
    August 6, 2009 at 10:40 am

    jenna. I don’t comment that much, but I read your blog every day and I honestly feel like you are a friend. I guess I should comment more then, huh πŸ™‚ hehe.
    I am so, so sorry. I don’t know you personally, but my heart still aches for you and I wish I could help in some way. I’m just coming out of some rocky times in a relationship too and that feeling of loss that threatens to overtake you is HELL, and I am so so sorry for what you are going through. your faith in God is so inspiring. keep writing. you’re amazing.

    ♥,
    chandra

  • Diane
    August 6, 2009 at 10:41 am

    Jenna – I had a feeling that it had to do with your relationship and I just wanted to say how sorry I am. I know how difficult that is, from personal experience, and I’m a lot older than you so I can say that even though it is heartbreaking and hard right now you will be fine – you are strong and have a good head on your shoulders. Take some time for yourself – you deserve it.

  • anabel
    August 6, 2009 at 10:41 am

    straight up you’re one of the strongest people i know

  • kirsten
    August 6, 2009 at 10:42 am

    Sorry to hear that Jenna, I hope you are doing okay!!

  • Sheri
    August 6, 2009 at 10:45 am

    Jenna, so sorry to hear about your breakup. They are never easy and it is tough. Hang in there girl and take care of yourself!

  • Becci L.
    August 6, 2009 at 10:47 am

    I was actually just thinking that you hadn’t mentioned the BF in awhile! I’m sorry!! I”ll be thinkng of you!!!

  • M
    August 6, 2009 at 10:50 am

    Hi Jenna, I’m a long time reader but I’ve only commented a couple times. I just wanted to say that as hard as this time may be, do not doubt yourself or your decisions. You are clearly such a strong vibrant person, good things will come your way. It’s always difficult when relationships end, even when it’s the right decision. But remember this old adage, I find it helps everything: This too shall pass.

    xoxo

  • Kailey (SnackFace)
    August 6, 2009 at 10:52 am

    Jenna! I am so incredibly sorry. Your strength always amazes me, and you seem to be still with what’s going on in your life right now, knowing that it’s only going to get better and that God has enormous plans for you. I have no idea how you do it, but you are a complete and total inspiration. You will get through this, which you already know. I wish I could be there to give you huge hugs!

  • K
    August 6, 2009 at 10:52 am

    Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear this! I’m sending you plenty of support and well wishes πŸ™‚

  • Amy
    August 6, 2009 at 10:53 am

    Jenna i am so sorry you are having so much loss lately-i hope your spirit remains intact and you remember to keep smiling at the good times.

  • Laura W
    August 6, 2009 at 10:56 am

    Jenna, I just can’t help but believe that there are so many new & exciting things in store for you. I’m sorry that you’re going through a tough break-up with Ryan right now. You guys really seem to have learned a lot from each other, and who knows, maybe things will come full circle in the future. It just seems like now is your time– like, you’re so close to an exciting new job, or moving to a new place, or something like that! And whatever it is that comes your way next, just know that we’ll all be here for you. πŸ™‚

  • Nancy Woodbury
    August 6, 2009 at 10:57 am

    I so hope you can take some comfort in seeing how much love and support you have from many people you have probably never even met . . . you are such a strong woman and there are great things in store for you, I just know it.

  • Kara
    August 6, 2009 at 11:02 am

    Jenna,
    I am so sorry for everything going on with you. I’m actually trying to summon the strength to end a 4 year relationship right now… it really sucks. I seriously love him and he is such a huge part of my life, but I know in my heart it won’t work out in the end (or at least I won’t be happy). I keep planning to end it, but am so scared that I will be making a huge mistake and that I will end up alone. It seems selfish, I know, but it’s SO scary. He has become such a huge part of me.
    Anyway, I will be using you as a source of courage in this endeavor. I’m hoping that by seeing you bounce back and move on, I can finally see that this is possible for me too. So for my sake (and mostly for yours), please prove that the post-break-up life gets better! Thank you for being a wonderful example and inspiration of a strong, independent woman. I seriously think of you when I’m faced with difficult decisions and times and what you would do in the situation. You have changed my life… all of our lives.
    Sending hugs and well wishes! You’ve got this, girl!
    (Run to this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n6r4KT8-VX0)

  • Krissy - Single Serving
    August 6, 2009 at 11:05 am

    Jenna – Wow. What a tumultuous year you’ve had! I hope and wish for the best for you – whatever comes next.

  • Bree
    August 6, 2009 at 11:05 am

    Hi Jenna,
    I am sorry to hear this, but as so many others have said it does get better, one day at a time. Take care of yourself.

  • Rachel in NC
    August 6, 2009 at 11:06 am

    I’m sorry to hear this, Jenna, but you’ll make it through! πŸ™‚

  • Heather
    August 6, 2009 at 11:06 am

    I am so sorry to hear about you and Ryan. I do find that everything happens for a reason (so cliche) and you will come out of this even stronger. Things will get better – take the time to relax and heal yourself – you will learn you are stronger then you ever imagined.

  • rachel
    August 6, 2009 at 11:09 am

    Oh Jenna I am so sorry! I went through a very difficult break up at the beginning of the year (we had been together for 5 1/2 years) and even though I knew it was the right thing it was so hard. BUT it’s been six months, I am so excited about the new life I’ve made for myself, and I am so much happier on my own than I was in the wrong relationship. You are so strong and talented and I can’t wait to see what is next for you! Take good care of yourself and good luck!

  • Jo
    August 6, 2009 at 11:10 am

    Keep your chin up Jenna!! Everything really does happen for a reason. I am sure you will look back on this time a few years from now and think how crazy it is that all of these tumultuous times led you to something great!

    And I think ice cream will help too πŸ˜‰

  • Katie
    August 6, 2009 at 11:14 am

    Oh Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear that. These things are never easy to deal with, but you’ll persevere because you are so strong. And like you said, God DOES have a bigger plan for you that will surpass all the hardships. You just gotta wait for it (which can be annoying-but hey that’s life, right?) In the meantime, please take care and keep your head up:)

  • Bev
    August 6, 2009 at 11:14 am

    God does work in mysterious was. You have so much support from your family and your blogger family. It will only make you stronger πŸ™‚

  • Amanda
    August 6, 2009 at 11:16 am

    Oh Jenna, I am so sorry that this has happened. I know that this big change must be terribly hard to deal with, but like you said, sometimes God’s plans are bigger than we can understand. Although I have never met you, it is obvious that you have SO much to give, and I don’t doubt that you will make a huge impact (even more than you already have) on many people’s lives. Lucky for us, we are still young! Take this time to be selfish and do everything that you want to do!! All of us readers are right behind you πŸ™‚

  • Donna
    August 6, 2009 at 11:18 am

    Hi Jenna-

    Sorry and hugs. Break ups are so hard, change is difficult. I hope you find peace in beliveing tha God has a plan for you. I know months or a year from now you will lookback and realize you are where you are meant to be. Your a beautiful soul and deserve the best. Keep your chin up girl!

    Hugs,
    Donna

  • Gina G
    August 6, 2009 at 11:18 am

    hey jenna! as you can see from all the comments, we all adore you and are behind you all the way! i know you have heard this endless of times, but we all have so much faith in you, we know that you have so many good things ahead of you that it is unbelivable! as a commenter said before, i feel like your a good friend of mine because no matter what happens, you always put on a bright front for everyone, even though we dont ask you to, thats how wonderful you are. you truly are amazing jenna, and are gonna have the world on it heels, ready or not it better be ready to watch out because you are going to conquer it and be so happy! =D were all here for you!

  • Sarah
    August 6, 2009 at 11:19 am

    Jenna,

    Lots of hugs and healing thoughts your way. A breakup is one of the worst feelings, but I am sure that this will lead you to bigger and better things, and hope that you find peace with the decision. Take care of yourself!

  • Shelly
    August 6, 2009 at 11:22 am

    You are an amazing and strong woman! I love reading your blog. Many happy memories await you on your journey πŸ™‚

  • Michelle
    August 6, 2009 at 11:24 am

    Jenna….hugs.

  • Holly
    August 6, 2009 at 11:26 am

    oh miss jenna…i am so sorry to hear that. your heart must be hurting, but yes, please know there are great things in store for you. you have had quite a year, but you just never know what is around the corner.

    dwell in possibility my dear, and if all else fails, go hang out with ben & jerry. they are really good listeners πŸ™‚

    xo
    holly

  • Linda
    August 6, 2009 at 11:31 am

    You amaze me. It’s really that simple and I get so much inspiration from you. Let yourself grieve and be kind to you. I had no idea that’s what was going on but I am so sorry. You have been in my thoughts so much since your brothers death and I love reading your posts everyday. Your life took a complete 180 after the loss of your brother and who knows what is coming up now? I think that is what life is all about. We go through these things to get us going in a different direction, or a better one for ourselves. It’s all a lesson and everything really does happen for a reason.

  • Fattie Fatterton
    August 6, 2009 at 11:32 am

    Okay, I’m a moron because I didn’t figure it out earlier. I am so sorry. Take your time to heal.

  • magicanderson
    August 6, 2009 at 11:36 am

    Sometimes, when it rains, it pours! It will get better! So many people are rooting for ya! Take some time to take care of YOU! Lots of hugs!
    ~Lisa

  • Fancy
    August 6, 2009 at 11:42 am

    Oh Jenna…we have all been there and it SUCKS. I promise you will feel better soon…

  • KatieF
    August 6, 2009 at 11:44 am

    Hugs to you Jenna during this difficult time. I hope for the best for both you and Ryan. You’re going to make it through this and you will be a stronger person for it.

  • Sarah
    August 6, 2009 at 11:45 am

    Oh goodness, I’m so sorry to hear all of this! You’ve come through so much this year and I’m sorry you have to go through this as well. Lots of prayers coming your way girl!

  • Lauren
    August 6, 2009 at 11:45 am

    Peace and stay strong, Jenna. Ending a relationship is always hard, but you will get through this with strength, grace, and poise. Take care.

  • Tammy
    August 6, 2009 at 11:45 am

    Jenna,
    If it was YOU that made the decision to break up,
    Good Job!
    If it was HIM that made the decision to break up,
    He is a loser!
    Just kidding!
    (I wanted to make you smile)

    Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

    YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS!

  • Brooke
    August 6, 2009 at 11:48 am

    Hi Jenna,
    I have only commented once before, but I read your blog every day. I have been through a very similar experience recently. My mom passed away from a long battle with cancer, and about 6 months later my relationship with my long time boyfriend ended too. Its been almost 4 months since the breakup, and I am SO much stronger and happier than I was before. I discovered things about myself that I never knew, and I realized just how strong I really am. I am very happy with myself now, and I know that you will find even more strength then you already have. I truly believe everything happens for a reason. I have no idea what happened with Ryan, but I know that you will get through it and you will be better because of it!

  • Cmath
    August 6, 2009 at 11:51 am

    Jenna-

    I cannot help but to write to you today and send some support your way. Your strength and faithfulness will lead you through this time of trial and into a brighter future. As someone who has felt alot of pain and loss this summer, I know how difficult it sometimes is to stay positive, but your attitude is more than half the battle. My mom always tells me that God never gives more than He knows we can handle- I find it comforting (and I hope you do too!) that God knows that my inner strength is even greater than my human body realizes. God bless you, Jenna!

  • Lindsay
    August 6, 2009 at 11:53 am

    Jenna, my heart goes out to you. Sometimes life seems so unfair, and it’s all you can do to just keep on going. But you ALWAYS do, and I have so much admiration for you. Thank you for opening your life up to all of us, and showing us what it means to be a truly strong woman.

  • Ali
    August 6, 2009 at 11:54 am

    i’m so sorry to hear you’re going through a rough time right now. my heart goes out to you and i will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. thank you for still keeping up with the blog in the midst of all of this. take care and i hope you feel better soon! we’re all here for you!

  • carla
    August 6, 2009 at 11:55 am

    hey jenna,

    i rarely comment on your blog (which i read religiously) but just wanted to say that, even though i imagine the past few months have seemed unbearable, God has wonderful things in store for such an amazing person as yourself. keep your faith strong!
    besos y abrazos.

  • Nikita
    August 6, 2009 at 11:55 am

    hi jenna. I read your blog everyday but rarely comment. I’m so sorry to hear about this. You have your blog friends with you all the way! We all love you and are praying for you.

  • Erica
    August 6, 2009 at 12:01 pm

    I hope one of my favorite quotes from the Sound of Music will give you a lift today —
    “when the Lord closes a door somewhere he opens a window”
    Things will get better and you have so many blogger pals giving you virtual hugs during this sad time.

  • Alyssa
    August 6, 2009 at 12:02 pm

    I hope things ended for you and Ryan as best they could πŸ™‚ You’ll bounce back, just take your time to work things out and find your place. We’re all here for you! πŸ™‚

  • Allison
    August 6, 2009 at 12:05 pm

    Hi Jenna!

    Like many others have said, I read your blog everyday but have never commented. I have been reading your blog for some time now and I think you are absolutely amazing. You are a beautiful, talented person who although I don’t know you personally, I feel you are going to do great things in your life. Like you said, God does have His plans and although at times I want to say “God, your plans suck” they do not and He does have His reasons. πŸ™‚ You are in my thoughts and prayers. Keep smiling!

  • Bree
    August 6, 2009 at 12:07 pm

    Sorry to hear about your sad news. You are right, God does have a plan even though sometimes its hard to see why things happen at the time. Hang in there!

  • Erin
    August 6, 2009 at 12:08 pm

    (((hugs)))
    Take time for JUST you whenever you need. You don’t owe the blog world anything. I wish you peace and calm thru this.

  • Adria
    August 6, 2009 at 12:08 pm

    One verse that has really helped guide me through the extremely tough times in my life is “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” Matthew 11:28 (NIV) This verse always reminds me that even though others let me down, there is One who won’t- not in a million years/eternity.

  • Maria
    August 6, 2009 at 12:11 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear about the breakup. However, like you said, God does have greater plans for you, and I know that you will be able to make it through this as an even better person (is that even possible πŸ˜‰ )!! Hugs!!!

  • Cecilia
    August 6, 2009 at 12:14 pm

    Many many hugs your way …. you will get through this with God’s grace.

  • Susan
    August 6, 2009 at 12:14 pm

    I hesitate to say “sorry,” because I’m confident you and Ryan made the best decision you could. I do want to say that I hope nothing but positive things start coming your way, and that you move from this relationship a better person than when you started πŸ™‚

  • Gina
    August 6, 2009 at 12:21 pm

    You needed to do what was best for you. So I wish you the best of luck in finding your path again! Everything happens for a reason, and just know that you have hundreds of people behind you, supporting you πŸ™‚

  • Mindy
    August 6, 2009 at 12:21 pm

    When I read today’s blog post, the first thing that went through my mind was “*gasp!* noo!” lol, like some other blog readers I hadn’t guessed this was what was going on.. although I did notice you spending a lot of time at your parent’s house. That’s one good thing about living so close to your parents.. it’s a great place to escape to (or hide out?).. My heart goes out to you, breaking up with someone is a very painful experience, especially after you’ve been with him/her for so long.. but the pain makes you stronger and (as other blog readers have noted), time heals all.. I appreciate you sharing this news with us (the whole world? lol). We’re all here for you, Jenna. **HUGS**

  • Mindy
    August 6, 2009 at 12:22 pm

    PS. I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason.. hang in there!

  • lena
    August 6, 2009 at 12:24 pm

    Hey Jenna, kinda thought something like along those lines the past few days but didn’t dare say anything. Just, am sorry to hear about it. It must be really tough after all that you have gone through. I guess everything that happens, is for a purpose and a reason, His ways are greater than man’s AND you are a great, strong and wonderful person, somewhere, there’s a wonderful someone out there, just for you. behind you all the way! you are not alone! take care. Hugs!

  • Melissa G
    August 6, 2009 at 12:25 pm

    I feel your pain as you navigate through the heartbreak you must be feeling. I, too, ended a very substantial relationship a few years ago that I thought was the love of my life. I was crushed and the thought of the time if would take to heal was very daunting. Take your time with yourself and relearn what it is that you love about yourself. (Not that you every lost that!) Looking back now (4 years later), the reasons why it happened are crystal clear and I am so happy with my life. I offer you hugs and the strength to sort through all of the tough stuff, as I know you are going to move mountains, girl!

  • Savannah
    August 6, 2009 at 12:29 pm

    Hugs to you. God has a plan for you, and I’m sure this is one step towards leading you to where you’ll be happiest.

  • britt
    August 6, 2009 at 12:31 pm

    i’m so sorry to hear that. my heart sank when i read that and it made me realize how 2 years of following your blog has made you a part of me (not in a weird way). trust in yourself that you made the right decision. even “right” decisions are hard to come to terms with. losing someone in your life, as you know, is very hard, regardless of how you lost them. take care! you are in my prayers.

  • Kristie
    August 6, 2009 at 12:32 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear that Jenna. You’re an AMAZING person and you’ve got an enviable and unbeatably strong, positive attitude and personality. Keep your head up and keep on smiling as best you can. I have no doubt things will turn around and work out for you in no time.
    HUG

  • Angharad
    August 6, 2009 at 12:37 pm

    Oh gosh, I’m so sorry to hear about this! Break ups are so hard. There is no better word. It’s just…hard. Do what you need to to get through it and remember to take lots of time for yourself! Indulge in that Murphy Goode lady πŸ™‚

  • Brooke
    August 6, 2009 at 12:40 pm

    I’m sorry. I believe in what you said about a bigger plan. Pain will be eased over time and it sounds as if deep down you felt it was the right decision so it was! Turn all your energy to yourself right now and know how many people care about you in your “real” life and the blog world.
    B

  • Andrea (Fit Healthy Fun)
    August 6, 2009 at 12:44 pm

    Sorry to hear it, Jenna. This must be a very hard time for you. Focusing on you is the right move! Everything happens for a reason and when one door closes, another will open!

  • Kristin
    August 6, 2009 at 1:02 pm

    Lots of hugs to you, Jenna! You’re absolutely right, God has a plan for you, and you may not get where it’s going right now but it’ll become clearer over time. πŸ™‚

  • Darcie
    August 6, 2009 at 1:09 pm

    I’m so sorry, Jenna. Probably not something you want to hear from a complete stranger, but I feel for you. I had a four-year relationship end last September, and I hated when people told me this, but it really does get better. I’m so much happier now.

  • Beth @ CrossBorderCravings
    August 6, 2009 at 1:11 pm

    I was so shocked to read that! I’m sorry to hear the news. I’m sure there are good reasons and you made the right decision in the end. Hope you feel much better soon! :O)

  • Allison K.
    August 6, 2009 at 1:18 pm

    I didn’t guess either. My heart goes out to you! Keep your head up. And whoever quoted Jeremiah 29:11 in the above comments was totally right. God does have plans for you, plans to give you a hope and future! Always reckon back to that!

  • Julia
    August 6, 2009 at 1:18 pm

    I’m so sorry Jenna. I actually think it is a huge blessing for you to be able to read such kind words on your blog in response to the recent change in your life. I’m going through a similar situation — not sure what the outcome will be yet — and it is just so hard to know when you are making the right decision. But, as always, you come to a point where you know what to do and it seems you have. Trust your heart and lean on your family and friends; focus on what makes YOU happy and fulfilled and content at this point in your life.

    I’m think that you are an Elizabeth Gilbert fan (and if you aren’t, I’ll honestly be shocked b/c she seems right up your alley!) — here are some of her quotes (from Eat Pray Love and other writings) that might be beneficial to you right now:

    “The only thing more unthinkable than leaving was staying; the only thing more impossible than staying was leaving. I didn’t want to destroy anything or anybody. I just wanted to slip quietly out the back door, without causing any fuss or consequences, and then not stop running until I reached Greenland.”

    “When I get lonely these days, I think: So BE lonely, Liz. Learn your way around loneliness. Make a map of it. Sit with it, for once in your life. Welcome to the human experience. But never again use another person’s body or emotions as a scratching post for your own unfulfilled yearnings.”

    “People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. A soul mate’s purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life…”

    **And the best one, I think:**
    “And I never knew at that age, in my 20s, that “I don’t know” is actually a legitimate answer that you’re allowed to say. You’re allowed to say, I don’t know, and you’re allowed to ask for as much time as you need until you do know. And if somebody doesn’t wanna give you that time, they’re allowed to leave. But you’re allowed to sit with your I don’t know. And I never sat with it because it was uncomfortable. Nobody likes that place. And so I always said yes. Oh, sure. Let’s move in together, let’s get married, let’s buy a house, let’s do all this stuff that I was sort of half yes, half no.”

    Obviously the reason behind your split with Ryan is yours alone, to be kept private as it should be. Maybe there isn’t even a specific reason, and that is ok too. It is your life; all you can do is make decisions that you think are best for you based on the information you have and how you feel. No regrets πŸ™‚

    Ok, sorry to take up so much space but I just think you are an incredible person who has experienced a lot this year — good and bad — and I wish you the very best!

    Julia

  • Kim
    August 6, 2009 at 1:24 pm

    Hi Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear about what happened! I went through a similar situation earlier this year, and I know how much it can hurt. So glad you have a community of people around you supporting you. You’re clearly a very strong woman, and yes, you’re absolutely right that God never puts more on us than we can take. My heart and prayers go out to you.

  • Marissa
    August 6, 2009 at 1:25 pm

    Sending hugs your way!!

  • Katie
    August 6, 2009 at 1:27 pm

    Thinking of you, Jenna.

  • Raya
    August 6, 2009 at 1:35 pm

    I know 200+ people have commented before me and this may not stand out-and I also have no idea what exactly happened between you and Ryan-but for what it’s worth, it seems your outlook on life and your goals have changed drastically in the past few months since your brother’s passing. It’s human nature to expect that the people closest to us will change right along with us, although unfortunately that is rarely the case. I believe at certain points, the path we are on is not made for two. Five days ago I just ended a one year relationship (also w/ someone named Ryan, ironically) because the circumstances were not making ME happy. I know without a doubt that I did the right thing, at least for the moment, but it still hurts and I still love him. However, knowing that I did the right thing is of little comfort and yet I find myself clinging to that fact to get me through the day. Anyways, I’ve been down this road before (as I’m sure you have too), and I know it only gets easier with every day that passes. Hang in there πŸ™‚

    <3 Raya @ RayaRuns.Com

  • Gloria
    August 6, 2009 at 1:40 pm

    Hi Jenna, I’m so sorry and I know all too well about how hard this is. I was so sad when I read what happened and I’ve been thinking about it all day. Surround yourself with all the people who love you and keep doing all the amazing things that you do! On a lighter note.. eggs+butter=heaven πŸ™‚

  • Diane, Fit to the Finish
    August 6, 2009 at 1:42 pm

    Sorry about your relationship. That’s always hard. Stay strong, and keep making those fabulous dishes!

  • Abbey
    August 6, 2009 at 1:43 pm

    Im so very sorry Jenna. Just know that you always have your readers who will support you through thick and thin! Your positive attitude is a true inspiration to many people, including myself.

    When one doors closes, another opens.

  • Amy
    August 6, 2009 at 1:47 pm

    Jenna, I am so sorry that you are going through this right now. Stay strong and hang in there.

  • Kristi
    August 6, 2009 at 1:57 pm

    Thinking of you πŸ™‚

  • kelly
    August 6, 2009 at 1:58 pm

    I assumed you were in a funk because of the job in California. I’m so sorry about you and Ryan breaking up. Take good care of yourself through this!!!

  • Kate
    August 6, 2009 at 2:12 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear about your break up πŸ™ Stay true to yourself, I know your positivity will surely get you through this… and some ice cream probably won’t hurt either πŸ™‚ And when you’re feeling down look back to this post and see that as of 2:10pm EST 222 complete strangers care enough about you to stop by and cheer you up! How amazing does that make you!? πŸ™‚
    Take Care,
    Kate

  • ModelBehavior
    August 6, 2009 at 2:17 pm

    Break ups are the worst, even when they are for the best! Hang in there!

  • Ryane
    August 6, 2009 at 2:29 pm

    HUGE hugs your way! These things are never easy but like you are by very well aware of (!!!), one day it won’t hurt and you’ll actually feel better. In the meantime, you’ve got your parents, your friends, running, yummy food and wine and all of your readers to help!

    PS. The boys in Boston are wayyyyyyy cuuuuuuuute ; )

  • Kathleen
    August 6, 2009 at 2:46 pm

    I’m headed to Napa in the next couple of days and will be thinking about you. Hugs are being sent your way from NorCal.

  • Jessica
    August 6, 2009 at 3:00 pm

    Wow honey, I had no idea what was going on! I am so sorry! I was down the other day because my boyfriend and I were fighting and I was afraid things would end but there was no real reason … just stupid stuff, you know? I am really sorry that your problem ended up that way though!
    Just remember: you are a strong, GORGEOUS, independent woman and I hope that you never forget that!
    *hugs times a thousand*
    -muffy

  • Katie
    August 6, 2009 at 3:01 pm

    Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear about you and Ryan. I know you’ve been through so much pain in the last few months, but I truely believe that God is setting you up for something so great. Thank you for sharing your struggles with us, I know it must be so difficult, but you are so brave. Keep your chin up and keep smiling. We all love you and support you 100%!

  • Rebeca
    August 6, 2009 at 3:07 pm

    Jenna,

    I’m so sorry but you have such a beautiful attitude… God does have an amazing plan for you life. You bring so much light and encouragement to mine and countless others. God is doing and will continue to do wonderful things with your life because of your willingness to let him.

    Thanks!

  • Angelina
    August 6, 2009 at 3:08 pm

    You have been through so much this year….I am always amazed at your strength.
    Tons of positive thoughts and blessings to you.

  • Judy
    August 6, 2009 at 3:10 pm

    Jenna, I too had a strong feeling that this was what was troubling you. I am so very sorry for you. It is so important that you end up with The One and that you never allow yourself to settle because you or anyone else thinks that it what you should do. You’ll see, as trite as this sounds, it will be for the best.{hug}

  • Tay
    August 6, 2009 at 3:19 pm

    Jenna – my deepest apologies. I can’t imagine how hard it must be right now, but it must be for the best. You’ll move on and become stronger. Stay strong now and God IS with you πŸ™‚

    PS: Drown any sorrows you have in Costco’s AMAZING fruit. Yes, it is the best ever!

  • Sammie
    August 6, 2009 at 3:44 pm

    Jenna,
    I am sorry to hear about your breakup. You seem like such a strong and independent woman – I have no doubt that you will make it through this tough time. You are amazing!!! Sending you lots of bloggie hugs my friend.

  • Sarah
    August 6, 2009 at 3:47 pm

    It must be really hard to share something so personal and full of hurt with everyone, but it also must be so wonderful to know that you have so many people who care about you and wish well for you! Good luck and stay positive!

  • Suzanne
    August 6, 2009 at 4:26 pm

    I’m so sorry that you’re going through this. I think it’s great that you’re making sure to take care of yourself right now – whether it’s a much needed cry, a run, cooking, or eating. You WILL get through this and you have a lot of support, which definitely helps!

  • Danielle
    August 6, 2009 at 4:29 pm

    I’m sorry to be coming to this late, but I also wanted to offer my support through your break-up with Ryan. Whatever the reason that you decided to end your relationship, I’m so glad that you are really focusing on God’s role in it and trying to understand that He truly has something amazing planned for you.

    Sending super big hugs and lots of virtual chocolate your way!

  • Michele
    August 6, 2009 at 4:38 pm

    To quote Flight of the Conchords: “Jenna, you’ve got it going on.”
    Keep your chin up!

  • jane
    August 6, 2009 at 4:49 pm

    so weird- my boyfriend of two years and i just broke up this week too. it’s hard! let me know if i can help you at all πŸ™‚

  • Ally
    August 6, 2009 at 4:57 pm

    I had guessed that was what you were going to say and I’m so sorry. It’s really hard to end a long term relationship no matter what the reasons and no matter how prepared you think you are to leave. Hang in there, you will be feeling better soon!

  • Rebecca
    August 6, 2009 at 5:07 pm

    Aw Jenna, I had a feeling that’s what happened but I have total confidence that you will be ok on your own. Just the fact that you’re still blogging shows that! And you know your readers will support you 100%!

  • Nath
    August 6, 2009 at 5:08 pm

    *Hugs* – you’ll get through this!

  • kathleen
    August 6, 2009 at 5:12 pm

    jenna-
    the end of a relationship is painful and all consuming, but you will make it through the pain. on the other side of the relationship is a brand new life-waiting and wanting you to take hold of it. hugs hugs hugs (and jellybeans) during this tough time.

  • Kate
    August 6, 2009 at 5:40 pm

    Jen,

    This must be a really crappy time for you, and I’m so sorry. Remember, we’ve all been through loss and we all will go through it in the future. Most importantly, we all GET THROUGH loss. This happened for a reason, and you will be better for it.

  • ht
    August 6, 2009 at 6:05 pm

    Hey Jenna,
    Just remember… good or bad… LIFE GOES ON.

  • Natalie M.
    August 6, 2009 at 6:15 pm

    Jenna,

    Back in January I ended a five year relationship with my boyfriend… it was tough… even harder to still “be friends” but I made it through and everything happens for a reason. You’re in my thoughts.. you’ll get through it all… God does not give us more than we can handle πŸ˜‰

  • Dawn
    August 6, 2009 at 6:24 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear this. Even when things like this are the right choice for both people, it’s still a very, very hard thing. Remember to take some time for yourself and I hope you’ll soon be on to bigger and better things, whether they be personal or professional or both!

  • Scott
    August 6, 2009 at 6:36 pm

    Well, I glanced and skimmed at the 244 previous comments. That’s a lot of love for you! Man, there are alot of female looking commenter names.

    I could say that time heals wounds of the heart, that things happen for a reason, or doors close and windows tend to open (maybe there is a snappy, cute, intelligent Jackson wine man waiting for you) Or, I could say a number of other different comfort phrases. Everyone has been there before, and we all know it sucks. We also know when its right, its right, and you will find it in due course when He thinks you are ready.

    If I were single, I’d say good riddance, more chances for me. πŸ™‚

    I’m happily not single and instead say: Go for Run, Write, Cook, and Be Free.

  • Talia
    August 6, 2009 at 7:52 pm

    Oh Jenna, Im so sorry, but I can see how strong you are, and I know you will persevere. To quote scrubs ” were right here beside you, and right here we will stay. Wait for tommorrow because I swear to you, your going to be ok.”

  • Faith C.
    August 6, 2009 at 8:42 pm

    Jenna,I’m so sorry. Sometimes it’s hard to see what God’s plan is for us when things like this happen, but good for you for believing. It’s true – it will work out somehow. You are a talented, caring, intelligent beautiful lady and things will be good for you, I know. You obviously have lots of love and support and that can’t be bad either. πŸ˜‰ Hang in there.

  • Leahbug
    August 6, 2009 at 9:12 pm

    Aww Jenna, I’m really sorry to hear that. I hope that in the future you can find reason in all that you’ve gone through this year. At least know that you have people who care about your all over the world (even in Brisbane, Australia, where I’m from!)

  • Christie
    August 6, 2009 at 9:18 pm

    Hey Jenna,
    I read your blog every day (I love it!) but I have never commented before, but I just feel so sad for you right now and I was so upset when I read this post. I just wanted to tell you that when I was running on a cross country team and we used to have very hard runs or workouts, one of my best friends would always say in the middle it: This too shall pass. I used to think that with every step I took during the workout. You have been through so much and it must be so hard, but remember that this too shall pass!

  • LK- Healthy Delcious
    August 6, 2009 at 9:46 pm

    oh sweetie, I’m so sorry!! I’m a fairly new reader and only an occasional commenter, but I’m really sorry to hear this.

  • Josia
    August 6, 2009 at 9:52 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear about your loss – keep your head up & I hope u start feeling better soon!!! I absolutely love your blog. πŸ™‚

    “May God give you for every storm, a rainbow. For every tear, a smile. For every care, a promise, and a blessing for every trial. For every problem life sends, a faithful friend to share. For every sigh a sweet song, and an answer for every prayer.”

  • Little Miss
    August 6, 2009 at 11:06 pm

    I have always enjoyed all your blogs! You are a wonderful woman and an inspiration for all of us. You will get through this!! I ended a 4 year long relationship a little while ago. Stay strong!! You have so many who love you!!

  • Crunchy Granola Gal
    August 6, 2009 at 11:33 pm

    jenna,
    i am a lurker and rarely comment on your blog, but i just wanted to reinforce what others have already said — so much good will come out of this decision, for whatever reason it was made. really. i went through a really tough breakup a year ago and still think about it/him everyday, but know that i am a better person as a result and will never regret what we had and unfortunately will never have once again. a lot is changing in your life and this is a great time to really discover just how tough you are and exactly what your goals are. go for it, chica! πŸ™‚

  • Lainie
    August 6, 2009 at 11:52 pm

    My heart goes out to you, Jenna. It sounds like you believe the old adage, “what’s meant to be, will be”. You have so much going for you – you’re gorgeous and you seem like an absolute doll. I wish you nothing but the best!

  • Andrea
    August 7, 2009 at 12:15 am

    Hey Jenna,

    I kind of guessed, but I didn’t want to be nosey. You are a FABULOUS and WONDERFUL person and you deserve the very best. You are doing the right thing by hanging out with your friends and taking it easy. My grandfather was probably the smartest man I know, and when I was going through a break up he would say two things:
    1. This too shall pass.
    2. One day at a time.
    Those two sentences have gotten me through a lot of hard times.

    We are here for you!

  • Ruby Red Vegan
    August 7, 2009 at 12:21 am

    I’m a regular reader…I haven’t missed a post or True/Slant article of yours for months, and I rarely comment…but I really just want to say that my heart goes out to you, girl! I’m sorry about the loss, but you are so in the right place for knowing that God has awesome plans for you! Keep your head up — I know you can stay strong, you are definitely one of my role models. You rock! πŸ™‚

  • Jojo
    August 7, 2009 at 10:49 am

    I’m sorry. Your courage to share that news with the blog world is nothing short of amazing. Focus on you now. You deserve it.

  • Pam
    August 7, 2009 at 12:23 pm

    I’m so sorry to read this. Big hugs from Ohio. I’m glad to know you have a great group of friends and family nearby!

  • Emily Eats
    August 8, 2009 at 1:50 am

    So sorry to hear this news, but loving your attitude toward it.
    Take good care πŸ™‚

  • Jennifer
    August 8, 2009 at 11:48 am

    Hi Jenna,
    My heart goes out to you. Look up Jeremiah 29:11 its one of many comforting verses I turn to when I need assurance!

    Blessings,
    Jen

  • serena
    August 8, 2009 at 2:55 pm

    Hi Jenna,

    I have been reading here for a long time now and not commented before (bad me) but I did want to stop in and say I am sorry about you and Ryan and I wish nothing but the best for you. Keep fighting the good fight and take care.

    ~ serena

  • Michelle
    August 9, 2009 at 2:28 pm

    Jenna, I am so sorry to hear about you and Ryan. It’s crazy to think we sort of got to know you two as a couple. But you seem like such a strong and independent girl, and this gives you space to go for those dreams of yours! I give you all my best.

  • Anais
    September 1, 2009 at 6:47 pm

    Hi Jenna!

    I’ve been away this past month on a wonderful trip and am only now catching up on all your past blog posts…I have to say when I saw the reason why you had been in a funk, my jaw dropped… I so know how you feel. When I got back from my trip, my boyfriend, who I thought was the love of my life (so did everyone else) dumped me out of nowhere. Obviously I don’t know the details of your personal life, but for us it was going great (just like it seemed to be for you two). And just like in your situation, we seemed to be taking big steps (you had just moved in together, and while we had been living together for a while, he was talking to me about us getting a condo together).

    Anyways, what I meant to say was that I felt your pain when I saw those words on the screen. Hope you are doing ok! πŸ™‚

    Anais

    ps: love the blog πŸ™‚

  • Paige
    January 1, 2014 at 6:35 pm

    Jenna! I’ve been reading your blog for years now….actually about a month or two after this post. I recently reread your book and was curious about Ryan since I’d never read about him on the blog (hence my digging here). I love you and Adam together and love how God had something so beautiful and amazing waiting for you after this heartache. Isn’t it amazing how things always work themselves out?! Can’t wait to see the amazing things you and your family will do, and of course, can’t wait to meet your future son!!